Has this changed you forever?

[moobar]

Late night musings so I thought I would try and articulate them here.

I admit I have anxiety and a tendency to overthink.

However, at the moment, I can't see how I will come out of this the same person I was at the start.

I'm fairly isolated location wise anyway, but I was thinking it will be a long time before I feel safe or happy going, for example, to a concert.

Shopping? Unlikely to do it unless I had to.

Routine trips to busy busy places, possibly?

Travel, very unlikely. I can't see me ever having the courage to travel to somewhere huge and busy, ever. Even quieter places, that would mean an airport and I don't know if I could.

Dd got norovirus on holiday in January and I began carrying antibacterial gel and wipes after that. That's going to get worse.

Nursery, she will have to go back but it scares me already. As does school.

I suppose I mean just things I've taken for granted, popping to a soft play on a busy day, shopping centres, ikea on a bank holiday, anything where there is likely to be hundreds of others, makes me feel really sick and scared.

Whilst some of this is no doubt my health, I do wonder whether this has changed me in a way that may never be corrected. And that makes me sad as well.

[B1rdbra1n]

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling like this moobar:(
I hope there will be a wealth of help and support for the many who have been traumatised by this crisis.
For me I think it's to early to say, I'm a homebody solitary health freak type and I've not been especially inconvenienced, I am alarmed at it all though!

[Theharderiwork]

It has affected me already. If I am watching a film with a large crowd, I automatically think they are too close. There is an advert where an elderly man tastes the stew then put the bit left on the spoon back in the pot and stirs it ( this is disgusting anyway) but my mind goes to automatic, Oh Germs! On coronation street tonight a woman put a pitta bread to her ear and pretended it was a phone then another woman took a bit of it. Once again I thought germs.

[LilacTree1]

Peckish “ LilacTree1 well, that explains some of your posts...”😂

To be fair, if you compare my not drinking posts, they’re much more honest.