Feel more negative now than when Lockdown was happening..

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Is anyone else feeling this way? I know what I’m feeling is pretty ‘first world problems’ and selfish, especially considering all those who lost their lives or lost their loved ones. I know I have a lot to be thankful for, and that others have it much worse.

But this just feels never-ending now, and I’m struggling to feel positive about a lot. All the nice things and little joys in life seem to have been taken away. My parents have to shield and I’m struggling with the lack of contact there (we’re all very close and previously i visited frequently, went out with my mum a lot) I can do a distanced garden visit but winter is drawing in now. Kids back at school for 3 days, little one just about getting used to reception, when eldest gets a cough/sore throat. Struggled to get test, finally got one for today so another day or two stuck at home. Dreading at how often this will happen or if school will close again.

Everything was on hold for summer and we cancelled a holiday, a trip away and couldn’t do a lot of our other plans. But now it seems all the autumn/winter things will be cancelled too- no Halloween, school assemblies or Christmas nativity play, visiting Santa or Christmas family gathering or New Year’s Eve parties. Then we are into 2021 and a year on from the start of the pandemic, with it all still hanging over us.

In lockdown everyone spoke of ‘when this is all over’ but it beginning to see it’s not that straightforward. Autumns beginning and they’ve just announced fines for more than 6 people gathering, events are still being cancelled everywhere, we have to wear masks and socially distant.

I don’t know the point of this, just needed a little vent.

It's pretty awful. The thought of Christmas under a six people rule is incredibly sad. My mum's got dementia and my dad's got heart problems and they are only barely coping now. My daughter is so pleased to be back at school but god knows how long that can last. My husband's had no work since March and probably won't have any until at least March 2021 (theatre). We've got no money and are just about surviving but the longer it goes on the harder it gets.

Life is very boring. Which sounds like the least of it but actually it just makes everything else feel worse. I've been so good and stayed at home and barely been anywhere for six months. And it feels like it hasn't even helped apart from obviously not actually being ill myself.

And this bloody shitshow of a government. If I thought they were even minimally competent that would really help. Plus we've got the end of the transition period to look forward to at which point everything will get exponentially worse.

Yes.
In lockdown I felt pretty purposeful.
I feel awful now, kids back at school, dh working more hours and very stressed, I've not gone back to work. I hate the new fucking normal, I feel like I'm walking a tightrope with school (ds was shielding, and if cases rise locally I think we'll have to pull him out). I feel rudderless and alone.

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Lovely sunny day and been (so far) for 2 walks and about to do the 3rd (2 school runs) but I got told off this morning at the NT coffee shop for walking through the wrong door. They won't supply a tray or waiter service so I took the shortest (empty) route, but it was labelled in and I went out I just can't deal with this shit any more!

Yes, I know what you mean. I feel the shock is now wearing off and I'm just left with the sadness of what might have been. I dont say anything to anyone as I know I'm lucky that no one in my family has died and we're all safe etc. But this year was THE one. The one we had planned and been saving for for 2 years. We were supposed to get married in May and then me and my husband were taking a 3 month sabbatical and travelling the world for our honeymoon. The wedding was cancelled and we wont get to go travelling now. Our jobs have been amazing letting us stay and not take the sabbatical but I dont think will be so understanding if we wanted to do it again. We're also 30 soon so it's time to start making plans for a family. And at some point we need to get married but it will never be the wedding we planned for 18 months. I feel a bit like I'm grieving for a life I should have had and I'm finding it hard to enjoy the one that I've now been given. I know I sound selfish.

I’m fed up of the lack of spontaneity and how everyday activities are now unpleasantly altered & difficult due to social distancing.

I met a friend in the West End for lunch today; I have a day off but went straight home.

There’s no point mooching around the shops because of the unpleasantness of wearing a mask, no dressing rooms and no make up counters; my favourite coffee shops can’t do eat in because they’re too small, and museums etc all need to be pre booked. What’s the point in London anymore?

@CloudsCanLookLikeSheep

I remember having the realisation early in lockdown.. but, but if they lift the restrictions surely the virus will just grow again? And realising that nothing short of mass vaccination will end this. I dared to think it had kind of gone away but my earlier realisation was right.

This frustrates me so much. Even our stupid incompetent government never once said that the virus would go away. The lockdown was to 'protect the NHS.' Then people got it into their heads that if everyone believed really hard to that only walking one hour a day would get rid of a virus then like magic that would happen.

This was always on the cards, from day one. What the fuck did people expect? Really? If you accepted lockdown and felt we all had to be 'kept safe' then this is what you've been landed with and there was nothing else you were ever going to get.

I have friends and clients in lots of service industries; fitness, beauty etc etc.

They have all said today they have had a significant spike in cancellations today.

Project fear is working.

This madness is never ending

I don’t feel too bad as in my mind I basically wrote off this Autumn/Winter a few months ago.

However if spring doesn’t bring vaccines and less cases I will probably lose my shit.

I feel pretty low too. The rule of 6 has really pissed me off. I was quite happy with 6 people OR two households being able to meet. We and most of our friends work full time and have young families. So when we meet at weekends we tend to come as a package - I don't want to sacrifice my already limited time with my child to see a friend, I want to be able to combine the two! The rule of six outlaws the vast majority of those meetings.