Wellbeing check-in and talk thread: How are you holding up?

[DrWard]

Hi friends,

Times are obviously hard right now. I wanted to create a space where people can talk, or vent their frustrations, or find comfort from others.

How are you holding up?

Within the last 24 hours everything has taken a u turn, DD has symptoms, and now im back to being obsessed by covid. She had to have a test, in struggling to breathe and I don't know if its just because I'm panicking, no other symptoms and it comes and goes.
I can't help but catastrophise, what if she gets really ill and our last few days together were spent separated because of my fear, what if I've got it anyway, and I die (im at risk because of my health and weight)
I've spent the past 3 months telling her there was no way Christmas could be cancelled as our little family would be together, she has presents and we will have food, and now we're facing her either being in her room for most of it, or wearing masks which makes her sad. Same for her birthday on boxing day.

I’m doing ok today, had a bit of a cry yesterday about schools not going back (I’m in Scotland) but have got up this morning and rescheduled all my work so I can homeschool the kids - keeping my fingers crossed they do actually go back on the 18th. Christmas plans have had to change and I’m very low on Christmas spirit.

'Toxic positivity is a nightmare at the best of times'

Such a great description! Some people just cant handle difficult feelings, their own or anyone else's.

Thank you for the redeployment wishes I've just found out, and its 100% what I did not want and did not volunteer for. I can get my head around it over Christmas I guess. Next person who mentions NHS 'heroes' to me though......

Bad. I have SAD even in a normal year but this is ridiculous. I just want to go to bed and wake up in April.

"Self improvement' is another annoying thing. along the lines of toxic positively I find

'Self improvement' is another annoying thing. along the lines of toxic positively I find'

Yes, and having to find the 'good' in every horrible experience. Nothing wrong with being challenged and learning stuff, but sometimes experiences or situations are just plain shit. Not everything has to be spun into something positive. Its delusional

I saw this on Twitter earlier and it really resonated with me. Hugs to everyone struggling.

I'm in a bit of a state today to be honest, I'm nearly 26 weeks pregnant and its a high risk pregnancy anyway, weekly scans because it's twins with sIUGR. So anxiety is already so high! I'm terrified I have covid but no idea if it's all in my head! I had a dry throat on Saturday, then Sunday and today I feel like I've got a very slight cough, like one time last night I coughed and there was a bit of phlegm, the rest of today it's all I can think about, I'm convincing myself I want to cough but there's never anything there if i do. While I was working this morning it all seemed to disappear for a few hours, so maybe it is just in my head. With it being constantly in the news I'm struggling to think about anything else! No idea if I should go to my scan tomorrow but terrified not to because if there's something bad and it doesn't get picked up it could mean serious harm to my little ones. The NHS doesn't do weekly scans for fun!

I agree about toxic positivity - being told to stay positive, "it can really help" is the worst!

@Inpersuitofhappiness struggling to breathe is a classic anxiety symptom so I wouldn't worry about that being covid. It's very rare for children to get very ill from covid so that's also something positive. So sorry for what you're going through though!