I'm quite the opposite. At least on the surface.
Early on I felt "this doesn't bode well" when seeing how China was building extra hospitals and starting to lock down (didn't add up with claims at the time that there was no evidence of human-to-human transmission, or that the illness was generally mild: you don't shut down an entire country for "just the flu")
And I had a "oh fuck, game over D:" moment when I first heard asymptomatic contagion was very much possible (as in "how can you avoid THAT turning into a pandemic?")
Lockdown still came as a shock, but also a relief (since the whole herd immunity approach seemed bonkers, as soon as you did the maths on projected numbers of deaths, but also, more crucially, projected numbers of healthy productive adults suddenly bed-bound for weeks all at the same time)
Now, for the future... I'm not sure. Earlier models suggest we will have on/off lockdowns for a year or two. I think that's a real possibility, and the worst case scenario I'm preparing for.
But knowledge on the disease is constantly involving, so I try to keep an open mind (maybe it will just vanish, become milder, maybe we've actually already all had it, etc.). Also we might find effective treatments much earlier than thought, and maybe a vaccine is really just around the corner...
So even though my risk-adverse, rational mind tells me "look at the data, and prepare for the absolute worst: we're in this for the long haul, and should act accordingly" (I'm an engineer who designs safety equipment, so it's literally my job to look at things that way)
... I guess the emotional part is actually quite optimistic still. I do wish my fears were proven completely wrong (so far, they haven't. And I've got a pretty damn good track record at making accurate "doom and gloom" predictions).
But above all, my optimism tells me: even in that worst case scenario, it will (undoubtedly) be shit, for quite a while, and people will (sadly) suffer, but people will also (for the most part) manage, because we're (generally) a lot more resilient than we realise 
(... then I think about the significant minority of people who will NOT manage, and I cry, because there really is no perfect solution to the crisis we are all facing, but not facing with the same resources)