You're wonderfully positive @pumpkinpatches22 ❤️
Feel I could have written some of your post. Hope is just about gone in our house, bright red blood now so no kidding myself it's just spotting... Have held strong and not tested as feel there's no point but will probably do final one when bleeding stops, just to close that chapter.
I know what you mean about feeling a little relieved/positive about the whole situation - this was cycle 12 for us (gulp) but never had as much as a late AF before. The only thing I did different was start a high dose of B6 about 6 weeks prior to getting the faint positive so I do wonder if that helped. Although my husband also pointed out we really went for it this time and DTD more than we usually manage so could be that too 😂It cheered me up a bit reading old MN posts about folks getting another positive quickly after a chemical so here's hoping it's our time soon!
I do already have a son so feel a little bad complaining... So grateful for him but it has been hard to accept this time hasn't been so easy. Bit of a shock to find myself here as he was conceived in 4/5 months and told myself I had plenty of time for DC2! I worry about a potential large age gap all the time, if I'm even lucky to have another now - beat myself up for not trying sooner but a pretty shitty time during the first few years of his life meant I wasn't even thinking about it so I need to go easy on myself. I've just turned 39 so that is another worry.
Interesting you mention Hertility, I had been looking at private options before this happened. I did go to my GP (posted on here about it) but they weren't great. Said they'd do a 21 day blood test and it turned out they only did a routine blood count! Wouldn't have known if I didn't ask for a copy of the results! They didn't seem too concerned about me, and said they'd only refer me for more tests once it's been a year (it will be in June). But I'll not either push for this now (because it's been 12 cycles) or go private. Was really hoping I didn't need to start down this road but hey ho 😔
Funny you mention your friends because I also said to my hubby just yesterday that I'm going to do the same! I know a lot of people with fertility issues, including one of my best friends, but weirdly I didn't want to bother them with my issues (which seem so bloody trivial compared to some of their struggles). My bestie had two miscarriages between DC1 and 2, and they were later... But then again, she will know better than anyone how hard it is so I really don't know why I felt I couldn't say...
Thank you for letting me get that out, do keep in touch! Your post made me cry and lifted me at the same time but that's just my hormones! 😂