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[VJay]

A new home ladies! Tis the season for mini eggs , time for baby neeko to arrive, and more BFP's, oh and mls joining the bigpant bench

neeko no regular braxtons aint pathetic lol

Hey ladies !

Neeko cant believe still no sign! You must be sooo frustrated! Think you may have to resort to sex! I am sitting on ball typing this but I feel beyond help now! Have been listening to CD too, but shall persevere!!

Curly lovely to hear from you! Glad you had some pamper time & now have fab hair! I when you talk about Curlygirl!

Vjay wish I could add some pearls of wisdom about b/f weaning! Really feel for you with the bad back, I know how low it can make you! Push for physio & in the meantime get DH to look after you! BTW I am looking forward to my party, and I really appreciated the hug the other day too!

MLS I was the same with choc at the beginning, however it soon passed & Im now sitting here stuffing thorntons into my mouth!

QA you are really sweet posting links and being so thoughtful, I echo others I think you are brave having the NCT round after what you have just been through, hope you are bearing up and your DT keep you smiling..

PFJ how are you doing today ? is the rollercoaster hitting you?

Louey hope you are hanging in there too?

Moon glad DFs comments not caused a rift, he prob didn?t even realize the impact of what he said.. I agree wave expensive brochures at him! I looooved organizing my wedding and was actually great therapy for me after my dad died?

Blue I had bacon too this morning?. and eggs, and beans, toast and the works! Hmm wonder why bubs is so big?!? Hope your boys aren?t knocking you out too much and that B isn?t lactose intolerant.. Thank again for being such a sweetie & your wise words for my weebleness! I do have the exact same top I wear fpr scans bjut as the weather gets warmer I don?t know I may have to wear it over my shoulders!

Mrskate impressed your even managing to pop in, how old is Jack now?

Gracie you have been quiet ? hope all is well?

I heard from the lovely Annie the other day bless her ? Cant believe Ellis is so big now!

Waves to Sabs if you are lurking ? that Enders was too much wasn?t it? I was in tears too?

Cupcake hope you are now all settled in your new family home & in nesting mode! Its all very exciting! Special thanks to you too for always being there! I still cant get enough of OBEM even the other day inspired me that although bays were so prem, they were both ok - PFJ will relate to my philosophy ? always look on the bright side!

LBM hows you and babybelle? No trying to sneak an xtra week in again! Cant believe I hot the 30wk mark yesterday! ¾ of the way there!

Iggy it seems to be flying for you too, specially with a house move to distract you!

Monkey hope you are slowly feeling better & not weebling too much about the nuchal fold? Pop in when you can?

Mrsmermaid we miss you on here ? you are much loved remember that!

You too Jools It makes me sad that if things are crap for you at the mo then you haven?t got your MN outlet, I know it must be crap to hear all the babychat tho ? big HUG hon?

Barbie you were also extra sweet the other day hon! Big hug to you & Devon! Whats the latest poo story update?

BQ hows the pole dancing going?!

No doubt Iv still missed some of you and some important details, bit delirious as have been at PC for a couple of hours sorting e-mails & clearing old programs from memory for DH Ipod! Didn?t go to sleep til gone midnight & woke again at 2.3oam til 8am!! dozed til midday on & off but soo not healthy! No wonder I been dizzy & getting headaches! Even tho Im on ball Im aching all over now, Im an idiot for not just chilling today! DH fell asleep listening to footy ? should of joined him! Anyway ? as promised ? mammoth catch up! Love to all & have lovely weekends, Im off to soak aching bones in bath! X x x x x

Just popping to see whether babyneeko has put in an appearance yet. Need some good news.

I'm very sorry for the lack of personals. Ended up in A&E in the early hours after I woke up with a raging temperature. Drs have diagnosed infection and I'm now on 2 sets of antibiotics. If they don't start working in next 24 hrs then I will probably be readmitted. Oh and apparently I'm now anaemic so I'm on iron. I really think things can't get any worse.

Oh lovely Louey my heart goes out to you, it's one thing after another isn't it. Was the infection connected to your erpc? I had to have iron tablets after having my dd & they were horrible. Maybe you could ditch the tablets for Floradix? It's completely natural & doesn't have any of the horrible side-effects like constipation.

