Can't stop crying

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Anyone else with leaky eyes? Feel like today is the first day of a new time and I'm so sad. My little one loved pre school and has asked so many times to go already. I'm just so desperately sad for her. Trying to be positive and come up with lots of things to keep busy but it's so hard and it's for so long. Sorry just needed a vent.

@Elsiebear90 I’m so sorry for your loss 😢

Yes it is VERY bad at 3am!

Yes I have been a bit weepy and tearful today. Dd's are both off school and their school has been posting pictures. There are only 8 children in one class today and that has made me sad for the children both at school and at home. I'm also worried about a few family members and the worries of social distancing on their mental health. I know it's safer for them and everyone else but for people living alone it's very hard.

For me, the saddest thing is that people are in such a state over this. The world is not over. There is no need to cry, OP.

I feel l as though I am caught up in a prolonged nightmare and am constantly wishing I could wake up and get back to normal.

I have felt sad and like things are a bit surreal.

I am feeling very lucky at the moment that we already home educate so the huge impact of events has somewhat passed my children by . Now all the home ed groups and after school clubs they go to have been cancelled they are starting to see changes - but nothing like those i know other families are going through.

I have 6 kids ranging from 15 down to 4 and so I worry for each of the differently .

My 15 year old was meant to be sitting gcses as a private candidate now off - but with no mock exam or teachers assessment there will be no grade for her under the new plans - so she has been left out on that level.

My younger children miss their activities and groups and my 4 year old wants to go out to soft play etc.

Dh is in a high risk group so I don’t dare risk any trips out other than the shop only when we really need to.

I’m 30 and I’ve never experienced anything like this

I'm mid fifties and never experienced anything like this. They spoke to a 94 year old lady on TV and she said the last time it felt like this was in the war. That says it all.

It’s acceptable to feel sad, it’s fine to cry. There’s a lot to adapt to and all the little things that make life pleasant (going for a coffee with a friend, dinner with your partner, not spending all day with small children ) have been taken away and of course people will find it difficult.

I’m also feeling very sad. My whole sense of purpose is gone. I’m pregnant and will probably not be going back to work, I live far away from my family and friends and all visits have been cancelled. I don’t know anyone in my area and probably won’t now. But I’m trying to be positive, we should be very thankful to every single person carrying out jobs to keep us safe, nhs staff, cleaners, supermarket workers, pharmacists and lab technicians who are leaving their families daily to help with the knowledge that they might become isolated at work. This will get worse before it gets better but by the end of today we will be one day closer to the better.

I’ve been crying most of the afternoon. My parents in their 70s are now self isolating from today but my Dad has end stage idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis and it is likely that I may never see him in person again. It’s just a really shit situation and has been making me upset.

My just turned two year old is also very challenging at the moment with pushing boundaries so not being able to go to his normal classes, visit friends/family, etc is already making him act up even more 😔

Yes it hit me today when my lovely mum drove to my house ( she lives about 30 minutes away) and left a bunch of daffodils on my doorstep
I’m on day 2 of self isolating due to my dd being poorly

I am having to self isolate with DH as he is over 70 and I have diabetes and what I am sad about is that I will not be able to spend time with my dgs who is 2 and 1/2 and changes every day at the moment. I have been having him for 2 days a week for childcare for the last 18 months so I will miss him so much.

I will of course miss seeing other members of my family but they don’t change in the same way.

Yes OP I know exactly how you feel. I’m due to give birth to my first DC soon and I am devastated at the thought of how much they’re missing out on in the first months of their lives.

On the bright side at least they won’t remember this!

My ugly cry came at 6.30am this morning when I posted a message to all of my childminding families to tell them I would be closed from tomorrow. I will miss the kids so much and can’t believe I’m facing months without working in the business I’ve grown over the last 10 years. I completely understand and agree with the move to close childminding settings and hope that it helps to control the spread of cv. Such tough times

Crying now because poor DS can’t go to his very last day ever at school. DH started with symptoms of CV so we have to SI
There will be no goodbyes
No exams
No prom
My heart is breaking for him

On top of that, the terror I feel at the prospect of symptoms getting so bad it results in hospital treatment, or even death, is causing me panic attacks.
I can’t believe this is happening.

Scared and very teary here too. Just an overwhelming feeling of doom and disaster. Have stayed away from the phone and the news today and feel a tiny bit better. There's some really awful people on mn too, I had some unkind messages this morning telling me to see the bigger picture and be reasonable etc etc. That really upset me as I hadn't sleep all night and came here for some support. I got the thread deleted as I was upset. Hope everyone feels better soon.

Thing is it helps (for anyway) to share what we're feeling etc. I feel like then I can draw a line on it and move on to be constructive. It's something that can't be forced.

We're going through something that hasn't happened in our lifetimes, with huge worries for health and that of our families, financial difficulties, upset children and more and through all of this we know we can't see friends or family for support, or go out somewhere to relax, for an unknown length of time that may possibly be months. Of course it's stressful. But once it's vented it's easier to accept and make the best of.

Yes, I’ve had moments when I’ve dissolved into tears. Usually I’m quite pragmatic. For me, it’s the fact that life as we know it is disappearing from before our eyes. I’m hoping that when I am well again, I will be stronger, both physically and emotionally.

sprayandwipealot, I’m in my mid sixties, so I lived through the Asian and Hong Kong flu pandemics in 1957 and 1968. Between 1 and 2 million people died worldwide, including 3500 in the UK.
As I was just a teenager in ‘68, I got the flu and was simply ill for a week at home, as was my entire family.
I don’t recall much hysteria at the time - we didn’t have intensive care units as such, and people were much more philosophical. Many men died in their 40’s of heart attacks anyway, many cancers weren’t treatable, few people expected to live beyond 70.

I don’t think that Corona virus will end up with a much higher global death rate than Asian flu did - we just have different expectations now of living to be 80 or 90, so this pandemic is more upsetting.

I've just read all the replies - Thankyou. It been an emotional day, I think I'm finding it hard that I would normally see my mum or a friend when things are tough but I can't and have no idea when I can do that again. Tomorrow is a new day and I think I will take the advice on here if turning my phone off. The constant news updates are not helping my head at all!

I had a really weepy day yesterday. I felt overwhelmed by it all. But today my sister died. It puts everything into perspective.

Asvan

Do hope you’ve extra paint in, realising that your 3 year old will want to “help” 😁

Oh AuntyMarys. So sorry to hear that.

I keep randomly crying.
Yesterday was a bad day. I had to tell ds that we wouldn't see nanny and grandad for a while. It was very upsetting and we both cried.
I keep welling up randomly. Life feels very hard right now.