One-tubers TTC again....

[boodleboot]

right then,

DH has decided that after two regular cycles post EP we can try again....was very excited about that prospect until it hit me like a thunderbolt....i only have ONE TUBE NOW....of course i knew this but now i really KNOW this IYSWIM and now feel a peculiar mix of and of course and at the whole situation we find ourselves in....

I want to be positive that it will happen and won't require assisted conception but am really nervous and scared it is going to take forever....or not happen at all....{trying not to think like that....}

calling all one-tubers for a bit of handholding and good old MN support......lets go through it together....

Hi Guys, sorry I have been AWOL
apple great news that you can try again, how are you feeling about it?
Scrum I always get down straight after AF, but usually bounce back around time of BD'ing hope you feel a bit more positive soon!
boodle are you still getting BFN's? I am going to sound very school marm ish now and give you a good ticking off for using tests too soon, I know it is realy hard not to (and I have been guilty of it as well) but it really does no good and it wont change the result ultimatly, if you are, you are, and if your not, your not. As the least paitent person in the world I find it really difficult... but have been getting better. This is where I find temping does help. Anyway lecture over... I hope AF han't visted yet and all those tests were wrong!

thanks GWC....lecture accepted. Still no period from me but still not a definitive positive either....

i will not be buying cheap internet tests again.....

I am banning myself from early pregnancy testing from now on.....what a waste of time and money. Af is on her way now....bloody mucus indicates her arrival....need to be far more balanced.....feeling very annoyed and very for getting hopes up....ah well....september babies it is then!

onwards and upwards....

BOODLEBOOT UCL28 TTC#3 cycle2 CD1

Oh boodle, I really had my fingers crossed for you this month. On the bright side lots of Christmas SWI then!

I'm swithering on whether to try this month, or leave it til Feb. I can't try in Jan, as I'm abroad for 3 weeks in Feb just about the time I'd need an early scan.

So, if I go for it this month (and am lucky enough to get preg first time!) I shouldn't drink at Christmas, will feel awful in Jan when I'm really busy at work and in Feb when I'm on holiday. But, September baby would be nice!

Do you think I'm over-thinking this?! As if I'd be lucky enough this month. Sod it, I think I'll try anyway! For some reason I don't want to waste a single opportunity now.

Sorry boodle have a nice big glass of wine (or what ever your cheer up / pamper yourself thing is!) and grab a nice big hug from DP!

apple for what its worth I think your right, keep trying, even if you don't try very hard!

apple.......GET ON WITH IT GIRL....

i am a bit down after this month to be honest, i keep thinking that i should be five months pregnant by now....sucks arse big time, i know i don't have to explain that feeling to you guys....

i saw my doc the other day and he is going to let me try naturally until march and then will refer us to fertility specialists....hopefully we wont need that appointment....

i think i am depressed....this year has been so awful and the my friends are having the babies now that would have come after my first MMC and i am really happy for them and their little fat bundles but i feel so empty....i just wish it had of been different. the thought of ttc again seems so pointless today.....wow....what a downer, even i would avoid me if i could today!!

oh boodle its ok to feel like that now and again, don't be too hard on yourself! Try not to dwell on what might have been and focus on the good things in your life. Your kids must be getting really excited about Christmas, concentrate on them, and on your first Christmas as a married couple with your DH. I know its really hard, and believe me I know exactly how you feel. Why not call up a really good friend and do something nice together, make you realise how lucky you are and the good things in your life!

boodle it's no wonder you're feeling down just now - this time of year makes us all feel crappy if life isn't perfect, and you've been through more than most this year.

I'm bang in the middle of ov time (well, as much as I know - I'm not getting scientific at all yet) and I don't have the energy to do anything about it! And I know I'll be disappointed when AF arrives...another thing in my life I can't be bothered to put the required energy into! Ah well!

hello everyone...ooh buggering hell sorry everyone is feeling a bit down and hope we all perk up a bit before christmas...I have a friend from overseas visiting & am determined not to be too much of a wet weekend so am going to drink lots of cocktails & not pee on any bloody sticks this month & then start in January renewed & refreshed. Its so hard not to look book though Boodle. Despite my ra ra speech I think 'i would have been' everyday...tis normal & somewhat shite. hope you are feeling better today x

hello all....day 11 of my my cycle today....we are going for the every other day approach this month....finding all the charting symptoms a bit too all consuming on fertility friend so giving it a bit of a wide berth for now...not feeling as depressed as i did last week which is a relief....i was sooo down. What will be will be.....how is everyone else doing??

x

where be you girls??

2ww for me now...hopefully i will remain slightly more sane this month. have bd on 7 9 11 13 and will do 15 too as a bonus ball ha ha ......