Sending masses of healing vibes your way.

louey big hugs honey. It is such a lot to cope with but the antibiotics will kick in and things will start looking brighter. These are the horrible dark days that we on this thread are all too familiar with so we are here with hugs and hairstrokes for you and questionsanswered and thePFJ whenever you need them. Once this infection and the rest of the physical stuff is better at least you can get on with healing your heart and it will get easier I promise for all of you. Nobody here expects you to get over losing your little ones but it will get easier to cope and one day soon we will be doing wobbly dances of joy at three more bfps on this thread - to add to our other small panters bfps which are coming soon on a more practical note I'd advise that you get some acidopholous from boots - or at least down lots of bio yogurts to prevent you getting thrush from the antibiottics on top of everything else. I'm also sending you over some hot chocolate and some comfy cushions so you can hang out in style in our greenhouse xxx

had written lots at 3am feed which I lost when they backed up the mn server grrrr

back later my lovelies for final catchups I know I have still missed people out but curlygirl is wriggling too much

Hello all

Hope you are all having a good weekend. Will attempt a catch up!

Vjay really glad you have made your decision and everything is going well, decisions are always harder in the making,but it is amazing that once it is made how right it can feel iyswim. It's such an emotional decision to stop breastfeeding, but you had done so well already and your health is important too.

cupcake how sweet of your friends to remember the anniversary, you must have been really touched of them to remember. Have you moved far?

bluemoon thank you for the welcome. I take it you have been waiting to test. Do you mind if I ask your 'story'? I am just trying to think about whether to ttc. I too am waiting for the bunny smilies! Sorry your Df (congratulations on the engagement btw) was being so insensitive, however it does sound like he was trying to protect you in a 'you cavewoman, me caveman kind of way

blue can you speak to your Gp as I think they do a lactose free formula free on prescription, but this is some nugget of info dragged from the far reaches of what used to be a brain Have you had a lot to deal with while they are trying to work out if it is lactose intolerance?

MLS hope you are having a nice weekend and getting some rest and not busy out stalking neeko

4ever everytime I read your posts, I feel really emotional for you, you are dealing with such alot. Your workplace sounds delightful good job you are not in the mood for a fight otherwise you could kick up a stink. The sleeplessness will really be making everything feel ten times worse, I am terrible without sleep so you have my sympathies. (Ps, it is Louey with The DT's, I don't mind being given them as I am sure they are gorgeous!, but don't want to steal Louey's thunder

curly glad you like your new hair, it can make such a difference just having time to yourself and having your hair cut can't it? Makes you feel like a new woman. I sometimes come out of the hairdressers all Loreal like, swishing my hair

louey i am so sorry that you have had such a crappy time, the last thing you needed was an infection after everything you have been through, and anaemia on top of that, just to make you feel even more tired and groggy, someone is having a laugh really hope the antibiotics kick in soon and you are getting plenty of help and rest.

Neeko I am glad you are still holding out for baby neeko, giving us newbies a chance! How are you today? Hope the braxton Hicks aren't too painful.

MrsKate congratulations on your very recent arrival

PFJ been thinking about you and hoping that you are feeling better. Hope you take my advice from our thread and realised that mini-eggs are not a cure for migraines Seriously, hope you are doing ok and having a lovely weekend with your Jack.

I am having a good weekend, did have a moment yesterday when I said something to DH about what had happened and actually said 'when I had the miscarriage' and promptly started crying. Think just saying the word MC, which I haven't said out loud very much, and relating it to myself, made it hit home a bit. Had a lovely takeaway curry, wine and DVD last night. Did have to stop the DVD early and go to bed at 9 though, still needing lots of sleep. Such a lightweight!

Louey Sending you huge hugs and hairstrokes. What a horrible time you are having. It always seems as if life is out to get you after a MC. Take care xx

Curly Don't MNHQ know that 3am is the busiest time on here? What a silly time to back up!

Had pains all night and little sleep but no progress. Very fed up.

Hapy Sunday all. Hope you find something to make you

Morning QA Can't believe how quickly and well you've settled into this thread. Saying the 'M' word out loud is awful. I remember going for a line from the doctor after self-certifying for a week. Poor guy was in his 1st wk as a GP and I was a blubbering, snotty mess. Think he'd have signed me off for 6 months if I'd asked. Big hugs - you're doing great.

