TTC buddies Baby #1 - anyone ?

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Hey ladies 👋🏽
Just thought I'd post this to find some buddies in the TTC journey as a clueless gal trying for baby #1 ! 🫶🏽
Ovulated today, so I guess the 2WW starts ! ⏰
Anyone else starting their 2WW ? ☺️

omg hahahahhahaha

9DPO and said no more testing as tested the last 3 days (i knowwwwww)
Of course i tested this morning lmao i just can't help myself.

Ordered some E@H tests as heard they're more sensitive??? Gonna try give it a few more days.

@Parks17 famous last words 😂😂 having tests at home is lethal! You just think why not?! I'm the same it's awful!!! I need to stop! 😂😂😂

I said the same yesterday, this thread has really helped me this month. It’s such a lonely journey and knowing other people, similar age and in same position where ttc for first time just made a big difference. Whilst I want people, myself included to get their BFPs this month, it is still nice knowing if I don’t there may be other people to go into the next month with! 🙂

I’ve tested 8/9 DPO and 10/11 DPO - both BFN 🥲. Onto the next cycle, AF due Tuesday/Wednesday if she doesn’t arrive I will test again Friday.

BUT I will say it’s an improvement as last cycle I tested daily from 7DPO to 12 DPO - twice a day 😂

@KT199 girl do not feel ashamed, cycle 1 I tested twice a day from 6 dpo - I decided never again 😂

It’s like I had become addicted to peeing on a stick last cycle 😂😂 glad I’ve not been AS bad this cycle. My OH said this morning “why don’t you just wait until you miss a period” 💀😂 HE DOES NOT GET IT

@KT199 😂😂😂 mine probs wouldn't even know if my period was a month late 😂😂😂

The constant testing is brutal! Between LH and HCG, I actually said to dh I'm absolutely sick of dipping things in pee 😆

I think I did about 3 lh strips every day for like 8 days before OV because I've never tracked before and I was worried I'd miss the surge 😅😅

Need to learn to control the urges..and perhaps get a hobby 💀

I know!! It’s so crazy how caught up you can get in testing!!

Agree I also think I need a hobby 🤣 I’ve let TTC become the centre of everything.. found myself not making plans for the coming months as in my head I convinced myself this would be an easy ride and I’d be pregnant so couldn’t go to brunch or away with the girls 😂! Regretting that now!! Definitely going to just sign up to everything now and if anything changes I can cancel last minute 🙌

In all honesty, I don’t think mine would either 😂 he said it because I’d said ohh I’m due on next week shall I do a test this morning.. and that was his response 🤣 then when I came downstairs sulking as it was stark white he was like “why have you upset yourself, I said to wait”.. thanks retrospectively I too wish I hadn’t done it but, too late now!!

😆 i wish we had male brain, they definitely take things lightly and dont obsess like us!
î think after few cycles of trying, i found myself less obsessed about testing and more obsessed about checking the calendar, and YES @littlebluu i also need a hobby ASAP 😆

Hi girls, sorry I've been really quiet the last few days. I've mentally struggled! Managed to get my head into a better place Saturday after seeing some friends and having a chat with them about things. I had kinda got my head to a place where I had accepted a new cycle after a negative test at 9dpo Friday. Well I got home yesterday afternoon and had some brown discharge and some very very light watery brown spotting when I wiped. I then thought omg could this be it, it is old blood so basically could coincide with the cramps at 8/9dpo so maybe implantation? I felt slightly optimistic last night and slept crap as I couldn't sleep thinking about it all. Had a tiny tiny bit more very very faint light brown spotting today (basically non existent) so I thought ok il test in the mornings at 12dpo tomo & this evening before I showered I had a little bit of more reddish very light spots. So I'm now feeling heartbroken that it's like an early AF that's never happened to me before but apparently as soon as you decide to TTC your cycles piss about just for shits and gigs! So I don't know if I'm going to wake up to full on AF 3 days early or if I'm just experiencing some early spotting pre AF that's due weds night / Thursday morning?! This has all got too much. On to cycle 4! Cried to my OH who was very sweet and said we can just be cool auntie and uncle... I feel sad. And probably making the process super unenjoyable for me and him! I am really hoping to try to step back next cycle, I will do OPKs potentially to make sure I am correct with ovulation and will try to cover that time but I'm not going to obsess anymore. What will be will be I really want my life back 😣 TTC has stolen it! How are you all? Is anyone testing tomorrow? Even though I know il be getting a negative I'm still going to be mortified when I see it. Life's cruel 🫣

They do have such funny little brains, I was trying to explain Spotting v AF to him last night and he looked liked I was asking him to do multiple long division 😅
In fairness I'm just getting to grips with it all too 🫣

@KT199 I've been doing the same, with regards to future plans. We have my MIL 60th in April, a week in Benidorm and the first thing I thought when we started trying was "oh..can you sunbathe when 7 months pregnant? 🤔" 🤣

Now that I have the first month out the way, I'm hoping that I will be a little more relaxed about it..I was just so on edge about doing everything exactly right. Clearly doing everything exactly right doesn't always work and it's just a case of best chance.

