Anyone else in tww?

[Mummy1502]

I just thought I’d start this thread to see if there is anyone else in the tww and wants to chat? Maybe stop ourselves going insane 😂 currently 3/4 days po I think x

@Mummy1502 thank you so much for your message! You're right, it's great to be able to speak with others in similar situations and to be able to vent when you need to!
I'm glad that your body seemed to kick back into action like normal after your cp and so exciting that you're in the tww again... Got my fingers crossed for you!!
I didn't feel pregnant at all last month but was so... Who knows!
With my DD (5 next month) I knew before I tested as I had so many symptoms... I guess it can be different every time but I absolutely wouldn't rule anything out based on not feeling pregnant!
I just want to ovulate so I know that things are working properly again... Ttc feels like a constant waiting game! I really hope I don't have an anovulatory cycle this month... I'll have to wait and see I guess x

@HannahLouD yea keep testing with your ovulation tests and hopefully you should ovulate in the next few days x

@HannahLouD thankyou I really hope this is the month we both get bfp x

@HannahLouD whats your ovulation test like today? I think I’ve picked up a virus, woke up with a sore ear, sore throat, feel sick and diarrhoea (sorry tmi) 7dpo today and proud I’ve still not tested usually start testing from day 6 then get upset when it’s negative even though it’s too early 😂 hoping I can hold out until af is due as I only have one FRER and refuse to spend loads on p tests like I did my last 2 cycles x

@Mummy1502 thanks for checking in!
Nope... Cheap opks still negative, (5th day flashing smilies on cb digital), still no temp drop like I've had the last 2 cycles and my cervix is really hard and closed... I don't think it's going to happen anytime soon, if at all. To be honest I think as well as the cp causing this it's also probably massively down to stress. I am so stressed and anxious and worried and I've just convinced myself I'm never going to ovulate, let alone get pregnant.
I suffer with anxiety as it is and am having CBT for it, but I don't actually know if I can carry on ttc. It's taking over my life and it's only been 3 months. I want a baby more than anything and so does my partner (he isn't the dad of my daughter) but I'm honestly tempted to just go back on the pill so I don't have to worry and obsess about everything anymore. Maybe I should just be happy that I have my daughter and leave it at that.
I know I'm being insanely ott and ridiculous but I just feel sad and stressed every day... Ugh.
Sorry you're not feeling very well... I hope you feel better soon! 💕
I'd like to think that if I do ovulate this month I won't test early, but I know that's not true... I know I'll end up testing at 10dpo. Thing is, even if I didn't test early last time, I still was getting positives at 16/17dpo... I dunno.
I agree with you though, absolutely not spending half my wages on pregnancy tests again!! x

@HannahLouD i know how you feel, long term sufferer of anxiety too, I also had cbt a few years ago and tried various medications, am actually thinking of trying sertraline, I had it prescribed a few weeks ago when I had the chemical as I just felt I wasn’t coping well with the disappointment and my anxiety has been playing up ever since, I havnt picked the prescription up yet though (health anxiety so fear of medication) however I have been taking a multi vitamin which for me is a positive as before I wouldn’t touch anything with fear of side effects etc, I probably sound crazy now 😂 it is hard to relax though isn’t it when you want something so much, I’ve been doing my opks every day still just to see what they are like throughout my whole cycle rather than just stopping when I have a positive, today the test looks quite dark, not positive but they seem to be getting darker, can’t say wether that’s normal for me or not as never tracked my whole cycle before, however from what I have read before is that the lh can surge again before af arrives, obviously I’m hoping this isn’t the case but I’m trying not to worry, I know I will probably test with a FRER on day 10, which will be in 3 days but I’m scared, mostly of it being negative but also if there is even a faint line I will worry, not sure if you remember what my lines were like last month but they were very faint, only slightly got darker and then went faint again until I got a negative confirming the chemical, will carry on with the opks until then but really trying not to stress this month, am feeling very off today and felt like I pulled a muscle in my lower right side yesterday, slight heavy feeling in lower abdomen but I think it’s from whatever I have picked up, it’s hard to not think every little twinge could be due to pregnancy, really not wanting to get my hopes up so feeling pretty down everyday until af is due as not expecting it to be good news, are your cycles normally the same every month? X

@HannahLouD this was my opk from this morning, after my peak I had a day of it still being very dark then they went faint again but now seem to be getting darker, hoping it’s not af on the way x

Hello again! Sorry, busy day at work!
This is only my third cycle since coming off the pill at the end of December so hard to know... My first cycle was 31 days (ovulated around cd16) then last cycle I also ovulated around cd16 but my cycle was 37 days due to the chemical so I guess I assumed I would ovulate cd16 again? 🤷🏻‍♀️

Before I got my bfp last month, my opks started getting darker at 9dpo... This was mine at 14dpo (apparently they can confuse hcg with LH as mine clearly did!) So it could be an early sign for you!? 🤞🤞🤞x

And this was my frer the same day...

