By pure chance I had a fantastic month last month. Someone who owed me money from February paid up (only two months late, but great to get it after lockdown had started).
Then I got a regular job in (a magazine - I'm a graphic designer) that I honestly thought they wouldn't go ahead with, so was delighted when they got in touch and said they were going to go with an e-version.
Then on top of that I got another big job - a 40 page report - again only being produced electronically (no printed version) but from my point of view a good earner.
That was April. In May so far I've earned the princely sum of £165 and I don't have a single job in, nor a single job anywhere on the horizon.
All the people I work for are theatres, museums, restaurants and tourist attractions as well as people who put on events etc .. none of whom are operating at the present time. I have no work and won't have any work until lockdown restrictions are fully lifted.
The grant I got today is going to see me through probably until the end of June but after that I'm fucked. I will have no choice to sign on for benefits - universal credit or whatever it's called. I have no income.
This grant has given me a breathing space. I can survive and pay my bills for the next few weeks but after that ... well I'm trying not to think about it.
Not knocking the Government by the way. I think the way they organised and got this scheme out there is exemplary. Applying couldn't have been easier or more straightforward and payment in my account three days later.
It's just what happens after this runs out I'm worried about.