And yes, even though I've now caught Covid it still don't want schools closed. I do want this government to admit that schools are now Covid secure places and that staff, and some children, are at risk in them. I want some form of mitigation to be allowed in schools to protect staff and children. I want numbers to not be hidden and hushed up.
When my result came in my overriding emotion wasn't about how poorly I could have been, or how I'd been at risk from strokes and heart attacks due to the nature of the complication.
It was an overriding feeling of guilt. Phoning school to tell them was nerve wracking. Not because I thought my Ht would be an issue or blame me - but the guilt that I could have put others at risk unknowingly and that I could, depending on PHEs view, cause the closure of the whole school.
I've been mainly in bed for the past week. Even whilst in hospital I was responding to remote learning. This week, as some bubbles have closed due to more cases, I've been posting home learning from my bed and responding to parents.
I could just ignore and leave it for other staff, but everyone's busy too. Fortunately I am capable of answering and posting and it helps pass the time when I'm not really up to doing very much at home.
Im doing it because I care.
And to be fair to the parents - they don't know I'm ill. They don't know I have Covid and they don't know I was in hospital last week.
I don't know any staff who want schools closed. We are much preferring being at work, even with the weird circumstances. But an acknowledgment that we are not actually Covid safe would be a start!