Grrrrrrr bloody Tiger Woods having an affair with a stripper called Devon.....Tarnishing my baby's name

Hi everyone, one i get m y second hand back ill be back to post

neeko you HAVE to have sex, is the only answer

Hello lovely ladies

who had the silly idea of putting the clocks forward now back is fine with me, but not forward, there arent enough hours in the day as it is without throwing one away!

neeko wow how are you still here?! i mean of course we love you being here, but we need to be cooing over your new bubba!

oh louey so sorry you are having a crap time, sending you a huge hug, keep talking on here, one of us has usually been through something similar who will be able to help you. i had to take iron tablets too after my 2nd mc, yuck!

jools bq and mermaid hope you are lurking to see me waving to you all

qa thanks for the engagement congrats i still cant say miscarriage without getting tears in my eyes, so you are doing really well. of course you can ask my story, and feel free to ask anything else you like even if it seems silly, no one will laugh at you.

dp and i had been trying for our 1st baby for 10 months before i fell pregnant, but to be fair he worked away a lot then so i think our timing sometimes wasnt great which is why it took so long, so obviously we were overjoyed when we found out it had worked! however, it didnt last long, and i was about 8 weeks when i started bleeding. it was a natural miscarriage and was just like a heavy period. i had never heard of the epu so i went to the doctors who i have to say were absolutely useless and very unsympathetic, and all they did was keep sending me for blood tests to measure my hcg levels, and one nurse even told me on the phone its fine your baby is still there, only to be told another week later i had miscarried that was in february 2009. found my lifesavers - all these lovely ladies in march.

in april i very luckily fell pregnant again and ironically it was just a few days before my 12 week scan (even though i was 13 weeks but my appointment was late) when i started bleeding very lightly. went straight to the epu this time who scanned me and said the baby had died but they said i had to wait another week as in some rare cases they can be wrong, so had to carry my dead baby around went back in to confirm things but by this time i had stopped bleeding, so needed to decide on medical management or surgery. i chose medical management partly because i was afraid of surgery and partly because i felt i had to 'live' the experience, i didnt want to go to sleep with the baby there and wake up with it gone iykwim? i took the tablets, got sent home and told to come back 2 days later. except i started gushing huge amounts of blood so got rushed into hospital, things got stuck coming out, so they had to remove it by hand, laid on this table, no pain relief, blood everywhere, no one telling me whats going on, was horrible unbeknown to me that was only part 1, so more tablets later i had a repeat performance, and they put me on a drip and told me i may need surgery and a blood transfusion (thankfully i didnt). They put me on a gynae ward with 1 girl who had bad morning sickness and had scan photos and 1 girl who thought she was losing her baby but had appendicitis and also had scan photos i think i cried nearly all day.

i didnt mean to write all that sorry if thats tmi, i obviously needed to get it out! so thats me, gave it a 3 month break as thats what df wanted, been trying again ever since. its been a hard emotional ride, and theres not one minute goes by where i dont think about my 2 lost los, and i darent think about never being to able to have baby as i've always wanted kids so badly.

off to blow my nose now

moon here is a tissue you brave brave lady.....I hope by writting that last post it was like some kind of therapy for you.
Remember as i have told you before, never give up on your dreams, without them what is worth waking up each morning for...YOU WILL have it all, the wedding, the baby etc etc, unfortuantly sometimes it just takes a little longer thats all.

I say lets all plan your wedding, get your mojo back, have something exciting to do in order to get you through each day excited and a smile on that face of yours, have sex for fun and learn to laugh again and i bet you will end up with a big dress hiding a big bump...

sorry still have only one hand

its so hot here today 39 degrees that i have just finished feeding Devon for now and her hair is all sweaty and looks like this girl

poor girl....

thanks barbie i cant open your picture? imagining it to be like me in the mornings pre ghd days i havent given up on my dreams yet, but i wonder sometimes if i am greedy to want it all? i look at my friends and family and wonder what they did to deserve it all and if i did something wrong?

i went off to make a mess cake to keep myself occupied and ended up tidying the whole kitchen (i am another monica on the thread)

hope everyone has had a lovely weekend, anyone else being sad and watching dancing on ice?

my poor girl!

ha ha lovely! i hope for poor Devons sake she looks much more beautiful than that! i get your drift though bless her, if she is happy then who cares

Bluemoon thank you so much for sharing what happened to you, I know it can't be easy to talk about it and I hope I haven't upset you by asking. What happened to you was just too awful for words and I am really that you have had to go through that. Your experience with the medical management sounds horrendous and I am sorry that you are having such a rough ride of it with TTC too. I can see why your DF was (in his own way!) trying to protect you. Must have been scary for him to see you go through all of that.

