TTC no. 119 - fingers crossed for more BFPs!

[HunkerMunker]

Thought I'd start another thread as the last one was SO successful but is starting to take a while to load and I keep losing my place in it!

A quick update on my stats - on CD39 of third cycle since getting AF back after DS was born in April 2004 (10.5 months old).

Have endometriosis and PCOS so have decided to let nature take its course over the next few months and if I fall pg naturally, then so be it. If I don't, then we'll try clomid again (worked first time for us with DS).

Am still breastfeeding, so have erratic cycles - they were always long (so far have had AF visit twice and had 50 and 42-day cycles).

No idea when I ov - may try OPK's next month if no success this month (and don't think I am pg atm).

Think that's it!

Lots and lots of babydust to all the ttcers and lots and lots of babyglue to those who've just had BFPs (and more congrats!). xxx

Popadopolis - Result yet????

Sorry for keeping you waiting girls. Did test this morning and it was BFN. Dh was cheering me up and took me shopping and to Burger King so I could stuff my face with comfort food. He was so lovely and sweet to me, apart from one time when he told me I should try not to say f*king as much as I was!!! I told him in no uncertain terms that I was having a fking bad morning and I would fking swear if I f*king felt like it!!! Poor Dh, he was very good to me though.

I feel really pissed off with my body though. I NEVER get these symptoms usually when Af comes. I get tender boobs and feel warmer than usual but I don't have throbbing boobs and hot flushes and what's with me needing to pee all the time? Bloody, f**king body! I'm really sorry for swearing and being so moody.

I haven't come on yet though and I do feel a little sick but then I have just stuffed my face with burgers, chips and skittles!! Aaaaaaaaarrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Hi everyone

Feeling really down today, I just want to sit and cry
and would if I wasnt at work. Just went to the toilet
and wiped myself and noticed some brown discharge
there. Only on day 23 of cycle. My periods are
irregular though and this one could be early because
the last one was so late. I really hoped I had been
pregnant for DH's birthday on 22nd March. I have felt
slightly queasy every day for last 4 days and an empty
feeling in my stomach as though I should eat something
which cures the queasiness for a while. I am so down I
dont feel like doing any temperature charting or
anything next month. I want to give up having a baby
now, as much as it hurts it puts so much stress on me.
My DH and I had a huge row last night over money. He
was awaiting some money from a job and although we are
not short of money I was asking him every day if he had
the money and he shouted at me last night "no now leave
me alone". I said fine "I want to go away and get away
from everyone". Things still stressed this morning and
he started talking about whether I still wanted to be
with him. Of course I do but things have been bad for
us lately. I am on antidepressents anyway and worry is
my middle name. I could just crawl into a hole and
stay away from everyone right now.

Bev

Worriedbev - I know how you feel. I feel like Sh*t today too. I'm sitting in my dressing gown eating choclate and staying away from the world. I hope you feel better soon. I feel like giving up the TTC for a while but something inside me just won't let me. You'll feel better in a couple of days once you can start trying again. Your not alone!

worriedbev-i wish i had a magic wand that i could just shake andmake you smile again , cheer uyou up again.i know how frustrating it is and how much you want to give up. mayb you should giv it a rest and give yourself a chance to think about something else.and if you want to try again then with a different spirit/state of mind? wish i could giv you a cuddle and make you better hen. Have a big bar of cadbury and a piss up tonite!!!

what makes it more difficult for us to get pg? is it because we try to plan it so well or mayb we try to hard? what do you think?

i dont know what to say. I really feel for all of you. I know EXACTLY how you all feel. Honestly i do. Ive been lucky but if its happened for me and it can happen for you too. I dont know if im more relieved to be preganant cos i so want the baby or because i wont have the stress of ttcing anymore.

Well, pop and fresco and diege, I'm right there w/you all. NO AF yet and BFN. Now I'm 2 days late so I know it's just a matter of time but I REALLY want to just move on. I'm NEVER late, although I've had no O since coming off the Pill in October. This is totally pissing me off. If AF doesn't show up in a fortnight I'm going in to see if I can score some Provera and just be done w/it all.

Oh, and munn I found out you don't have to live in that freezing cold, dreary old castle when your husband is posted there. There are no quarters there for married soldiers, only singletons. Had to wait for some tourists to come out as the place was closing and the soldiers taking over for the night so asked one of them.

are you moving up here then munn? are you joining the Scots? where do you stay, expat, in Edinburgh?

I'm in Leith, fresco.

right then girlies lets see..

Fresco - yes DH want's to move up there to edinburgh will be about 18 months time, unless they don't let us stay here, then could be about 9 monhts ish. I think we're probably trying too hard! everyone says to just go out get drunk and have laods a sex and not worry - maybe i'll have to try that tactic!

ES - thanks for finding that out for me hon, - u didn';t have to ask thou! I'm some what relieved as a mian concern I had was rasing my kids in a circus show of a tourist attraction so I guess that's one point to DH - but then again he really wants to go as he thinks he'll live in the castle - so that's one point back to me! lol. R u shure u haven't OV this month? Is it possibly u OV later/earlier that u think?

