Am driving myself mad....

[SparkyMalarky]

Symptom spotting - not due for at least another 3 days (only had one cycle since m/c in June so not quite sure) but just caved and did a HPT. BFN obviously.

But - waking most nights to go to the loo (which I never do) and could smell the red bull that someone was drinking near me on the bus the other morning. Am also feeling v sicky of an evening (had that with last pg, but clearly didn't end well )

I promised DH I'd try not to get so obsessed about getting pg again after the m/c but it's very difficult!!

Anyone else need to stay away from the clearblue for a few more days?

[nelix2000]

I didnt do it!!!!! I did not test...and I cant now until thursday as we have guests and thats great as I will focus on other things!..... so sorry sparky I am being very well behaved!!!!!
heeby yes, let us know how you go! we will form a virtual picket line!!!!
onetheup sorry for your result.....v odd tho...both you and heeby....hope you both get answers!!! x

[ontheup]

i am in awe nelix well done

[ontheup]

sparky I think I ov'd 2 weeks ago on the Saturday ie 15 days ago as that was cd14 and i had a little spotting which should have been ov bleed. We were BD'ing at the right time and so that's why I'm so hopeful but the tests are not giving me the right answer not feeling as sick today tbh but sore boobs still. That said, I had hardly any symptoms when pg with DS (so little I was worried something was wrong, oh the irony) so who knows? Will have to wait this one out...

[funtimewincies]

Blimey Nelix! (grovels in the dirt, barely worthy to be in the presence of a master of self-restraint ).

ontheup - no AF and no BFP, sounds like possible later ov. Fingers crossed.

Heeby - I'm betting on a BFP, I'm in a half-full sort of mood .

[Heebychick]

Evening ladies, i am sooo impressed nelix well done, by then you should have a clear answer i guess! well done!

ontheup totally agree re dr on Wed, either way you will be able to talk through what has been going on, i hope you have a better one than me!

sparky OMG re Scan person, you should complain now, never too late! that's awful!

Mind you i have heard of a story where PG friend was sat waiting room waiting to get Nuchal Fold results (it was the days when they had to wait weeks for the result) and she saw her file in the tray by the receptionist and she saw a post-it note stuck to it saying 'possible downs', of course sat there in sheer panic and distress only to be subjected to her dr picking up the folder, tearing off the post it and saying 'oh that's not yours' and acting totally normal! huge mistake and a very awful time - so really i think these dr's and nurses, as great as they are, they surely must forget the imprtant stuff sometimes - like manners and attention to detail.

[ontheup]

Still no Af and didnt test this morning hurrah! Made my appointment for Wednesday too. Cant decide whether I feel pg or pre-menstrual today aggggggghhhhhh - just want to know either way now. Anyone fancy a cup of tea in the meantime?

Any early morning poas's???

[SparkyMalarky]

Well done ontheup - such willpower! Better make yours a decaf just in case...

Heeby - are you staging a sit in at the docs?

[nelix2000]

good morning everyone......I will prob be absent until wed afternoon (when my guests leave) they are actually coming to wallpaper the living room too so I wont be in tomorrow and as much as I would love to do a sneaky post.....I prob wont have access to my comp

onetheup go you!....yeah I never actually felt like testing today as i got up, did housework, made a stew (in the slow cooker), made bread and took son to the library....by the time I thought about testing, I had been to the bathroom twice, so not much point really. Thursday is not so far away. I do however feel pre menstraul...ie I clean like a freak and its what I did the second I woke up!

Keep the thread alive! will miss you all....you keep my sanity! xx

[ontheup]

I only have decaff anyway sparky (polishing halo emoticon) - I am lucky enough to have Parkinsons so caffeine really DOES give me the shakes am just polishing off a mug of peppermint tea but happy to put the kettle on again?!

Nelix what time did you get up???!!!!

[ontheup]

Heeby keeping everything crossed for yuo today - when's your appt?

[nelix2000]

7.30 lol my library opens early in the summer (8am)........I whizz when I am this pre-menstrual....my partner kept out of my path for fear of being bleached!

