Emmsy's onwards and upwards part six - sticky icky babydust BFP central!!!

[Curlywurlee]

Here's a shiny new thread named especially for 4ever, let this be the one where we get lots and lots of new BFPs and everyone's pants get bigger

Ever onwards and upwards for all of you lovely ladies

I have my fingers crossed for you.

Think I've posted enough for ten days today.
night night all.

neeko the house is lovely and it was the 1st time mum has been. but it was meant to be a new house for the baby i keep standing in the baby's room and gazing out of the window. i can't get excited about the house anymore its just a shell.

Xposted again. mrskate could it be implantation?

Moon I wish I could take you with me tomorrow I'm going to calm down now and focus on the fact that bean doesn't need a scan

I know this is a really tough time and you feel like a mess One thing that really helped me was coming up with a plan of what I needed to do before getting pregnant again. For me it was DIY and it did help me get back to some sort of normality. Are you thinking of TTC soon or does DP still want to wait?

Aww Moon Just caught your post. It WILL be the baby's room one day. There's nothing I can say to take your hurt away but have faith and please don't give up yet. Have you considered counselling? In my quest/need to talk about MC with everyone I know a few people who've tried it and said it really helped.
Big hug, honey. xx

i hope it is curly but im a bit doubtful as no ov

curly i wish i could come with you but have my hand instead

we dont really have a ttc plan yet, maybe thats what i need, dp says he wants to wait tho. and neeko counselling has crossed my mind because im worried im getting worse, i feel like this weird person in my own body who doesnt make any sense.

Moon I still get sad when I see cots. It broke my heart when we hired a cottage with DH's family and we got the room with a little cotroom attached. I kept wandering in and tormenting myself as to why I didn't have a baby to put in it Life is so unfair but I know there are brighter times ahead for you, and a lovely little one to call your own. I just know it honey xxxx

Night all and thanks so much for the good wishes. I will text gracie tomorrow (if that's ok with gracie) with the results of the scan as I'll have to head into work afterwards, well that's if (please god) things are all okay.

Moon which part of the country are you in? The midwife in my EPAU mentioned when I spoke to her a couple of weeks ago that there is a counselling service available at my local hospital for MCs. I think it is a good idea, I wish I had known about it before.

Moon Looking into counselling could be the first step in your plan. Do you want to start trying again? If so, maybe if you explain to your DH that it's the loss of control that's making you depressed he'll come round? Men really don't get the whole thing, no matter how lovely they are. Can you convince him to take your lead and see what happens? Really hope you feel better soon.

Curly Update us when you can tomorrow.

I really am off to bed now.

And moon it is still very soon and totally natural that you would be grieving especially after two MCs in such a short period. Big hugs honey xxx

thanks curly and neeko for rescuing me tonight. a few tears escaped then. night night xx

Night moon, night all, really heading to bed now

You've all been very chatty tonight
Thanks for the positivity about the writing thing but girls, I highly doubt I will be published let alone rich and famous!!
blue thanks so much, that's a lovely thing to say, made me smile
And for those who asked- I mostly write short stories atm but want to start on a novel. Am looking into doing a distance learning/OU course on it once I leave work to get started.

Curly didn't realise the scan was tomorrow, will be thinking of you and here's another hand to hold congrats to your sister on being pg too... does this mean you'd be having your los around the same time (or are you trying not to think about that?) does she know you are too?

gracie 11 weeks! very exciting.

sophable sorry about the BFN but as we always say, it's not over til TEW sings!

By the way, I am a massive fan of Harry Potter too embarrassingly big fan actually the new film is great.

Moon and 4ever and jools - massive smassive (a phrase we use a lot in our family, no idea why!) hugs to all of you. Moon that brought a tear to my eye reading about you standing in the baby's room I'm so sorry you feel it's taken the joy out of your lovely new house. Please do consider that counselling, I'm sure it would help.

ginger as you asked, here's the list again so you can see where everyone is

Small pants

Sophable ttc#2 cd 30
Jools ttc#1 cd 29
bakingqueen ttc#1 cd 28
4ever ttc#1 cd 27
Kate ttc#1 cd 23
gingermumi ttc#4 cd 19
hoping ttc #1 cd 16
MLS ttc#2 cd 12
cupcake ttc#1 cd 11
iggypiggy ttc#1 cd 5
mermaid ttc#2 cd ?
Bluemoon

Medium pants

Neeko BFP 19th July
becks BFP
Barbie BFP 6th June
Curly BFP 4th June
GracieGirl BFP 30th May

Big pants

VJay bigpants due 26/08/09
Lionstarbigpants due 26/09/09
Sabsbigpants due 26/09/09
Anniebigpants due 1/12/09
Buddhabelly due 16/12/09
Bluesatinsash due 18/12/09
Scorpio due 25/12/09
mm1509 due 5/1/10

(so lovely to see you in that medium pants list neeko )

Moon I echo what the others have said, you need to do something proactive. The only thing that is keeping me sane & positive at the moment is the knowledge that as soon as I show signs of ovulation, we will start to ttc. I've not discussed it with dh but I'm sure he knows it is on the cards.

Is there no way you could talk to dh & tell him you are ready to start again? I'm sure your whole outlook on life will be much rosier if you are trying again. Perhaps your dh can see how down you are at the moment & thinks that ttc would not be good for you, but he probably doesn't realise that part of the problem is that you feel like you are stagnating & the only way out of this black hole is by doing something positive.

hi girlies, im at work...boo!

