I know this is ridiculous- jealously of people who have got it 'easier'

[Chalkee]

I'm expecting some harsh responses and perhaps that's what I need so please be honest with me.
As this lockdown goes on I'm becoming more and more jealous of people who I consider to have it easier than me with this situation, so that might be people without kids, people who haven't got to work from home and have their time to themselves etc etc.
I've got 2 DC, youngest DS is 1 and he is a handful at the best of times, lockdown has made him clingy and such hard work. I'm also working from home which involves me sitting at the computer for a good portion of the day, DS does not like this and whinges and sits on my lap messing around most of the day. Eldest DS refuses to do any schoolwork and I don't have the time to argue this with him so he is playing games all day. I feel like such a failure and then I see people on fb who are single/no kids or grown up kids etc moaning they can't cope and are bored watching Netflix all day and it makes me so jealous!
What I would give to have had a few months to myself in a lockdown to read/ watch boxsets! I know everybodys situation is different and for people living alone it might be just as tough for them but this jealousy is driving me insane.
I speak to family daily and tell them I'm fine but inside I want to cry and run away.
I know how this sounds, people are dying daily from this virus and I'm moaning that I have to sit at home all day, just tell me to man up.

Separated, two small children one with asd who is Very hard to
Manage. No phone calls / texts from people I would have hoped to hear from. Dead on my feet by the end of the day. As a parent of a child with autism though I’m used to looking at other people’s lives as if they are in another dimension though. Many people will be feeling as you do OP- it’s tough.

For me, there is a line between envious (as in I wish I had that too) and jealous (I wish they didn't have it because I haven't got it).

As a rough rule of thumb, i d be quite happy to acknowledge the first, if be ashamed to be feeling the second.

I am Furloughed, live alone, no children. I have been lucky that I did voluntary work prior to covid so have been able to do this a couple of times a week. Even voluntary opportunities are difficult to come by at the moment.
It may look like I am having a nice time. Daily yoga, couch to 5k etc. In reality I am doing these things as without work, normal social life etc. it is hard to feel motivated or fulfilled, in fact hard to see a reason to get up in the morning and the days blend into one. I am lucky to have never suffered MH problems but I see it could be easy to slide into. We have been fortunate to have good weather as i live in a flat, no balcony or garden.
I only write this, as when people seem busy swanning around in the sun, baking new recipes and so on, it could be that they are just doing what they need to in order to survive each day & keep a level of fulfillment.

You are allowed to feel how you feel. As long as you, or anyone else, doesn't claim that their suffering is worse than anyone else's, then actually it's good to admit that it is really, really shit and very few people are, in reality, living the dream.

I'm jealous of people who live with their partner because I only got to see mine today briefly after driving 200 miles. I'm working 16 hour days in two jobs because I'm doing work for the NHS whilst trying to salvage something out of my sports physio company.

Hang on in there. Everyday is a day nearer to the end.

I'm totally envious of the furloughed. I've been working throughout outside the home. I have a real chance of catching covid. No 80% pay for me, I'll get ssp so that'll screw us financially.

Unlike a lot of people I don't enjoy working and it doesn't define meand much prefer to be spending time on my hobbies which I'd have more time to do if I was furloughed.

Everyone looks tanned and healthy and relaxed. I'm pasty, unkempt as I've no hairdresser or nail tech, untoned as no gym and stressed.

If I hear one more time how lucky I am to have a secure job I'll bloody scream.

Thank you all so much, I'm honestly so overwhelmed by your replies, I didn't expect anybody to relate and felt so selfish for feeling the way I do!
I know it's a struggle for many people, in all situations, in fact a relative of mine lives alone and suffers badly with mental health and they are finding it incredibly difficult. Thank you for putting things into perspective for me.
I am very grateful for my 2 DC and my heart goes out to people who have not been able to have children and this lockdown may have amplified that situation for them.
I was barely back at work for a month following maternity leave when this happened so I am very grateful of all this extra time I have been given to spend with youngest DS despite the difficulties.
Thank you all for helping me to feel more positive

@Chalkee this time next year this will all be a slightly surreal dream!