Need to remind myself that I still need to live and enjoy life!
And the same goes for all of you too!😘

Hi lovely , this could DEFINITELY be implantation ! Fingers crossed 🤞🏼
Not sure why your OH said you could be just uncle and aunties ... it's cycle 3 ... try and be kind to yourself, it's not over until AF shows up (if it does!) xx

@KT199 agreed girl, be kind to yourself too and enjoy little moments about life!
But I totally asked myself if I could fly on a long haul flight while pregnant next year 😂 shall we call this manifesting ?

So sorry to hear you've had a rubbish few days but glad that you seem to be over the peak and feeling better, chats with the girls and letting everything out can really take alot off your shoulders so it's great you have that support network, as well as us ofc! 😁

I totally empathise with the feeling that ttc is taking over your life, and you're so right about ttc causing cycle to piss about, I'm normally super regular and this month I started spotting 2 days early. I think it's the stress hormones screwing us over 😅😅

I think finding the balance between ttc and still enjoying life is so difficult, I've only been doing this a month so I can only imagine how frustrating it must be more cycles in, but the great thing is that you're able to recognise and know that you need to give yourself that time and space.

You got this 💪✨️

Thanks so much girls! I'm really trying to ease my brain to see a negative tomorrow morning as I am 99% certain it will be my luck that it is. I have a pad in tonight, 3 flipping days early... feel like a teen, since when I my 20s or 30s did my periods come early?! Oh well, I'm going to start journaling to try to get my thoughts on paper and hopefully allow me to relax a bit more, il start that now. My OH is so horizontal about things he was trying to make me feel better like "it's ok we can just have a fun life with each other" kinda thing which is cute but which girl wants to hear that really? Like most women and clearly all of us on this thread wants a baby so much that it's not as easy as getting past it like just having a fun life is going to fill that void if it doesn't work out? Also yeah I need to remind myself not to be a moron as it is only cycle 2 of trying and cycle 3 of unprotected sex and the early loss. So i really need to be positive. Hoping il start to relax soon but with each cycle I get more annoyed. Can't work out if I'm cramping or not right now, I never cramp this early either. I'm so frustrated! So I shall cry on here with my BFN in the morning sobbing into my journal lol. Really hoping you guys are holding out better than me!! Xx

Journaling has helped me SO much, outwith ttc just in general, I started about 2 months ago and I try to write something every night even if it's just a few sentences. Sometimes it's just random words and emotions! I always do it before bed as my anxiety is always the worst at night. I struggle with sleep and so I'm hoping if I stick with the journaling, the sleep will start to get better!

I had the "just us" conversation with DH a few months ago before we got married, but I was on the other side, being the one saying that I'd be perfectly happy with just the two of us, I've never been a particularly maternal person. But after we got married in July, something inside me just shifted and I suddenly had this yearn to have a little version of both of us. It was such a strange feeling.
And now that we've started ttc, and I've already experienced almost a feeling of loss, it's made me realise how much I want it.
Don't get me wrong, we are enough for me, we are end game and I would be happy with just him by my side for life and the adventures we'd go on.
It's just two completely different lives, kids and no kids. I just never knew until these last few months how much I would enjoy the other option!

Sorry kind of went on a tangent there 😅😅

I relate so much with what you said about being happy with just the two of us! I was extra cautious to avoid pregnancy in the first years of marriage! Little did i know about what the futur holds. I got my shift when i turned 30, i suddenly wanted a mini us, but didnt start right away, i wish i had, maybe now i would have a little one in my arms…

@HopefulSS i’m sorry you feel that way, it’s awlays a pickle when The spotting starts, unfortunately only time will tell, i can’t tell you to be patient because I’m driving myself crazy counting on days til AF is due so i CAN go back and have a life, the tww is always awful, looking forward for the start of a new cycle if this doent work out! I’m kind of used to it to be honest, been trying on and off from my MC earlier this year.

i wish we all find the peace to go on this journey of TTC, i second what few of you said about how great this is, especially this thread, i hope we can continue to support each other.

@HopefulSS The ttc journey really is all consuming and very difficult to handle mentally. I think your OH means well, but probably feels abit out of his depth trying to comfort you, this journey doesn’t seem to come with the same mental struggles for men (probably not true for all men) but it isn’t their body, they aren’t the one having to do the testing and listening to every tiny pain/symptom wondering as they don’t experience any. I hope your test tomorrow morning gives you a lovely suprise, but if not we will be here for support.
Keep us updated if you feel able ❤️

Morning all! Sorry just catching up on posts as took myself off to bed early last night! I hope everyone is ok! This journey is tough! I think both physically and mentally.

11DPO for me today and BFN! Not even a squinter!! Used my last test today so that's it for me I'm out and just going to wait for AF to arrive this week! I can't handle testing anymore!! I'm not buying anymore tests this week!! Xxx

Morning girl!

Sorry to hear you got a BFN, let’s see if AF arrives this week before counting yourself out. Not that I can take my own advice😂. How are you feeling?

I’m 11/12 DPO today (with how I feel I think 12) and got a BFN yesterday. Haven’t tested this morning as don’t need that negativity before work, but my temp dropped even lower this am and got the AF symptoms, so I am also out. Xx

@KT199 sucks doesn't it! I'm not even buying any more tests more as can't face the stark white strip!! 😂😂 hope you have a good day at work!! Xx

@slothbat yeah it is, I tried to say to my OH this morning that I may be abit sensitive the next few days as/when AF shows up.. he seems completely unphased.. he said if we’re still in this situation post Xmas he will probably start to worry but not at the moment. Wish I had his resilience and mindset!