Emmsy's onwards & upwards part four.... more BFP's please!!

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Just trying on Barbie's shoes for size as we are desperate for a new thread & needs must...... blimey aren't your feel small!!

Go go go 4ever

mermaid I made the soup and I've eaten half of it, it was yummy

morph rocks!

hello lovely ladies, i've only been away a day and i had over 3 pages to read! its lovely to see all your banter though, makes me smile. i too used to love morph. my mum still has my very 1st pair of slippers, which had morph on! she said i thought he was zippy from rainbow!

alot of bleeding today but strangely enough dont feel too bad, both physically and emotionally. just want tomorrow to be over really. had to go out to buy pyjamas, as the nurse said to bring some, and i thought i dont have any! treated myself to a new cd toput on my ipod and a book to keep me amused tomorrow.

curly i know you've left but i'm wishing you belated luck for your exams.

hi moon my thoughts are with you for tomorrow, good on you for treating yourself with new pj's, cd and book, that's the way to go After tomorrow you can start to move on and we are all here to help you xxx

Hi to all. Hope you're ok moon, thinking of you hun x

moon ahh sweetie you are being very brave. I had to buy some when I went in too.
They make sure that they give you lots of pain relief, but just as a word of caution make sure that they do not forget to give you the stages of tablets on time. They forgot some of mine and I was there for far longer than I needed to have been.
and food don't forget food ( I think I am obsessed with food)
There is nothing worse than a very hungry dh cos the blinking t lady wont give him a cup of tea/scone with jam etc etc.

ginger hello gorgeous lovely. I hope you have a good store of wine in this week.

vjay cool, hope it helps a little and the mw tells you to put your feet up and do no studying for a week.x

ladies - just creeping in to say hello and that I am still thinking of you all - wishing good exam vibes to Curly, cheering Mollie on in her fetching big pants, grinning from ear to ear for Barbie, holding Moon's hand and thinking pregnant thoughts for Mermaid and everyone else testing soon.

I had another major meltdown at the weekend (why is it always weekends - complete and utter BD failure yet again, despite me using every trick in the book - need a new book So, I've ov'ed and am another fruitless 2WW. To add insult to injury, the scales still haven't moved, so I've been dieting religiously for 3 weeks without losing an ounce I've also got a lower back injury that just won't recover enough for me to get to the gym anytime soon, so I'm depressed about that too ..

I got to the point by sunday where I just couldn't bring myself to post on this thread - didn't want to have a moan when Moon was the one needing support and feeling ridiculously and embarrassingly jealous of all the new BFP's flooding in on this lucky thread, especially as I can see some promising symptom spotting going on aswell - the small pants list will be getting smaller soon I am truly happy for each and every one on this thread who gets good news - you know what it is like though - it just enforces what I haven't got and what I feel slipping away month by month.

I am away to Wales tomorrow - think of me struggling across London to Paddington with no tube in the morning . I'll be staying in my favourite hotel and just chilling out. have got a pilates dvd from the library, so will be doing that in the evenings and may or may not get on the internet, depending on whether I get a room with a connection. Keeping my distance is helping at the moment - normal service to be resumed soon but I am keeping an eye on you all

jools you sound like you need a big big hug. you still need support too, so dont worry about that, there are plenty of hands to go round here. i do know what you mean though about the small pants list getting smaller, it does feel like it will never be me too. hope you have a lovely relaxing time in Wales

jools I have been thinking of you for the last few days - its the lengthy not postings that always give it away lovely lady.
its shit honey there is no other word to sum it all up.
In fact I nearly resurrected my never used facebook to come and find you today so I am so glad to see you here.
i want to write all the cliched stuff but I have said it all a million times and none of it takes the pain and hurt away.
I hope your dh is ok too?
Maybe with the weight loss your body is adjusting. You were doing so well, don't loss faith. You just know I am gonna mention needles in a minute dontcha
I have started a campaign on my legs today, I never knew I had so many muscles and they all hurt so I am going to sit in the bath with a glass of rose.
Good luck with the tube strike, the thought of you in your favourite hotel made me ache for you as I so remember how exited you were last time you were there - but at least you can have runny eggs for breakfast.xxxx

Hi everyone. I go away for one little school trip and you all talk for Britain. Apologies in advance if I miss anyone.

Jools Really sorry things are so tough for you at the moment. I know there's nothing anyone can say. Just do what's best for you and know we're here when you're ready. I don'tknow if it helps but when I went to weight watchers (in another life) my leader always used to say it was a good thing for your weight to stay the same for a few weeks. She claimed it was the body stabilising and avoided the feast/famine shock that dieting puts your body through. Thinking of you.

Moon I'm also thinking of you. I wish you the strngth and courage to endure tomorrow and hope you find what you need to help you cope. Take care.