And yes, you can, and will have it all. i suppose some people just have a bumpier ride to get there than others {sad]

On a brighter note, did I mention how much I love weddings so would happily talk for hours about all things bridal!

Thanks Neeko , not sure how long I can keep it up, you guys are brilliant at the personalised posts, I am trying to get everyone's places in my head at the moment and I have to keep looking back at the list

Barbie just had a sneaky peak at your profile, thinking that you may have photos of your baby and seen that your DD is gorgeous, what beautiful hair Wondered what you meant about the heat until I saw your profile, I thought well the sun is out today, but surely it can't be that hot

Had a busy day doing the garden, very productive, but very tiring, ready for a soak in the bath now.

hi qa anytime, please ask anything you want to. sorry it was a bit more than you bargained for! think it did me good to get it all out though.

wanna plan my wedding? i really want to get married but i am a right stress head about organising stuff so would love someone else to sort it all and i just turn up

neeko are you still here?

mls how are you doing, not long til scan day

4ever hope you are weebling ok

Hi girlies,

On a bit later tonight as the clocks going forward have put our timings out re: bedtime asif I don't get few enough hours!

Moon - hope you felt a sense of relief writing your mc experiences down and that it was cathartic in some small way. what an awful time you had. Ona happier note I LOVE weddings too and bought bridal magazines AFTER my own wedding as still loved looking at the dresses/flowers/venues featured. Then moved to House and Garden mags and now no time to read anything!

QA - gold star for keeping up with us hope you're doing OK. Its always been a very unique thread in that we feel listened too and answered and thought of which is so tricky when there are so many of us! Thanks for tip on lactose free formula (and Vjay thanks for going to speak to the Mum you know). Going to keep exclusively bf for now (although it is so hard some days i.e. B was up every 2 hours from 7pm to 7am last night...) and limit by own intake of dairy to see if it eases his fretfullness. its so as some feeds he is an angel then others he cries, arches his back, is sick...

Vjay - how are you today? How are the (.)(.)? And your back? Been thinking about you all weekend...

Louey - so to hear you have an infection, it just drags every on doesn't it? I had a natural mc back in Aug 08 and got the all clear from hospital after scan showed everything was away only to have what can only be described as labour pains two weeks later two mornings in a row. Couldn't understand what the hell was happening then I passed a plum sized clot that night - it was awful just took me back to mc in the bathroom two weeks before. Phoned gynse who reassured me that it was just the last of the pg coming away. I felt knocked for six as me and DH had been ttc that week after getting a +ve on the OPK's but I later found out on here that you can get false +ve if you still have pg hormones .

barbie - Devon could never look anything less than beaufitul

Neekooooooooo - going to try different tack - are you savouring your bump? Take a few moments to OK? When you get overdue you just want baby out so much but then once baby is out you can be a bit wistful of you bump and the clam before the storm

curly - you're going to give yourself a heart attack missy trying to keep up - don't fret about personals just chill girl!

4ever - lovely to have one of your massive posts with paragraphs and everything . Boo about your appraisal but as you say its not your priority at the moment. 30 weeks is just fantastic x

MLS - so thinking about you this week and wiling you onto that big pants bench x

Right better sign off if I've to have any quality couch tme with DH x

Moon Your post made me cry I remember being on the MC thread with you and persuading you to come here when you got your BFP. I had no idea the 2nd MC had been so awful. Big hugs, honey. Let's all plan your wedding (I still have my file )

Blue Glad you're feeling a bit better bout the feeding. The clocks set bed time back for us too - very frustrating.

PFJ Don't worry bout doing personals all the time. we all struggle at times. This thread could take over your life!

Barbie naming your baby is like buying a new car, you think you're reasonably unique and then everywhere you go it's there! Hope Devon has got over her bad hair day.

I'll no doubt be back tomorrow

hi blue and neeko didnt mean to make you both sad. i dont think i originally shared much of my 2nd mc with anyone as it was so horrific i blocked most of it out, even df doesnt know the half of it, as i know he wouldnt want to put me through it again. thats why i had so much trouble with my emotions around nov/dec time because i was dealing with it all again, all the stuff i had blocked out.

blue the clocks going forward has put my routine out too so goodness knows what it must be like when you have dcs to look after as well. hope you're snuggled up with your dh now

Evening! I actually slept last night & felt amazing for it today but after a big meal the heartburn is keeping me up now! Thought id do a post rather than just laying there, as really must sleep we have our first ante natal tomorrow!

