I am finding things difficult today. Up until this point I've taken things in in stride, but this morning I just started crying. It struck me that if something happened to me and OH there could be no one to look after DS(2). We are older parents, my parents are in their eighties, his parents are dead, my sister and BIL are both immunocompromised and my niece a nurse working at a hospital. There is no one else. Who would look after him? We are both relatively healthy, but healthy people are getting really sick right now. I'm really scared.