2020canfuckitself sorry to hear about your mum. In your situation I would feel the same way.
I am sick of it all now. I go to work with clients whose behaviours put me and colleagues at greater risk of catching it. We take every precaution to protect them whilst they couldn't give a shit for doing the right thing. Houses full of neighbours, visitors and family that are non resident. I go home, I don't break the rules, I hardly go anywhere and plan my week so avoid unnecessary shopping trips, and I don't see any friends. Today I had to go and pick up a parcel and get petrol. I parked at the parcel office and just sobbed. I came home, no parcel, no petrol. My parcel wasn't pretty shoes, it is lightbulbs. Its the only thing I have ordered off of the internet in all this time. Should I buy from Amazon to protect people's jobs, or not order to protect their health? Not sure really.
DH goes in on the train to his essential non essential job every day into a hot spot to a company that has no measures in place to protect its staff. He is pragmatic and I am pissed off with him down playing the risks. I am fit, and thin, and healthy, and bloody minded and careful. He is 52, puffs like a tractor, couldn't run for his life......I worry.
The problem is that people are catching it doing the activities that are mandated necessary in the environments the government deems necessary. The guidance to work from home where you can was directed to workers, and should have been guidance to employers stating they must facilitate home working or furlough staff, except where the business is a critical business.
I have had the first jab, yeehoo except I feel like a guinea pig and might not even get the 2nd. I might be 33% less likely to be ill, or maybe perhaps less ill by 33% or 33% less likely to catch it......who knows. But I am lucky.
But more than lucky I am bloody angry with this government and their shambolic handling of this. Highest European death rate, highest death rate per million of any country in the world.
They are neither protecting life or the economy. Some from the Kings Fund have pointed to "their mistakes" and said that questions need to be asked. Yes, but these are not mistakes, these are supposedly carefully worked our decisions based upon knowledge and data, evidence and careful argumentation. Even if they are not rational or reasonable decisions they are still decisions with consequences, consequences fully set out to them by both the office for budget responsibility and other economic advisors and SAGE. Shame Boris can't do detail otherwise he might have realised by now that there will come a point where people want his head on a stick.