Anyone else just fed up?!

[Ginandbitterlemonplease]

Sorry I know there has been a million other posts like this, but I’m really struggling tonight and just needed somewhere to vent!

I’m actually dreading waking up in the morning to another full day of working from home with just me and my 4 year old. I’m actually trying to stay awake late tonight just so I get a bit me time.

My little boy is getting far too much screen time, and the guilt is overwhelming but even he has lost his motivation to do anything! I feel bad that I can’t play with him for most of the day and his new best friend is the tv or tablet 😭
Home schooling has went straight out the window, he is just refusing and I haven’t got the energy to battle anymore.
I’m sick of fucking cooking, washing up, even eating and the weight I’ve put on. Jesus!!! Yet I’m still eating a friggen cheese cake whilst moaning about how much I’m eating.

Everyone I know seems to be coping so well and tonight I just feel like a bit fat failure.

Sorry for such a negative post, I just needed someone to tell me they feel exactly the same and I’m not losing my mind! The thought of tomorrow just fills me with dread. Eurgh!

@Ginandbitterlemonplease I’ve already decided we’ll have a takeaway tonight! I’m with you on the weight issue too. I’ve not lost any of the baby weight from 11 months ago and I’m still standing on the scales each morning hoping it’s magically vanished- just like most of 2020. The calendar depresses me.

My 2 year old woke up with a wet bed in the night and was crying to go to sleep at Nanny and Grandad’s. I nearly joined in- I can’t think of anything more wonderful right now than packing them both off for the night, weekend, week....

I’ve decided to turn today around (as all 3 of us lie in bed, watching the gazillionth episode of Blaze, hoping DH doesn’t come home randomly and catch us out!! )- I’m going to take a bottle of Prosecco to the duck pond and share with my friend whilst the boys feed the ducks!

The news yesterday was positive- let’s hope it continues....

Can I join in with you all. I haven't got DC so it is just me and DH working at home. We get on very well so that's not a problem in itself but we are both just so over this now. The relentless endless days and weeks with nothing to look forward to. Smug ministers on the daily briefing basically saying 'suck it up we're doing it for your own good', doom laden scientists and the fact that they've sneakily made it illegal to be in someone's house. I could (and do) cry with the sheer frustration of it all. And I feel so much for all of you with DC and the schools. It is an absolutely horrendous situation and is doing much damage to them. It really is a shit show.

We made it through another day! Just ha.

I’ve just getting a snotty email of my boss saying my standard of work is slipping- I’ve only been back 6 days after being furloughed. Apparently there is no excuse for me not to be putting the hard work in (FYI I really, really am) and that having a break for 10 weeks should have been enough to recharge my batteries! I didn’t realise being stuck in the house on my own with a 4 year old was a break.

Now I’m riddled with anxiety and crying into a bag of Doritos. I just want our normal back. This is draining the life out of me 😭 xx

I'm over it too and the lowest I have felt in a long time.

Single parent, 2 sons aged 7 and 3. I'm actually furloughed but still working every 3 weeks to run payroll and put in the furlough claim. And the reality is a lot is being asked of me in between from my boss, and she calls me most nights to "fill me in".

I have a recent ish heartbreak. I hate being single. I've barely had an physically affection from anyone other than my children in the last 3 months. I'm not constantly on zoom calls with friends so feeling a bit sad and lonely. I'm doing a degree and cant find the time or motivation to pick it up again. Im feeling a little desperate to me honest. We're half considering going to live with my parents for a while.

Oh and yes, I've gotten fat too

I’m glad to have found this thread. I’m so done, I dread waking up and starting the day, the same fights , constantly cooking, cleaning, washing. In a single parent of 3 kids aged 11 months to 7 and I’m in hell. I can’t do this anymore, I miss adults, I don’t get a break and I feel like I’m being the shittest parent in the world

I've had enough. I've taken myself out of lockdown as much as possible with so much still closed or not operating normally.

I am wfh and have a 1yo and 4yo. Husband works long hours and I am by myself with the kids a lot of the time. I feel so so fucking low and don’t see any way out of this. I’m clinically vulnerable but I’m starting to think maybe I could just get a family member round to help every so often just for some fucking company and a helping hand in order to restore a teeny bit of my mental health. I honestly feel like I’m not myself anymore and it’s scary. Has anyone else had any help from family? I think I’m passed the point of caring about breaking lockdown rules because I’m pretty sure I’m about to have a breakdown

Yep feel the same here but took a couple of days of work and I do feel better as I wasn't stressed. On the downside I spent the time baking and now fell like a telly tubby!

I do feel for my poor kids as they are just watching you tube and playing compute games but they are 5 and 7 and both me and my husband are trying to work full time.