Curly Sorry I missed you. Good luck for the exams and take care of your special little bean. I'll miss all your cheeky banter so come back to us soon.

Cupcake and Iggy best of luck for Saturday. it would be so fitting for you to get BFPs together when you were such support to each other during the darkest days.

Vjay Hope you feel better soon. Please share some of Mermaid's soup as it sounds yummy!

Mermaid I'll be lurking first thing tomorrow for news of that faint BFP. Remember a line is a line is a line!

4ever I'm expecting you'll be too busy tonight to get this message So glad you got your +ive opk. This is your month so go!Go! GO!

annie It's been an awfully long cycle but I think I maybe put myself under too much pressure and coupled with the stress of SQA marking, DH being away and 2nd cycle after ERPC I've just had delayed ovulation. Hope you get a good night's sleep tonight and feel much better tomorrow.

Barbie Hope you're taking it easy and negotiations go well about the job. Good luck with the docs next week.

Blue Hope you're well and are starting to enjoy your pregnancy a little.

Gingermumi Hi. Hope things are well with you.

Mollie Congrats on your promotion. Hope those big pants have plenty of stretch in them!

Sabs Have a fab holiday!

Bakingqueen are you still out there? Come back to us! same to the long absent Scorpio MLS I missed your email today Hope you've arrived safely and you're looking after your bean.

LBM Hope things are sorted out at work.

Lion Hope you're keeping well

MM Hi to you. (Sorry I'm fed up with hope statements having used about 50 in this post!)

Ok, have I missed anyone. if I have.

Any of our pregnant ladies have nausea in 2ww? I suffered terrible today but it could have been the Pizza Hut buffet lunch!

MrsKate and Gracie Oops! I missed you both! Hope you're both ok and aren't working too hard.
Kate Are you feeling a bit better about the front room now? How many bags of clusters have you had today?
Gracie Are you still suffereing? Tempted to see the doc yet? I know NHS workers are the last to seek help!

P.S. Iggypiggy I gave in and bought Minimilks today. Lovely! Darn it though as DD likes them too!

neeko hope you got a sun tan and the kids did not keep you up all night.
I may test but its like day21 tomorrow... but for me thats not maybe too early.... tbh I would rather know I wasn't so I can stop stressing about if I was....

and yes feast and famine of course, trust our resident teach to remind me of that. That's why we can fast for a couple of days without our bodies laying on fat isn't it?

Lol Mermaid It was only a day trip! It was really just a skive to a bookshop and out for lunch with the 6th years but fun nonetheless. Honestly, You should only test if your sure you'll ahve an accurate answer and that's not until 14 days post-ov. I'm not saying I'll manage to do what I'm advising you to do and MLS did get a faint positive 9 days post-ov, but only do it if it's not going to make you wonder more. Remember Barbie had a BFN before her BFP this month.
One week today and my hpt will be laid out waiting for FMU (unless AF gets me first)! What a lot of acronyms!

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just wanted to say night night to everyone, its an early start for me tomorrow, as although we've moved, i'm still having to go to the hospital at our old place. thank you so much for being the light at the end of the tunnel, i would never have managed without you. see you soon xxxxx

Night moon. Hope you manage to sleep. Will be thinking of you tomorrow.

Night moon! Will be thinking of you all day tomorrow.
Take care xxx

Hi Neeko - a school trip to a bookshop sounds AMAZING! Wish I could do that
Aw, thanks, I think it would be lovely for iggy and I to get BFPs together too as we were both meant to have November babies... but we'll see...again, trying not to get hopes sky high!

Jools so sorry you've been having such a low time chilling out and doing pilates sounds like the perfect way to climb out of a low thinking of you.

4ever hope you've got your legs in the air right now

we haven't seen cupoftea for a while...? Hope you're ok if you're lurking. And becks too. Come back and chat/obsess with us!

Can I join you too? I found yet yesterday that I was having my 3 MC in 6 months, and I'm dreading the next couple of years while we do everything we can to try to have babies. Luckily DH and parents are being really supportive, but still feeling very lonely!

