Is anyone else finding this week tough?

[Seaair2]

Since the beginning of lockdown 3 I’ve tried to remain positive etc but this week I just feel I’ve hit a bit of a brick wall with it all! For the first time since this all began I’ve sort of stopped and thought what on Earth is going on, it’s awful and scary that no one knows what problems more new variations will bring etc in the future. Is anyone else the same, doing quite well keeping positive then the next week feeling a bit rubbish about it all?

Yes. I feel like I might be sick from the pressure of it all.

This week has been tough, without doubt.

I think it's a number of things. The fact that we have vaccines, with a roll-out going better than expected, but there's still no end in sight. On a good day I tell myself they're ramping up the fear to stop us getting rebellious but really they know we're on the road out. But having no end date is depressing. There's also the fact that January is grim at the best of times.

Then there's the fact that we're approaching the one year anniversary of lockdown. Just yesterday I was thinking about a trip I made to Spain a year ago. Then I had to correct myself with the realisation that it was actually 2 years ago. This past year has just been a long blur of emptiness. Nearly a whole year, with no idea when it will all be over. So depressing.

Yes.been positive all year really but I do suffer from SAD.The cold grey shitty ness of it all has begun to suck the life out of me.
My dh has temper tantrums several times a week and spoils what would be a lovely family meal.!!
I know this is just dragging now so I am keeping busy and died my hair pink.😁
This too shall pass and we will see where we are work wise.you are not alone.

DH and I are both retired and have no health problems. We thought we were coping fine until yesterday when he went to get something out of the fridge to discover puddles of milk as the to hadn't been put back on the milk properly. He went into a nuclear meltdown, as did I because he did. Total overreaction but we realised later that it was all the stress we didn't realise we had over the virus that was coming out.

Yep. It’s the moving goalposts that are really pushing me off. Case and hospitalisations are coming down , icy admissions and deaths are levelling off. A lot of vaccines have been given and we’re coming out of winter which is always tough on the nhs but still we’re being told it will be months before restrictions will be lifted

This week has been awful. Kids bored of online learning. I have run out of ideas.to motivate and help them. School has increased work load. Now we find out it's the 8th March at earliest. I really don't see how this is sustainable at all. I understand we need to stay home but schools need to think about taking children from different year groups part time at least or just let the younger ones play and have fun at home. Children under 8 are too young to learn online. It's ridiculous.

Yes. Boris on the press conference yesterday tipped me right over when I've been teetering for a long while. How fucking dare he say they've done all they could? How dare he stand there looking like a fucking scarecrow and say he's sorry? He's only sorry he looks bad not for what has happened. And brush your hair you useless wanker.

I have absolutely had it.

My DS has been has been having epic meltdowns which is not like him. Has become angry and so upset all the time. It's not right for kids so young to not see their friends for months on end.

I caved and emailed the school and he's going 4 days next week in his key worker place I was trying not to utilise. I'm bloody lucky I have the option as I know most don't.

I'm sick of everything and everyone. I can't think of a time I've ever felt so angry and helpless. There's no point to anything anymore.

@ammary

I'm feeling it today. My job involves reviewing all hospital inpatient deaths and talking to the bereaved. The sheer number of deaths this week has been horrifying and the stories I have read and heard haunt me. My beloved grandad died of Covid and his funeral was today - I was just glad to have a day of compassionate leave. I feel like my empathy is just being stretched to the very limit and am becoming very detached. I'm starting to think it will never end.

I'm utterly fucked off with the whole thing. Feel like I've gone from a bubbly outgoing person to withdrawn and miserable.

I'm just numb to it all. Every day is like Groundhog Day, at my desk from 7.30 til gone knows when which is made worse because everyone else is working from home so we're all "available" at all hours, after all there is nothing else to do.
Nursery shut because they've had cases so DS has basically been in front of a screen all day and ignored - he'll probably turn into a sociopath or something from watching too much you tube kids.
We've all had Covid despite following the rules...So lockdown worked for us, not!
I should feel sad or worried about the deaths but I just feel desensitized to it, the constant amount of talking about deaths and crying nurses/doctors has just made it feel like the norm and that's how life is.
The whole thing is shit, for every single person who each have their own struggles.
I'm sure life will go back to normal one day but for now it's all just bollox.

It's been a zero motivation week here.

The Good news is that all our over 80s relatives have had a vaccine. But now I feel rather flat, if relieved.