[ontheup]

LOL

[Heebychick]

Hi all,

Well i am sorry to report that i did call the Dr but sadly they just confirmed that i am a total loser. My bloods were all normal, hcg was 2 (obviously not PG) nothing wrong with anything else so it is official, i am a nutcase.

I cannot do this anymore, i have decided to give up ttc. We have one beautiful DD and that is enough for me.

my body is totally shot to try and convince me i am pg without actually being pg. Thanks a lot body.

So i am now going to find a dark corner to continue to wallow for a bit, i have accepted that i am stupid and feel just that, i still have all the symptoms and they have not resulted in anything.... so that is what i shall be left with. Nice.

Lots of love and luck to you ladies. i'm not sure when/if i shall be back on here again.

sorry xx

[ontheup]

Heeby sweetie - all my love to you - it's cr@p isn't it? ((((((hugs)))))) Wallowing is a very healthy thing to do imo but please don't forget we are here for any mid wallow vents or rants. I'm sending you some very sticky chocolate cake to keep you company.

Did they give you any idea as to why you should have had such strong symptoms? Any other underlying reason? You're not mad or a nut case - ffs all you did was to be in tune with your body and listen to it.

I understand re giving up ttc esp if you have one lovely DC - we're the same here. Lovely DS so why get so stresed? Maybe time out is a good thing for you for a bit. Whatever you decide all my best wishes and take care. xxx

[SparkyMalarky]

Oh Heeby - am so sorry [hug]

You must wallow for a bit if that's what you need to do (cry, watch rubbish telly, eat junk, lurk on mumsnet) but you are not stupid or a loser - your body is adjusting to a tough few months - and it would be incredible if you could just bounce back from it.

Amongst it all though - try to remember that your body made your DD. You may feel (understandably) that it's let you down now, and in the past, but it's a bloody amazing thing that you did - and you can do - making a person(I think it sounds wierd when I say that!) - but it's cruel that it hurts so much when we feel we fail at it (those hormones are sent to try us all.)

We'll be here if/when you want to talk. x

[nelix2000]

heeby I am so sorry.....please dont beat yourself up over it. We are all guilty of maybe seeing symptons that are or are not there, its no one fault its nature, its life, its called hope. And I hope you come back, or at least read these messages knowing its still out there, we are still here. I completely understand the need/want to stop ttc or even putting it on the back burner for a bit, whatever the case take time NOT ttc and enjoy your DD and all the joy she will/does bring you!....sending love x

[funtimewincies]

heeby sorry to hear that you're feeling so pants . Passing you a virtual stiff drink.

[ontheup]

Well AF got me this morning - am gutted as i really thought I was pg this time. Good ulck to everyone who is still waiting though.

[SparkyMalarky]

ontheup - am so sorry. Is it too early for cake? Next month is the month for all of us - am sure..

[ontheup]

never too early for cake sparky thanks (helps herself to a massive slice) I have a big mtg to go to now so that should keep me going

[ontheup]

I think I am going to have a MN rest for a while and give myself a break - this month has just been too much tbh - good luck everyone snd thanks for everything

[SparkyMalarky]

Sorry to hear that ontheup - you know where we'll be if you ever do fancy more tea and cake

[nelix2000]

there are none of us left on this thread ....well I am testing tomorrow, but sad no-one else has had the results they wanted. I hope everyone gets to where they are going.

[littlemissmischief]

Ohhh how glad am I that I have found this thread! Not glad that all you ladies are in turmoil but glad im not going mad! Im going stir crazy with the symptom spotting and wish I could just forget about it for a bit but t is on my mind all the time!
O feel with DC1 after 1 month and ddnt know I was pg to BFP so although it was a shock it was better than this. Me and DP have been trying for a few months but not properly, but this month I had ovulation pains and everything and have no convinced myself I am. I have the worse stomach cramps today too and my boobs are a bit sore so thats only made it worse. My main problem is tho that I dont have regular periods so dont know when to test or when im due or anything...so frustrating dont know what to do. Hope now all of you have BFP

[funtimewincies]

Still waiting for AF here too Nelix, although the witch looks likely as I did a test yesterday and a BFN again.

Same time again next month ladies (except for Nelix, obviously, who is going to get a beautifully clear BFP tomorrow ).