Phew girlies so many of your posting had me in tears thats good right? means i have hormones????!!!

jools i was stalking you on fb, and due to the fact i hadnt seen you for a while was going to email you, but i thought telling you my news was a tad insensitive....so like mermaid i have sat here waiting patiently for you. I could feel your pain in your last post....in fact yours was the post that made me cry the most. Frustration with yourself is the hardest thing to overcome, i bet you are so frustrated with your weightloss, and not being pregnant. I hate how frustration then turns into anger and resentment, i wish i had a crystal ball so i could tell you things will work out, but sadly i cant. We as always are here for you, i want so much to come to that hotel of yours and hug you, cry together and then binge on calorie free chocolate and ice cream (how good would that be!!! ) Please dont leave us.....

moon i can imagen how painful today will be for you, rest, relax, and try to think about positive things in the future, its the only way to get through things. We cant change things in the past but we can have control on the future, big hugs xxx

mermaid i wish, i wish, i wish it was you next....one of the original emmsy's ladies, the one whos's postings always manages to calm me and keep me sane...i want to return the favour when you start freaking out and needing the bathroom a staggering 15 times a day

curly my left hand feels empty without you holding it although i realise you need your hand back to hold the pen for your exams....i wish you all the luck in the world and hopefully the exams will take your mind of such a stressful time...

gracie how bloody stupid am i???? the cheque is in the post...make sure you spend the extra £4 wisely

kate hey honey, thanks for the facebook chat....you sound a little more calm now, any luck with the wedding pics???

neeko your cycle is even more confusing than mine your post always make me smile...roll on a week!

4ever i hope you have been using my list in order to operate the opk's.....just remember to leave the hoover well alone

cupcake and iggy im soooooo exited for you both....test test test (begining to sound like mermaid now! )

Hello to everyone else, big waves all round

Yesterday was my first late shift 11-9pm and what a shit one it was too!

We had a fire in the spa....came back off lunch (sneaky mc donalds which made me dry retch for ages after serves me right!) and the girls tell me they can smell smoke, que the girls freaking and worring the clients told them to clear the spa but no-one seemed to listen hence more panick from the ones doing nothing! anyway managed to locate it to a manicure station...started to evcuated eveyone but the other manager told them to sit down and carry on treatment thnakfully not a big deal....then the computers crashed, all our appointments are on there etc etc so hundreds of people coe in claiming appointments, no idea of their therapist so we got all the girls to line up and the clients pick who they wanted etc etc....fine until a local lady came in demanding that she had a certain two therapist who were busy...we had to swop them mid treatment and it went down hill from there!!!!

My MD called and said i couldnt leave until the computers were back up and running and every single app rebooked in the system...to cut a long story short the girls were there until 1am this morning i wasnt permitted to stay later than 11 due to not having a working visa with me but by that time i was a crying, shaking (no food since 3) stressed and tired mess....Dh was going to call the managers and demand i was allowed home but thankfully i left at 11.
Was v tempted to go in today and tell them where to stick the job, however in this country you are bound to a clause that you have to pay back a set amonth per day that you dont work of your contract, so in short i will end up owing back a little over a full months pay. If i was to leave now i wouldnt get any money for whay i have done and i need it for dh b day gifts...so i leave on the 2nd july, going to keep quiet til then, pick up my wages in cash and then go home to uk. Dh will then fire off an email stating i wont be coming back after the holiday until x y and z happens....

Sorry long post....just have to get through the next 20 days........

Morning ladies,
Moon I am thinking of you today my lovely, its the first day of your journey towards healing (with a few blips along the say) and then another lovely BFP for you.
Jools Same for you, the low's are to be expected they are all part and parcel of these horrible experiences and it seems so unfair that some of us get more than others. I really hope your holiday gives you some peace, I'll be thinking of you and squeezing your hand when you need it
Barbie Thank goodness you have made a sensible decision about work, do you think they will meet the demands of DH? I still think you should quit and wrap yourself in cotton wool for the next 8 months Sounds like you had a complete nightmare yesterday, so glad you didn't have to stay on although all that time stressing and no food is not good for you and your little bean, take care of yourself (stuff the others)
Vjay Hope the soup works wonders
Mermaid I hate the dilemma you are in, when you are so convinced in your head that you just might be pg, but dont want to test just in case. It might be a little early yet, but if you decide to poas no-one is going to stop you, just make sure you confess naughty girl
iggy You are being so good waiting for Sat to test, I wonder if you will give in before then?
annie 15 weeks not long til the next scan, have you got a date? (or have I missed that somewhere?)
cupcake Why do we do it to ourselves, looking through your friends album on FB is the sort of thing I'd do just to torture myself, don't be so hard on yourself it's natural to have these lows, fingers crossed you will have a high very soon
Blue I think you should make another morph and post a picture so we can give you marks out of ten!
4ever I hope you have bags under your eyes this morning missus
Neeko Nausea sounds good, I had that only a week after OV, we might be onto a fresh batch of BFP's at this rate
hopingalways Hello and welcome, so sorry to hear of your losses, you will find the girls hear very supportive and friendly, hope you settle in well

Phew I'm exhausted now, might go back to bed

Phew Barbie that sounds bloody traumatic hon! What a nightmare of a job, they sound like slavemasters! Can you not just explain situation to get reduced hours? How come its down to DH to write a letter? The most important thing is you and barbiebean, so as you said surely a doc would sign you off, or request reduced hours? Hope you can rest as much as you can & just do sitting down treatments!