Bev - ((((hugs)))) oh honney, the only advise I can offer is, my periods were the same when I came off the pill, couldn't even have a cuppa tea the day b4 AF cos I was likely to puke it up!, anyhow, the dr said it was just hormones (i'm sure that's the answer for everything!) perhaps urs need to settle back down again? As for crawling into a hole - well u could, but we'd all come and harrass you - so that wouldn't work - unless u can fit all of us in with u! we will all get PG hon, might need to go around the houses and thru the trees but we'll all get there when the timing's right. perhaps if you stop activly trying but don't go on the pill sort of a thing? that's the idea when DH comes home - to basically just have sex all the time and see what happens. (of course i'll still be posting on here thou and using persona!). sit down with DH later on and have a good old moan to him about it all, i'm sure he's just as down about it as you are, men just arn't as good at showing their emotions as us girlies. also have loads a loads a choc - it's the cure for everything - and I mean everything! lol.

pop ((((hugs)))) honney. not to worry next month, u are top of the hit list! lol.

cp3 - not sure on the active convo's ur on about? he'll miss the next cycle, and not sure about april's one, as I think he's back on CD15 (unless I can drag this cycle out by a few extra days - any tips on dragging a cycle out?) - last time it happened by accident I think it was mainly the stress of him coming home.

Expat - I used to live a the top of Leith Walk on Broughton Street. Just thought I'd let you know!

Well girls, I've cheered up a little. I'm furious with Af and my body but I've decided to go out on the town this weekend and get unforgivably, sodding, bloody, rat-arsed drunk!!! Dh and I are going out to drink and dance away our sorrows. Bless him hes so sweet and supportive.

Popadopolis - sorry to hear about AF - that sucks.

Any chance we could start a new thread? This one takes ages to load on my pc (no broadband until we move).

Hope everyone is ok ... good luck to anyone testing!

Pop,
We're farther down towards the water, but we lurve it! DH is originally from Trinity, and his parents still live there, so his heart is here in the North of Edin.

Sorry about AF. I'm pretty miffed at her right now, too.

Munnzi, the thought of raising kids in that Castle sends shivers down my spine, especially as during the month of August it's non-stop military tattoo, fireworks, etc. YUK! That's the only month it's open past 5PM. 5PM is when the guard takes over.

Leith is rather expensive innit? you are my neighbour ES although i stay in Midlothian

r u going to start new thread?

Girls

I have decided that we are going to have the best xmas present/New years present a woman can ever have. WE WILL GET IT I CAN PROMISE YOU THAT!!!!!!!
well i have had a chat with him upstairs and asked him to grant us with a booboo for a xmas pressie.so lots of bedding, get your most sexiest underwear out or whatever turns your men on and GO FOR IT!!!!!!

Hi all. CD13 today, so OV is due to be from Sunday onwards. Best go find the OPKs again.

Well, if I get pg this month, according tot he tools my due date is approximately December 4, 2005. Howver if next month my due date is approximately January 1, 2006. First time I got pg (one that ended in mc) my due date was 31st December.

I know ES I don't want to even move to scotland - no offense and i'm sure it's lovely, it's just i'm feeling v home sick at the minute (2 weeks there at xmas didn't help - in fact made things worse) and as scotland is literally the other end of the country I don't want to go, I want to stay in the south, london is as far north as I want to go! really aldershot would be nice, but still I guess we'll see where he's posted to, it's not like I have much say in the matter anyhow as it's not my career.

Fresco - i'm on with a feb baby, if we get PG in may it will be due 7th feb, (and in my dream it was born on the 10th feb) so i'm hoping! not sure what's going on with my body at the minute as AF seemed to have stopped - well not that it really started, it's was bearly enough to cover the top of a tampax - I know TMI! so god knows - still one day more on this cycle means one day later on the next which will hopefully put me on a good day when DH come's home.

talking of which I had an email last night from him where he say's he's going to buy me copious amounts of choc, dvd's, clothes and what ever else I want - do u think it would be too rude if I said thanks for the offer babe but all I want is a baby?

we'll get there girls - remind me I said that the first mmonth he's back and i'm sooo depressed again like last month! althou Star Flower seems to be helping my PMT this month.

Hello girls!! I'm back to being annoyingly cheery today although in the back of my mind there is still the hideous bitch side of me lurking!! I don't think it would take much to get her to come out but I don't like her much!! Talking of the hideous, Af still hasn't arrived and now I have no signs of anything except slightly tender boobs. Go figure?! Anyway, she'll come.

Fresco - Thanks for the encouragement, are you a Christian or do you just talk to Him upstairs? Hopefully your prediction will come true and there'll be lots of Christmas babies.

Expat - Af is horrid isn't she. I used to love living in Edinburgh. I only moved to be nearer my family and then I moved way down to england so I'm not near anyone!! Logic not my strong point!!!

So are we starting a new thread or not? This one is getting really long and it takes ages to get onto it sometimes. Let me know!

hello - just popping in to say hello
CD18 today, 99.9% sure not pregnant this month but we'll see. good luck everyone

me a chrostian?? hahah!!! sorry if i am going to offend anyone, but there is nobody who doesnt believe as much as i do. i am atheist, antichrist or whatever you call it . no, never pray, never go to church, got nothing against people who belive.just believe only in what i see.
i once went to a christian church and to me they are the most hypocrit people i have ever met. but lets stop here before i offend anyone (hope its not done yet.sory!!! sory if i have...)

CD14

Oh FRESCO.....

I'm Putting my boxing gloves on as we speak

how do you mean horseshoe?