Too scared to get excited

[Waitwaitwait22]

Got a early positive 5dt and I cant seem to let myself get excited as previous ones ended in miscarriage or didn’t work . I feel numb about it and I just can’t feel positive about cause I’m just thinking what if .. I really wanna be positive and happy but I’m just so scared it’s gonna happen again. I probably shouldn’t of tested so early but I feel like if I watch the lines it might help as no symptoms. Sorry for the rant

Only time will tell :) this is a good start for this month ! I wish you the best luck 🍀

Thank you @Internette this is though ivf so I’m use to waiting now lol . But thank you 🤞

Im 4DPO, and ordered some easy home tests for next week.
Will you keep me informed?

Hope it all goes well this time! Fingers crossed!!

I wish you every success, Waitwaitwait and truly wish and pray that there is something about which you can be excited. Do come back and tell us. Look after yourself.

Thank yous I will do ❤️ @LBFseBrom keep me updated to @Internette x

That’s a lovely, strong line - congratulations :)
I also got a positive after IVF and my 5dp5dt line was barely there. Currently almost 18 weeks :)

@Infertilitylife ah congratulations 🥰 . I just don’t know how I feel about it as it’s the first I’ve taken so I wanna wait 2 days and test again am nearly scared to test again incase gets lighter. It’s definitely not trigger as it’s been 12 days since then . What grade was your embryo if you don’t mind me asking mine is 5bb x

This is indeed a very strong line. Mine was like that at this stage. It turned out we had twins (we only had 2 embryos that we used at the same time). Sadly we lost 1 further down the line but just at 37 weeks now with a little girl.

Keep us posted! When are you having your betas?

@Waitwaitwait22 I had my IVF abroad so my gradings weren’t the same. And made no sense to me. I did have brown bleeding at 5 weeks and 9 weeks and was certain that it was going to end badly.

I totally understand the worry about testing again. I went crazy on testing though and only stopped testing numerous times, daily, after my scan at 6 weeks.

it’s almost like after everything we go through we almost can’t believe it, can we?

but your line is lovely :) keep is updated xx

Thank you @Happyface82 we have just he one transferred but I’m so worried it’s going to be a chemical I was a bit emotional yesterday but nothing now . I was 5dp5dt was beta isn’t til next Wednesday. @Infertilitylife yeah i
ts definitely not an easy ride that’s for sure I will x

I think I may have been right not to get excited looks like a chemical . Bottom pic is this morning pee 6dp5dt

they look just the same to me.
I had ivf 21 years ago and after such heartbreak before I decided to take each day as it comes and be excited for that day. My mil at the time said not to get too excited as it was such early days but I was determined not to let her negativity get me down!
Anyway it did progress and he’s now a strapping lad of 21!
Good luck op - try to enjoy the moment that it right now!

Thanks @Beautifulsunflowers after my early miscarriage last year it’s just hard to think positive again 2nd round of ivf and worried as symptoms are gone x

They look the same. It takes 48 hours to see a difference. Where are you located? Can you have a beta privately? It's what I did with mine for peace of mind. But over here (Greece) it's easy to have them done and they aren't expensive.

I think it looks similar too to day 5 - my clinic told me that every 48 hours it should darken so I would try again tomorrow. Your line is still much stronger than my 6dp5dt line.

@Happyface82 thanks I can get it done but I’m only 6dp5dt so I’m very early before test day isn’t til next Wednesday . I know I’m really worried but trying not to be thanks @Infertilitylife

I have done IVF so totally understand how anxious and nerve wracking this time is. It’s ok if you can’t get excited yet, just try to practice lots of self care and being gentle on yourself. The lines look the same to me, not fainter today. Sending the absolute best of luck to you.

It’s understandable you are worried. I’m 18 weeks and still worry so I totally understand xx

Confirmed what I thought a chemical aware not same test but don’t think would matter 48 hours later

I am 11dp5dt and my tests were the same as yours last week. I tested day 4,5,6,7 and all were very faint and I was convinced it was a chemical like my last round. 8dpo was suddenly more positive than the others and it’s been a slow progression but today is OTD and strong positive. Keeping everything crossed for you that yours goes the same way 🤞 I’m also scared to get excited, so I get it

@russiandwarf do u have any symptoms? I had a bit from day 3 but since yesterday nothing so makes me think it’s definitely a chemical. The lines just aren’t dark enough I know it’s still early but thought be bit darker than day 5

I don't believe in this line progression thing. You should get blood drawn for beta hcg that should double every 48h, this is the only reliable indicator until you can scan! Please don't convince yourself that you had a chemical.

Keeping my fingers crossed! Keep us posted!

@readingismycardio i will have to wait til Monday/Tuesday now if line still there I will do it . Done betas in past that confirmed lines last time so I feel like my body knows it’s not progressing but we’ll see

I choose to have hope for you! If you can't do it, I'll take the hope