OP you have to live your life, as hard as that is. There are things you can do to limit your exposure but self isolation isn’t the ultimate answer because when you emerge the virus will still be out there.
I have a serious heart condition. Last year I went in for elective surgery and was told that if I had it I would die. So I had some other tests instead, I crashed and nearly died. Had another test to see if I would qualify for the urgent transplant list and was told due to lung pressure i was not and would be sent home to die once I was stable. To be fair to the dr who delivered that prognosis he wasn’t quite as blunt as all that but the message was clear. My words to him at that point were “I didn’t come here to die, I’m not going home to die either, life is what it is.”
Five days later I had a cardiac arrest and technically I died three times.
Bring in new consultant with new tests and different procedures and I left hospital six weeks after I went in and my life has changed immeasurably. I went from someone who couldn’t walk upstairs to someone who can do everything, I used to, and who after 3.5 years am in a position to be looking for work.
My future is quite certain. Because of procedures my lung pressure has come down and I will be eligible for transplant when the time comes. And I have been told it will be when and not if. I have also been told that if I relapse and am rushed into hospital the chances of me coming out again are slim.
But I’ll cross that bridge if i have to.
I am quite certain that if I contract the virus I will not survive.
But at the moment I am alive. I could spend the rest of my life waiting to see what I’m going to die of, or I could spend the rest of my life living it.
Truth is that even with underlying conditions death is never certain, it’s just that we sometimes get a better insight into how it might happen.
What is certain is that we’re all going to die irrespective of current health. Not of the virus, but of something, at some point.
No-one wants to die prematurely. But equally no-one should spend so much time worrying about dying that they’re not living.