It won't just be me, I know a lot of people are struggling with this. The new lockdown announcement has made me sink into pure despair. I'm struggling to see what we are fighting for anymore - this life does not seem to be one worth living if we are going to be in and out of lockdown indefinitely.
I will almost certainly lose my job now, I was one of the lucky ones to survive redundancy the first time but I know my neck will be on the line this time. No Christmas season is going to cripple the company I work for on an unimaginable scale if this lockdown is extended past 2 December.
I don't want to get up, eat, talk to anyone. It all feels so pointless. I've never felt so hopeless in my life.