TTC # 3 - Anyone else being driven mad!?

[whizzymummy]

Hi all
Have been TTC #3 for what seems like an age - 9 months now.
Is anyone else being driven totally insane?? I'm seriously ready to throw in the towel now, living in this limbo is driving me insane. But I know I can't give up, I just want a third too badly.
Not sure what next step is really, just wondered if anyone else out there to commiserate with?
Just had a BFP this time last week but then started AF few days later, and to make matters worse the whole world seems to be pregnant around me just to rub salt in the wounds.
Not sure what I feel any more - I always said after all I went through to have my DS and DD that if #3 worked out fine, but otherwise I was happy with my two lovely DC and so lucky to have them. Hmm, can't seem to make myself think that now.
Why do the hormones make us go so mad like this!?
Boo hoo!

Ha ha, laughed when I heard you say that about snow white. My DS just want to be a pirate ? clearly a no brainer for a little boy!? Could he have at least picked a fireman or a builder that's a little less violent, but no after many months I have actually now given up ? he has four play swords and no guns but that?s no worry to him as he just makes them with lego! You can?t stop the tide?
You are so right we are lucky to have our DC, mine are SO funny. I love the age DD is at ? the talking is getting better all the time, humour starts to come into it and yet she?s still young enough to be stuck in her cot in the mornings so we can have a lie in he he
The irony of it is I actually I think I?ve had to use more self control NOT using ovulation kits or attempting to chart!! My consultant is pretty laid back about it all, obviously I see him to keep track of the fibroids and he knows we?re TTC. I get the impression he really doesn?t think anything is wrong which is why it?s more frustrating nothing is happening ? I feel like I need to DO something.
Must get on with my work now?

Love your way of making up the name sillybillymummy ? mine was similar. Set it up a few years ago and really couldn?t think what to put. All I could think was how completely frantic I was always running around the place so much to do, hence whizzy!
DS was a bum shuffler too and skipped the crawling part until he walked ? which was around 16-18 months (god how do I not remember that!?)

Agreed - DC are funny! And we also get the occasional lie-in when they happily play with each other in their bedroom before disturbing us. Their favourite game (and you think pirates are bad...) is having babies. They stuff their naked dolls up their tops and take it in turns to be the doctor. Very disturbing! They are having more luck than me!

My nickname is very dull compared to yours - it's just a play on my real name with a significant number put after it (there seem to be a lot of 11's in my life).

My sister-in-law is TTC with a huge fibroid - consultant has said the same - get pg first as there could be complications during the op. She just wants to get rid of it though - it's really uncomfortable. She feels bloated most of the time. Do you suffer much with yours?

Hi Ell11 - nope don't even feel mine at all - the current one is about 6x6cm and causes me no bother. I had a larger one removed in 2003 by surgery and that was about 10x10cm and consultant said it needed to be removed (something about it outgrowing its blood supply and causing problems with TTC when I wanted to start) - this was before and independent of TTC! Strange thing is I had no idea it was even there, maybe in retrospect I can see I had heavier periods but that was all. Lucky me. Women do have much bigger fibriods and I think the location can mean some go pretty much unnoticed like mine or equally they can be in an awkward place. He seems to think the current one is not in a place that will intefere.
Hope all is ok with your SIL, sounds like she is seeing the right person and it's under control, though like with me she must worry about it growing bigger or what happens if surgery needs to happen sooner.

Talking about DC have just got back from A&E after DS got his thumb stuck in a door and pulled whole nail off. Ouch!
Tis kind of freaky the games they play and questions they ask sometimes.

Good luck with your TTC. Lets hope for a BFP for us all before too long and we start going mad

Ooh whizzymummy- hope your DS is OK, sounds so painful.

Not had chance to read all the new posts but strangely comforting to know there's a few of this in this boat. My DC2 is 3 in a few weeks so sounds like I will have the biggest age gap out of us if/when it ever happens.

Thanks haribo - it's a bit messy and unfortunately got to be cleaned up and fixed under a general at hospital tomorrow. Makes me feel queezy just thinking about it to be honest.

Agree it's very comforting to have a few of us - for me it's also just nice to chat, somehow I always put my foot in it otherwise...
I think we all need to start familiarising ourselves with the benefits of larger age gaps rather than wishing for small ones!!

Agreed! What will be will be...

Your DS's accident sounds ouchy! Poor thing. I took a nail off when I was about 7 (heavy gate landed on it) and it looks perfectly normal- you wouldn't know so hopefully he'll make a full recovery.

It's definitely nice to chat. My BF is 12 weeks pg and I started trying before she did- I used to moan to her about it but don't really want to now she's pg. I don't want her to feel guilty or worry about me. Thank heaven for the Interweb!

Quite agree with you Ell11 - actually have two friends now between 16-24 weeks PG. Started trying before both of them. Certainly don't feel like talking about it now...

DS all okay, kids bounce back fast I suppose. Except for bandage he seems like nothing happened

Ha ha whizzymummy, my 2 bf's are at exactly the same stage in their pg's. I find it hard to cope with them just after AF comes tbh- does anyone else feel like that? For the rest of the time, I feel very happy for them and love to chat about their pg's with them.

I hope your DS is OK, poor thing (and you) having to have a general .

Well, I have drunk far too much caffeine and alcohol this month to get pg and I'm now wishing I hadn't had so much. Oh well, I needed a bit of a return to normality after the clomid, metformin and polyp op!! Fingers crossed for a BFP for some of you this month.

Well we can comiserate together when it all feels a little difficult! Know exactly how you feel about the AF time of the month and yes agree generally otherwise I feel fine around them. Shame I dont' feel like I can confide in them any more but I suppose it won't be forever.

You go for it with a bit of normality, we all need it. Personally I find the caffeine thing harder than the booze - I just love my tea. Am trying to keep it to no more than 3 cups a day. Suppose I should try caffeine free...

I've not had the best month - am on day 15 and have a short 24 day cycle so probably gone past most fertile patch but funilly enough not been priority last few days. I also must say find it hard to get enthusiastic month after month as not very spontaneous or romantic is it!!