Hello Ladies

Sorry Boodle, been Christmassing with overseas guest which has actually been a very welcome distraction from brooding to much. AF due in a week and a half and expecting it this month although of course faint hope clings...however been knocking back the festive spirit so prob best if not worked this month.....overseas friend is in early 40's and would have liked to have married and had children but has yet to meet right guy so good perspective on being happy with what I have....at least that is what I keep telling myself...good luck to everyone xx

well glad you are back and grateful for your blessings...i actually did 15 and 18 too so now going to relax until i can being the mental testing frenzy....AF due 6th so figure could realistically test NYE and possibly possibly see something....i don't drink so am hopeful that this month will be my month.....will try not to go too bonkers tho......

Hello ladies.

Sorry I've not been around - we're visiting my parents in Scotland, so not been online much.

Well, no good news for me this month - AF arrived today, bang on day 28 (so at least my cycle is back to its usual length). I hadn't had any symptoms at all, but I still managed to get through 2 tests before today!

I hope this month brings better news for the rest of you!

omg. four internet cheapie tests have shown faint pink lines in the limit....

am so freaked out right now.....help girls....you don't think i am really pregnant do you????

Sounds like it to me! Keeping my fingers crossed for you!!!!

FMU shows much stronger pink line....this makes six positive tests.....i think this may be it. Going to go and get a CB after church. I am TERRIFIED.

don't believe for a second, even dare to hope, that a baby might be at the end of the rainbow....what if its another EP????

i hate that the innocence around pregnancy is gone now....

It's so sad you can't get excited at this stage anymore, isn't it?

I can't even try this month as I'll be abroad from 6-9 weeks if successful - I would never have taken that into consideration before my EP, but it's just not worth the risk.

My way of thinking (in no way based on medical fact!) is that if the tube affected last time was removed, your risk of another EP is low, esp if everything looked OK with the other one when they did the surgery (assuming they actually checked the other tube - unlike my useless doctors!). Alot of the stories I've seen of recurring EPs are where the tube was "saved" rather than being removed, IYKWIM.

I do hope everything goes well for you - at least you will get a nice early scan to put your mind at ease - presumably in about 2 weeks?

I have just done CB digi and it says PREGNANT 1-2 wks which puts conception on christmas eve going by my chart....

re my tube...well they said there were some adhesions on the outside but didn't check inside. i did have an intrauterine preg that turned into a MMC in april so i know that potentially it could be possible to have pregnancy in right place.....just gotta hope and pray that this bean is in right place....i will investigate the chances of recurring EP on google, altho sometimes that is the WORST thing to do....

Ever hopeful.....

It is sad that we have to feel like this tho, i mean the wait for the early scan and bloodwork is going to be hideous but not as hideous as actually getting myself undressed and getting on that table for the vag scan....i cannot believe how the thought of that makes me shake.....just waiting for a sympathetic look and a shake of the head....urgh. too much to contemplate....

Congratulations! Do NOT Google, whatever you do!

I know exactly what you mean about the thought of the scan again. I'm a long way from having to do it again, but just the thought makes my legs turn to jelly. Here's hoping you get a totally different experience this time.

And though you're going to worry for the next 2 weeks, no matter what anyone says, you must be relieved that you can at least get a BFP with one tube! It's definitely giving me hope for the future!

aww yeah i hadn't really considered that aspect of it properly....pregnant with one tube, that is pretty awesome isn't it.....i can't wait for you lot to follow suit. I am not going to return to the same hospital EPAC...just cant do it, even tho it is the most convenient. going to go to darenth valley and just walk in in two weeks time to the EPA clinic and wait for an on the spot scan...

i am not going to google....you are right. According to the Ectopic pregnancy trust website chat thread that i am also on there is a 90percent chance that this preg will be in the right place.....would love to think that this bean is going to be in the right place....oh plllleeeeease that it is....

i don't think i could even contemplate leaving this thread tho as there is such a long way to go and anything can go wrong and other people will think i am just neurotic, which of course i totally am....do you mind if i stay here?

we really need a [nervous] emoticon.....

I have just stumbled across this thread and wanted to share my story to spur you all om.

boodleboot I am so keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you

I had an EP Dec 11th 2008 lost right tube. We were devestated as we had been trying for a year and I was 38 1/2. End of Jan I started to feel sick so did PT which was possative. DP thought I could still have elevated HCG so went to Doctor and I was confirmed as 8 weeks pregnant on 2nd Feb 2009. By my dates I concieved 18th DECEMBER. We now have a gorgeous 15 week old DD.
I count my blessings every time I look at her.

Keep going girls, you will get there !

Which hosptial were you at originally, Boodle? We must live close by - I was at Queen Mary's, Sidcup.

I didn't know you could walk-in for scans - good to know (if I ever need it!)

i was at queen mary's too....i live in bexleyheath....my daughter was born there in 99 and i had rubbish experience with darent valey in 2004 when i had my son so didn't want to return there but totally know that i CANNOT ever walk back into QM....never want to see those scan ladies again {not their fault but you know what i mean}

apparently Darent and woolwich queen elizabeth 2nd have walk in scan places in the mornings.....will ring tomorr and give you proper info when i get it.

small world huh....

thanks for sharing that story Nickee, amazing that is....