Just to say curly im thinking about you today,lm sure you will be fine...your positive outcome might even make me make my next scan appt, something that ive been shying away from in case it isnt good news

moon honey my heart aches for you...please talk to dh or even show him the tread, men dont get the fact that we need to try agqain just to keep us focused and sane....

I have to walk around waitrose sniffing my hair the smell of the food was just unbearable and my hair smells of chanel and shampoo must of looked a right freak through as most of my face was covered as in the style of cusion it

Right back to work

Small pants

Sophable ttc#2 cd 31
bakingqueen ttc#1 cd 29
4ever ttc#1 cd 28
Kate ttc#1 cd 24
gingermumi ttc#4 cd 20
hoping ttc #1 cd 16
MLS ttc#2 cd 13
cupcake ttc#1 cd 12
iggypiggy ttc#1 cd 6
Jools ttc#1 cd 1
mermaid ttc#2 cd ?
Bluemoon

Medium pants

Neeko BFP 19th July
becks BFP
Barbie BFP 6th June
Curly BFP 4th June
GracieGirl BFP 30th May

Big pants

VJay bigpants due 26/08/09
Lionstarbigpants due 26/09/09
Sabsbigpants due 26/09/09
Anniebigpants due 1/12/09
Buddhabelly due 16/12/09
Bluesatinsash due 18/12/09
Scorpio due 25/12/09
mm1509 due 5/1/10

Jools

Jools I'm sorry AF came.

jools

You will just have to go down the frozen sperm cubes route to take to the festival with you...

Its OK - I was certain yesterday it was all over, so have got most of it out of my system and am planning the next campaign. Yesterday was a real hormone storm - not usual at all.

Feeling strangely pleased though that my body was not playing tricks on me - I still feel nauseous, a bit dizzy and generally grot, so I think this is definitely a bug.

The silver lining is that a late AF hopefully means that I will ovulate the day after I come back from a weekend away without DP and hopefully he will be pleased to see me, so we can get some well-timed BD in.

Oh, and another silver lining - my back is really really sore again - well it has been for a few days but I've refused to take ibuprofen, just in case. Now I can pop all the painkillers I want !

Curly I'm ready for hand holding and looking forward to receiving your happy smiley text later (whilst pacing around nervously waiting for news). Come on Barbie get that scan booked! Mine is Friday at 9am, we're in this together!

Neeko My abdo pain is all gone! It went a few days before I had that bleed last week, so I was more worried about lack of symptoms than pleased the pain had gone. I just need to get to my scan on friday then I might admit to actually feeling quite good now.

Barbie LOL at you walking round the supermarket smelling your hair!

Moon big hug. Maybe counselling would be a good idea, worth a try at least.

Cupcake when you write you first novel I think you should dedicate it to Mini Milks and Mermaid's greenhouse!

Aw Bluemoon you sound so sad hun. The others are right though, it doesn't mean it will never be the baby's room. i've had 3mc but also 3 babies, never give up hope . There's a national organisation for mc too and they offer counselling i think. I still feel sad especially as the lo i lost would have been due this week.

Cup cake, thanks for the list- can beleive vj is almost there!

jools

Hope curly ok

MLS muddy cuddle sounds very cute! How you feeling at the mo?

Curly your plan sounds like a good one! Am determined to try the opks this month. I do have one problem tho.. DH is very against deliberately trying, he doesn't want it to stress us out - he says if it happens it happens so i try to make sure we BD around the right time - but don't want to pressurise him... it v. frustrating tho.

Will be thinking of you and your scan today xx

Moon So sorry you still feeling so low, but is totally understandable. Am sure you will have a baby in that room - it's just that the waiting for it all to happen is such a slow process. Glad you had a nice time with your mum coming. Have a huge hug from me. xx

Jools so sorry the evil witch got you too . Sounds like you had the same hormonal day before that i did. x

Neeko If I ever get PG again I reckon my boobs will go like yours - they were bad enough last time! Is all good sign tho isn't it

neeko mm & MLS you are speaking some strange foreign language - I know not of these excting sounding childrens tv things!

4ever thinking of you lovely x

mermaid how are you?

barbie Liking the idea of your cousin it impression!

cupcake The HP film was excellent last night! Writing sounds v. exciting. My DH would like to do that too. He did an English degree. So nice to have that to look forward to and to take your mind off ttc. xx

Vjay how is the packing going now

gracie I wish i had a smaller chest tho - am terrified of big mine could end up!

mrskate hope the cramps etc are a good sign for you x

Sophable have everything crossed for you. x

blue hello - hope you feeling good?

hoping well done on that hat! Am rubbish at creative things like that...

Also waves to Sabs Gingermumi Buddha and everyone else!

Right well - am sure I've missed people off! Sorry if I have.

Am going through slight miserable phase (boring I know) for some reason everything has intensifed this month and I need to chill out and stop obsessing... Am starting to hate seeing happy familes with children (saw loads at the weekend). Need to snap out of it and carry on life as normal.

Morning everyone Just lurking for news of curly so thought I'd say hello! Glad you enjoyed HP iggy (though we obviously have to try hard not to focus on all the things they missed out!!)
I think all DHs are the same about not 'deliberately trying'; we girls have to quite cunning as a result
I did an English degree too hope your DH gets to write one day!

Gracie hope Friday comes really quickly for you and you can admit to feeling good in your second trimester.