Hello Hopingalways so sorry to hear what you been through, you're very welcome here, and you're not alone so hopefully you can draw inspiration. I like your name, as you can see its quite similar, maybe thats cos like you I joined after my 3rd mc, had another since, but have recently had some treatment so everything is crossed that no5 will be my sticky one, and am ttc that now! Please keep true to your name. This site is a true godsend..

Bluemoon If you left already please know am thinking of you all day. Glad you treated yourself, I echo the others that during my erpcs DH and I entertained each other & managed a few laughs (wierd as it sounds) it made us even closer & couldnt of got through without him... You will soon be back in your own bed and able to look towards the next chapter when you are ready... xxx

Jools was wondering about you sweetie, had a feeling like mermaid that the hormonal crashes are hitting you hard. There isnt any cliche, it is shit, its not fair. Totally relate to the list getting smaller & feeling like Im gonna be on it forever, but we wont.. Our time will come (sorry cliche slipped in ). You enjoy your fave hotel, pamper, relax, chill... xxxxx

Morning Mermaid! Are you tempted? Im here if you are?! Know what you mean about just wanting to know, so if not, its not false hope, but as Neeko said Barbie had a false negative before her BFP... Sorry im no use whatosever am I?!? I do know that Im gonna test as early as poss cos cant take the 'am i - arent i?' mental torture! Here when you want me anyway honey!! Shall be lurking/refreshing to see! xxxx

Succesful BD mission for me Cupcake you did make me laugh with your post! We were so excited about the +ive opk that we did it as soon as we got home so wasnt quite 10pm, more like 6pm but did have legs properly up in shoulder stand type position for 15 mins after then bum on pillow for another 20mins so about 40 mins marinating in total! Please let it do the job! Another go this morning & again later! I am soooooooooooo praying this works!

Anyway, got in work early, very annoying man sitting opposite that just wants to talk at you constantly and makes me when im mn'ing! Its pure randomness!!!

Yay for your successful mission 4ever...and again before 8am?? Wow, as Neeko said recently, if only babies were awarded for effort..!! Really hoping and praying this is your month. You cracked me up too being annoyed at man wanting to talk to you... I'm like that with dh if he tries to talk to me while I'm MNing hehee..

Thanks for your kind words mollie; I know it's terrible, I totally do stuff just to torture myself, stalking all my pregnant friends on FB not very normal... but yeah, I'm hoping for that high soon too. My temp is not climbing though so convinced I'm not now.

Mermaid any news for us?

Welcome hopingalways so so sorry for your losses but this is definitely the place to be

Ooh forgot to say Barbie to your mental day yesterday! Glad you have a PLAN though...and eat more than a Maccy D's today! Maybe VJay can courier over some of that lovely soup?

Cupcake will test on Sat then, unless AF gets me first - but actually have decided that am just affected by my hormones more this month (does that happen after mc?) cos nausea gone - and when was PG it was constant...

moon I know what you mean about feeling ok at the mo. I was awful when i found out about the MC. Then just wanted it over with. The actual MC wasn't too emotional for me (no idea why) more numb.. Then I had another real low a few days after it. Will be thinking of you today. xx

jools so sorry you feeling down I know is so awful thinking you wasted an opportunity to get PG. Hope wales is good and that you make it to paddingdon. I have to negotiate central London without tube today too - nightmare. x

mermaid what's with the needles? Acupunture? Is it good?

Neeko you are right it would be nice if cupcake and I got BFPs together. especially as we were on the same antenatal thread, then MC thread - then this one! Also glad you got mini milks - they are way forward Also re: nausea - yes had it on last week of 2ww when I was PG. good symptom

mermaid did you test?

barbie I hoep you are right! Your work sounds so stressful, is surely the last thing you need at the mo. 2nd of July is not too far away, will be great when you can leave

Mollie am being good aren't I ? it won't last!

4ever you just made me spit my tea out with your marinating comments!

hopingalways welcome and sorry for your losses - I have found this thread so supportive and lovely, so glad I found it.

I was thinking last night (I know - perhaps I shouldn't!) we could be in a jeremy kyle type programme... our DH's would be there saying 'my wife sits on the internet all day talking to strangers about sex'

Morning Iggy and cupcake! Sorry about your tea Iggy! TMI for brekkie huh?! You made me laugh about Jeremy Kyle! Its soooooooo true! I said to DH last night 'you are aware that loads of people know what we are doing tonight & are willing us on dont you?' I think he was flattered and amused all at once! Yep cupcake left the house at 6.30am this morning so was up at just after 5am!!! Needs must!
Soooooo excited you two testing together, I really hope you both get your BFP this month after your journey together it would be very apt wouldnt it - everything crossed for you both... xx

Where's mermaid... ?