@HannahLouD what cycle day are you on now? Thankyou maybe it might be a good thing but not getting my hopes up, will keep tracking opks and see if they keep getting darker x

Fingers crossed for you!!
I'm CD17 so not looking too hopeful for me... At this point I'd be happy just knowing that I'm going to ovulate, let alone anything else! This cp and now waiting to o is making time for soo slowly in-between trying again!x

@HannahLouD maybe the cp has just knocked it out by a few days, you were further along than me weren’t you, I’m sure you will ovulate x

@HannahLouD i seem to have a lot of ewcm today, not sure what’s going on, maybe I didn’t ovulate before and going to late? Surely not though af is due in 7 days x

@HannahLouD 8dpo today, I caved and did my FRER! Wish I didn’t coz I can see the faintest line, looked in every light it’s not a shadow, why didn’t I just wait, now I will worry x

Ah amazing, how exciting! Tentative congrats! 🤞🤞🤞
Still no signs of ovulation for me... I'm starting to think I might have an anovulatory cycle which would suckkk. As far as I know I've never had one before so would be just my luck I'll have one after my chemical 🙄 I'll keep on testing till the weekend and then I think I'll give up x

@Mummy1502 Hopefully it develops into a lovely strong line!

@HannahLouD Your cycle could have just been thrown from the CP. I don't ovulate normally until day 19/20 so although it's late for you, don't completely give up on it happening, your body may just be taking its time.

@HannahLouD im doubting it myself just where it’s so faint, barely visible I will test again tomorrow morning see if it was a real line, keep testing your whole cycle don’t give up x

@cavebaby I hope so will keep updated x

@cavebaby thank you... I know deep down that it is probably just the cp throwing it off, but it's just soo frustrating waiting! I also read that if you o after cd21 it's more likely to end in a cp or miscarriage... Don't know how true that is though.
I just don't think my body is gearing up for it at all... I had loads of fertile cm about a week ago and it's all dried up now. Also I've never checked my cervix in previous cycles but it feels low and hard (no idea how long before ovulation it's supposed to change mind you!). I know for sure I didn't ovulate when I had the cm because I track my bbt and it's still very consistently low and obviously I haven't had any positive opks either. Who knows 🤷🏻‍♀️
I'm fully aware I'm being very impatient but at this point I just want to know things are working again! 🙄😅x

@Mummy1502 8dpo is still sooo early to get a line! I got a vvvvvvvvvfl (only really visible by taking the frer apart and holding it up to the light) on 9dpo, then a slightly more visible line on 10dpo. It wasn't really until 11dpo that it was an obvious pink line and not a squinter! I really wouldn't worry yet! I've got my fingers crossed that it only gets stronger and stronger! 🤞
I'll keep testing until I run out of opks I guess... (If I test 2-3 times a day I have about 9 days worth left of the ics) and I have 8 CB digital ones left... If I don't catch a peak by then then I really will give up as I'd basically be due AF at that point!
I've decided that if I don't get pregnant and have a sticky one this cycle (which is obviously looking very unlikely), I'm not monitoring anything next time. It's causing me wayyyyy too much stress and anxiety. x

@HannahLouD yea I don’t know why I tested early I said I wouldn’t 😂 will try tomorrow though just to see if it was a real line and not an indent, not had much cramping at all, last month I had loads so I’m really not sure, boobs are sore and keep feeling sick in the mornings and I’m super tired but I think the sickness is defo due to the vitamins, I know it’s too early for symptoms anyway but just comparing to last month and thinking it’s different, I said the same if this isn’t our month I’m not testing with opks just gonna try go with the flow, really hoping you get your ovulation soon x

@HannahLouD okay after taking the test apart there is defo a faint line on there, I’m scared x

@HannahLouD it will give you line eyes 😂 but it’s more visible in person x

@HannahLouD this one you can see it better I’ve inverted it, I thought I was going mad when I thought I saw a line, didn’t think to open the test, I know lots of people say not to, this is gonna be a long 6 days waiting to see if af turns up and trying not to test everyday x

Ah I can defo see that! Eeek how exciting! I have everything crossed this one sticks for you 🤞🤞🤞
I bet you will end up testing everyday now 😅 I know I will if I ever see even another shadow of a line aha.
Have you been trying for long?
This was mine at 9dpo (if you can even see it!) And then mine at 13dpo at the darkest it got... So it progressed fairly well, until it didn't...
I think next time once I get a dye stealer I will feel a tiiiiny bit more relaxed 😅 although probably won't relax at all until the 12 week scan. Anyway... Got to ovulate first to even stand a chance so getting very ahead of myself here 😂😂x

@Mummy1502 I feel sad again now 😞🙄 cps are horrible... Even when you've only known a little while. Ugh. x