I am utterly depressed with this situation

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It feels like we have all just been robbed of 9 months and God knows when a proper life will come back. There aren't words for how much I hate this miserable apology for a life.

It’s a Sunday. Everything feels worse on a Sunday. Chin up, I know how you’re feeling but try and count your blessings where you can and be kind to yourself.

It'll get better x

It has been tough for all of us, you are not alone. But brighter days lie ahead.

Yeah, things are feeling pretty bleak.

I've just read a few threads on here and am sat here in utter despair.

This virus has taught people to be afraid of human interaction and they are treating everyone like disease ridden corpses to be avoided at all costs.

Fuck the word pandemic, we're living "The Walking Dead".

Yep, we’ve just had to cancel yet another break away due to not being able to mix indoors with another family. All I seem to do is work, then home to the drudgery of tidying and cooking. I long for a break and a change of scenery.

The virus spreads by human contact. So for now that has to be minimised. It’s not a permanent state of affairs.

Same. I have lost excitement for life and not sure how to get out of this weird funk? It’s like there’s nothing to look forward to, I feel dull and have no motivation etc

There was a partial crowd at the Liverpool match this evening. It was so lovely to see it brought tears to my eyes. Things will get better!

This is a tough time of year. The dark evenings really don’t help.

Things will get better. You’re by no means the only person feeling like this.

I get it op. Its beyond being bored now.

Things will get better (though I do know how you feel and have felt similar myself).
They will. People won't cope like this long term, surely.

It’s not a permanent state of affairs.

Too little too late for many.

I have just read we might go into tier 3 and I cried I just can't see this ending

No ones robbed you, you're alive and things will get better.
Everyone is in the same boat, be thankful if you come out the other side with all your friends and family safe and well.

I'm with you OP. I've had a few moments recently where I've been reminiscing about something I did last year and it almost shocked me to realise how much my quality of life has reduced in such a short time. I can't get that excited about the vaccine as it's going to be ages before everyone gets vaccinated. I just can't imagine carrying on like this until April let alone next summer or autumn.

It’s interesting that you’re feeling this right now and worth examining why. My optimism has lifted enormously since the news about the vaccines and I can now see a better future than I could at the beginning of the second wave which was probably my low point.

If I allow myself to think about what I’ve lost (which in truth is just holidays and fun stuff and social stuff, not anything serious like a loved one or my job), it’s easy to get sucked into a resentful downward spiral, but that’s not helpful, so I’m trying not to get sucked in.

Without wanting to downplay your feelings, just stop reading all the threads on here on this topic if you're prone to feeling low or depression. Honestly, people talk such bollocks in this topic and enjoy a good doom and gloom post.

Hide the topic and tune out the news. I only ever listen to something coming from behind a podium tbh

These feelings will pass OP.
My mum lost her husband and we lost our dad and didn’t get to say goodbye. Can you imagine trying to mourn and rebuild a life in this climate?
I am grateful my immediate family are safe and well, glad my mum is still with us. I am thankful for small things like laughter, a sunny bright day, twinkling Christmas lights, speaking to a neighbour socially distantly, speaking to a friend on the phone, hearing how well the teen DC are doing at school (on a virtual parents evenings) seeing a cute dog, hearing or seeing a child having fun, the house is warm, we have food to eat and looking ahead to the snow, frosty mornings, spring and summer.

I know people are trying to be kind I really do and it is good of you, plus Gooseberry I am sorry for your loss I am.

But after reading all these posts honestly I dont feel any better. I gave up on MN after the utterly appalling things I read here in lockdown 1 about people who seemed to enjoy others loss of freedom and I probably should stop reading it again. I have lost people, had hard times financially, bee isolated and missed out on a lot of the good things in life (as well as some positive things) too myself and I just look forward now and think I have nothing left to enjoy. I am so sad at what this situation has done to people's relationship with each other. I'm so depressed and tired of seeing politicians other people chose mismanaging out lives and scientists who seem to have no idea about the mental and emotional cost of all of this. No socialising, no nice new memories, no new friends met, no new cultural experiences just a hideous life draining monochrome sludge of a year and I hate it, I just hate it.

I hear you, OP.

I do understand. I just try to fight it as much as I can, because the alternative is getting more down.

Sorry OP you are feeling like this. You don't need me to tell you you are not alone. No one can tell ua when this will all end but as someone who follows the science thru John Campbell and has a strong Christian faith I firmly believe this time next year we will all be back to deliberately which LBD to wear and enjoying openly hugging family and friends alike.

For the time being my advice which I know from personal experience is easier said than done is to focus just on the day here and now. Try to enjoy all the small things we often ignore in our busy lives, the beauty of nature, a child's laugh, how good your favourite food tastes etc. Be kind to yourself and treat yourself in small ways throughout your day.

Sending you a huge hug and to everyone on here. xx

I understand how you feel. I think in the spring we were all quite fearful and happier to comply for what it seemed would be a limited time. We had good weather and the anticipated 'short' step out of real life didn't seem so bad - but it's been anything but short. Not to downplay the virus - it is nasty and certainly very dangerous to certain people, but I don't think it's proved to be the rampent killer virus we feared back then. People are questioning whether the sacrifices (people's livelihoods and freedoms) are worth it. It's winter, the weather doesn't always permit socialising outdoors, we miss our families and friends and resurarants and bars, spontaneity and the theatre; sports, our hobbies and things that cheer us up in general. Winter is gloomy and lots of us rely on Christmas to brighten the mood and that is not the same as we're used to.

It's been hard....but it has to end at some point and somehow. People cannot and simply will not live like this forever

I felt like you last Sunday op.

Since then I have sat outside with friends for three nights in a row, yes it is was cold, but nothing a ski jacket can't fix. It is time to go out and see your friends, live your life and do what you can to feel better.

I am honestly feeling so much happier, lighter and back to myself today.

What are you missing the most? Start there and try and make it happen. Many theatres are now open, depending on your area restaurants and bars. You can stay in a hotel, swim and go to the gym anywhere. You sound like you are getting depressed op