God I feel flat.

[ssd]

Not even dressed yet.
Just feel low and shit and flat today.

@ssd

I feel the same. Went to sleep in day clothes yesterday, havent bothered to change. Dragged myself through the homeschooling and now Im aware of the mess and the dinner that needs to be cooked.
Feel so blah

Feel your pain OP

Budge up on the 'flat bench' @ssd.

I am in my dressing gown and have done nothing of any value yet today.

Same, managed to dress, that's it. Everything is getting me down
Handhold for you

I'm still having a lie in. The DCs are slobbing around with screens. DH has finally showered and "work" just seems to be talking on the phone today.

We've hit a big hole this week.

At least the rain might help the bald patch in the lawn grie back.

Just had a shower. Now need to dry hair, which feels beyond me today. Its sunny here, it poured yesterday. I need to go a walk. But am sooooooo over it.

There are a million things i could be doing but I CBA.

Me too. Just waiting for my DS to go on the Xbox, then I'm going for a lie down.

Same. I'm just bored with the whole situation now. Keep trying to stay positive but it's difficult.

Thought it was just me and my situation.

The greyness (here at least) outside must have something to do with it!

I recognise this feeling well, and as a sufferer from depression and anxiety, it concerns me.

I have found a friend to act as an external accountability buddy - I tell her what my step target is each day, and text her when I've reached it. She chases me if she hasn't heard from me by late afternoon.

Same.

I'd been feeling quite depressed for a while, then last week was almost upbeat. Maybe it was the good weather, but I felt things were really starting to get back to normal.

But now these last few days I've felt really down again. I've had a day full of Zoom meetings and they positively depress me. I get that I'm very fortunate to still have a job and still be getting paid - at least for now - but it seems that now I still have everything I dislike about work and none of the things I enjoy: the social interaction, the travel, the change of scene, even just deciding what to wear in the morning.

I just hate being the same person all the time, if that makes any sense.

I’ve also had a day of zoom meetings and also find them depressing! I could barely bring myself to brush my hair for them today.

I think the weather has a lot to do with it.

I’m still up at 7 everyday, showered and at my desk / kitchen table by 8.30

But I just CBA doing the work I need to do anymore. I stare at the same thing forever, I detest with a passion the video calls that consume 50% of my time, I feel like I can’t make plans for the business and I miss travelling and like a pp just choosing what to wear in the morning. I’m wearing ‘active wear’ all the time...that was fun once...now it’s deflating

It just seems neverending, doesn’t it?
I need a Plan and a Timeline or I just drift.

A plan? Wouldn’t that be so nice 🤓

Yes, it would! I thought at the beginning of this a Plan would form but no, it hasn’t. I think these last couple of weeks have been worse than the very beginning of lockdown for me.

Yes, at first it seemed to have an end in sight...now it’s just endless.

I used to wake up in the morning and make a mental list of all the things I was going to do that day.

There’s only so much you can do now.

I can’t bear to be around paranoid corona people either....they drain me even more

Does anyone else find they have to either mute to TV or turn it over during the numerous CV-feel-good-special times-making memories-shite adverts? Designed to be uplifting but just make you feel worse because that isn't anywhere near a reflection of your life right now? Or the endless articles I get via email about how to cope with home working AND NOTHING ABOUT HOMEWORKING WITH KIDS AROUND!

It's funny, isn't it, I don't think we ever feel totally happy with our own situation. 've been back at work FT for 2 weeks now. I'm really enjoying the stimulation and seeing colleagues but god, having to set my alarm for 6.30 each day is a killer, I hate having to wear work clothes, and most of all I resent the lack of free time to do what I want to do when I want to do it, at the pace I want to do it, and to make nice home made lunches like soup etc.and to take my time eating it and savouring meal times. The house is a shit hole so quickly again after being the cleanest and tidiest it's been for years and I resent the fact I have no time to keep on top of it, or to garden now that my plants that I ordered online have finally arrived, or to do much exercise. I resent the fact that the pace of my life has changed from being relatively slowly and laid back, back to stressed and rushed again.

BUT, immediately before I went back to work I was thinking "Jesus, this is groundhog day, my brain is turning to mush and I'm starting to get depressed having no stimulation to do decent work projects" plus I was drifting into bad habit ssuch as junk food and gin every day cos I "deserved it, cos of boring old lockdown", staring to procrastinate cos it didn't matter if I left something till the nexrt day cos there was all the time in the world etc.

I've come to the conclusion that part time work would be the ideal best of both worlds situation. I've done that before in a more junior role but no chance of that now.

And the constant invitations to fucking coronavirus webinars talking bollocks about some bullshit angle on wfh

And the constant invitations to fucking coronavirus webinars talking bollocks about some bullshit angle on wfh

Yes, and the faux cheery, upbeat tone, trying to pretend that online 'interaction' is 'just as good' as the real thing, when we all know it isn't and was never meant to be.

I'm much more comfortable with people who are frank about the fact that all this is pretty shyte and we just have to make the best of a bad thing, not pretend that Zoom can ever replicate actual human interaction.

I've just booked a night in a lovely country hotel for July 10th. It's cheered me up. They reckon they're definitely opening?

We were supposed to be doing a long distanced walk. I'd planned it all last year.

Weather is dull and wet. We've got a street full of police because something nad has happened over the road. Hearing awful stories but I'll wait until I know for sure.

Am off to the shop in the pissy wet for some milk. Joy.

I was crying this morning because I’m going to be turning 50 soon and all my plans have gone to shit. I have no friends or family nearby that I can sit in the garden with and I can’t motivate myself to think of how else I can make it special. I’ve spent the entire time WFH and home schooling and I’ve seen 2 people outside my family in that time. I’m done.My DH has been going to work the entire time and actually finds it easier because of lack of people on the train and no rush to get DD from school. I’m tempted to just take a sleeping tablet on my birthday and just sleep through it ( I know it’s a pity party - I cant help it )

Something bad has happened *

@Divebar that's really crap. My Mum was 80 in January and we had a trip planned for May and it's DS1's 21st soon. I think we are just going to postpone everything until it's possible to enjoy a celebration.