Barbie you made me with that pic, Im of 39 degrees though! How very dare Devons beautiful name be tarnished!

Neeko all I can say is get bouncing tonight lady, and not on your ball either! I echo Blue though, I LOVE my bump & already thinking how much will miss it, so embrace your last days!

Blue must be very frustrating with the clocks & kids routines, specially as B is having trouble with the feeding at the mo, must be so hard monitoring your own diet too just in case of thr lactose intolerance, hope your HV can confirm one way or t'other soon? You made me laugh about my post 'with paragraphs & everything' its cos when I post on my phone, even tho I leave spaces & try and do new paragraphs it wont somehow so I just use loads of......

Louey so crap to hear you have an infection, they should of given you antibios after your erpc as standard.. Unfortuneatly Im an expert on erpc as I had 4.. Just take it easy & let them kick in.. and sorry I gave your DT too QA!

See QA we are all impressed by your ability to keep up, cos we all struggle ourselves as you can see..! I love weddings too, after planning mine I wondered what I was going to do with myself!

That brings me onto Moon I echo all that Barbie said, sex for fun, and other things to think about are key to healthy recovery and ttc.. Therefore I also think its really cathartic to talk through our experiences and you took me right back with your so sad story.. I came back from honeymoon in Aug 07 pregnant for the first time & overjoyed, but had natural mc at 9wks, went to A&E & sent to EPU for scan who told me baby small for dates, but carried on bleeding through the weekend & presumed that was that, by tues I was in agony & called ambulance, took to a&E put on morphine, and when gynae assesed & scanned me again, same as you, it was stuck in my cervix so had to have speculum inserted & was removed that way in front of DH who saw it all.. My heart goes out to you cos I relived it all or you when I read your post.. Thats why the following 3 MC I had that I had scans for and saw heartbeats & growth on all of them, I opted for ERPCs as couldnt bare to go through that horrific pain again.. However then had the insensitivity of pre op assesments done at the ante natal dept each time, with all the big pregnant women, before we got taken to the day surgery unit.. Then there was the 3rd 13wk MC which Id had loads of scans for & presumed ok (the nuchal one) where I had the ERPC, but like Blue a week later had contraction type pain, went back for a scan & was told I had 'retained product' I spent another 4wks waiting for it to 'pass' and ended up having a 2nd ERPC for it 6wks after the original ERPC..
It was after that, Sept 08 and 3 MC in 10 months, that I found you lovely ladies thank god! Anyway, take faith and inspiration, cos despite my 4th MC in Jan 09, and then 9months to concieve again, here I am, 30wks pregnant! Admittedly, I had the immune issue and had to research treatment andhave a ton of tests before it was discovered, but each horrendous MC made us more determined not too give up.. Im lucky that DH really is my best friend and we truly supported each other & still manage to smile together, thats why he is at my side at every apt and is such an absolute diamond & I know Im v lucky for that... Its all about counting blessings but Ill never forget my 4 angel babies, and when I stop and think Im on my 5th pregnancy in 2yrs, it still makes me but we do survive te heartache and the pain, and eventually, dreams do come true, so keep the faith..
That wasn't intended to be such an outpouring either sometimes when you write you just cant stop...!

Still here neeko......

sorry i have one hand only again, one day i will get the use of both hands and do a proper post and welcome the newbies waves to the new comers]

lurking for news and will try to perfect my one handed typing.....

Morning Barbie Still here, after trying everything Have resigned myself to idea of induction next week because all of this will I? Won't I? is driving me crazy!
BTW Devon is making you lose your touch as that link didn't work either.

Moon Don't apolgise. It's sometimes good to remember where we've all come from. This is going to be your year. Has the evil witch flown in yet? If not test??

4ever Hope the heartburn went and the posting was cathcartic for you. I finished the dregs of my Gaviscon last night and I'm a bit that I'll need more.

DD is happily demolishing my living room playing dress up so I'm off to browse MN and gnore the housework!

yep induction for you!!!!!

hope thats frightned little neeko enough to get a move on

It wasnt a link, i just tried to do a comma !!!