I usually stay up very late as I need time on my own to unwind but then I'm exhausted

Yeah I wish I could find someone who would break lockdown with me! Buddy up for sanity

I feel your pain. I'm home alone with an almost 2 year old all day every day and its driving me to despair. I love her so much but my god I am so sick of peppa pig and repeating myself a million times a day I could cry. I work bank for the nhs but atm theres literally ok shifts going so I haven't been at work for weeks so havent even got that to break up the week. And I'm also 12 weeks pregnant with number 2 so been feeling pretty tired and rubbish for a while too, although I'm much better now and my energy has picked up. I cant even be arsed to clean the house any more. Just all feels abit pointless

After my snotty email yesterday, I’ve taken the day off work and just spent some time with my son.

I took him to Asda (the excitement) rather than getting a delivery, made a game about him having to keep a mask on and stay in the trolley at all times. He picked a new toy and we are going to see my mum.

I wish I felt this positive all of the time but I know I’ve got to wake up tomorrow and everything will be back to the loneliness and tears.

I am quite anti social, I have a lovely group of friends but I normally like my own company once in a while. Now I am doing my fucking my own head in, wish I could social distance from myself 😂

Yep so bloody over it all too. Trying to be grateful for what we have but so hard.
I'm furloughed, so bored at home. 1 child back at school, 1 at home. DH at work.
Also grieving as my mum died 8 weeks ago.
Some days I feel ok other days I feel myself falling down a dark hole.
Miss my friends and just doing something different!

Manage a walk/exercise most days but losing all my get up and go.

Yep , go to bed every night and just don't want to wake up in the morning which is worrying. I try to find things to be grateful for, I still have a job, we are healthy etc. But this is seriously affecting my mental health. I worry for my 5yo, I'm so snappy with her because she just wants to PLAY all day long and I struggle to concentrate at work. It's just all so shit. You are not alone.
Social media makes me feel worse, so I've come off. Posts saying how people are loving this "precious time" and posting all the things they have done in a day, just eats away at me and I feel like a failure. Virtual hugs to all!

@jellybean I feel your pain I am wfh with a 2 and 5 year old and DH working long hours after 3 months and breaking down I have sent the 5 year old to school and put the 2 year old on nursery and it is so much better . Can you do that ? My friend got her mum to help

@gina your boss sounds awful it is impossible to wfh with children luckily my work have been great

You’re not the only one. I feel very down since last week.

Your son wouldn't even have started school in lots of countries - mine included. Your mental health and the relationship with your son is more important than whatever small amount of learning he will do atm.

Bin off the schooling and just focus on getting through each day.

Feeling very down today.

Very lucky in many ways. Grown up kids so only myself to look out for. All of us still working so no money worries.

However, my job is changed beyond recognition and not in any good way. Was redeployed to covid critical care so that was utterly draining in itself. Now the worst is over (hopefully) I have to pick up the pieces of my usual service which is fucked and no end in sight.

The things I would normally do to relax and de-stress are off the agenda until God knows when. So each day is shit. Every day off work is just boringly marking time until it's back to work again.

I hate 2020

Moaning about it on here will not make one iota of difference to them imposing it...

Gonna need more direct action I'm afraid

OP your situation sounds really hard, I hope today goes as well as it can for you
My situation is different but today I really feel like I have had enough. I have got teenagers at home, both dh and I working full time, me out of the home, DH partially from home, paritally out. My job has become more shit that I could ever have imagined (NHS cliician) My children are becoming more and more deposndent. Trying to motivate them to complete work more and more challenging. Seeing what this situation is doing the them is breaking my heart and I am totally powerles to change it. No plans for school return in Sept, the government just dont give a shit about the nations children and young people.
Today I am just having a little cry into my coffee before heading off to work. I'm not sure how much longer I'm going to be able to keep it all together.

Weeping I feel the same. It doesn't help that the weather is so shite here. I've actually put the heating on. My year 6 has gone back to school but is learning nothing, just watching dvds, my youngest is lonelier than ever and the lack of social interaction is becoming more stimmy with his ASD. I worry he's regressing. I'm stuck between trying to work from home and going to the office to work, I've still had to go in to work throughout this as a keyworker. I feel like we need a bigger house with all of us stuck in here.

I'd finally lost 1.5 stone between Jan and March, I've put 10lbs back on. Probably from wine consumption. I'm so pissed off with myself.

"Moaning about it on here will not make one iota of difference to them imposing it...

Gonna need more direct action I'm afraid"

Well I just cheered myself up by thinking that at least I'm not a totally insensitive unhelpful tit who can't read the room

Bloody hell what's with this weather today? Anyone would think it's autumn. The clouds and rain are not helping. 😕

May I join? Felt like the world's worst mother all morning. I'm home with an almost two year old, who since lock down has hit that fun climbing stage and I'm so done barking at him. I miss and totally took for granted the local play groups we attended, and what I believed to be our mundane life pre covid!
I'm exhausted, like many of you, trying to find that me time on top of enough sleep.
Sending love to you all 😊