🦕🦕 The dinosaur crew - part 9 ttc after mc 🦕🦕

[Annny27]

Hi ladies,

You know the drill after this long haha! All of us ladies are ttc after miscarriage (whether that's MMC, MC, TFMR, ectopic or CP)

We have all been here a pretty long time and this is safe space to share our journey, troubles and worries with people who understand our losses 💗

The TTCers:

@babyghirl
@27donfin
@elm7
@peanuttybutter
@apwilso
@Kelb79

The recent BFPers along for the ride:
@kiwi17
@sunnysideup2020
@sweetbabydust1989

Apologies for those I have forgot to tag - please add yourself :)

Fantastic scan picture @Babyghirl bet you are over the moon!

@kiwi17 can't believe you're 36 weeks already that seems to have gone really quickly

@H0peing I bet now she's getting some real character to her face and losing that typical newborn look. It's so exciting when that happens.

@Angelmama1121 Sorry to hear about catching COVID, hope your symptoms stay mild and you shift it quite quickly.

I'm still feeling quite sickly but for some reason don't feel as bad the last few days. Don't get me wrong it's grim but I don't know if I'm just getting used or what. Hating it I know that.
Not been on here much as a result but also because I'm feeling quite anxious in general about things. I'm scared I'm going to lose the baby but at the same time I'm also terrified that I'm going to stay pregnant and have all the associated physical and life changes associated with it. I get moments where I'm questioning if this is what I want which is insane as I've wanted it for so long. I'm hoping those feelings settle down when the sickness stops.
Scan on 14th.

Hey everyone!
such a pile of lovely news and beautiful scan photos! So so happy for you all ❤️❤️❤️

im trying not to focus on everything too much and just go with the flow but I can definitely feel a bit of anxiety creeping in!!
im 5DPO today - no symptoms except sore boobs but I seem to get that every month around this time lately!
im gonna test with a FRER before I start taking the pill just in case and probably keep testing for a few days - I shouldn’t get a bleed so it’ll be hard to know if anything’s going on 😵‍💫
it would be epic to get the miracle BFP but sooo unlikely that Im not banking on it!!
flights and hotel all booked for retrieval!!
just gotta pray my follicles show up!!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼

@Annny27 nothing! They did a blood test said everything look perfect all hormones levels were fine. She thinks me and boyfriend are compatible so doesn't see a problem.They said I'll get refused at this point for anything else so I have to wait till December 22/Jan 23 for any other testing x

@Angelmama1121 @Annny27 @Bubbles1995 @H0peing @chali7
Thank you girls, was sick today had sickness a few times but not loads, really hoping this wee bean stays put, I think everything is going to be fine thou my best friend who died is right beside me on this one. Just waiting on a date for my 12 week scan then we can tell r folks going to get granny and granda cups with the scan pic on them.

@Kelb79 I have all my fingers crossed for you x

@PeanuttyButter
Thank you still nervous of something happening x

@PeanuttyButter Yes, they change a lot at this stage. With all that you've been through combined with pregnancy hormones it's not surprising that you feel this way. Thankfully it's only a few days until your next scan. I feel very positive that it will go well. I think everyone finds motherhood daunting at some point. It's a very big responsibility to bring a human being into the world, providing everything it needs and there's no complete manual on how to do it but we learn as we go and it's extremely rewarding. Sending loads of love. Xx

Thanks @H0peing I'm thinking of getting the midwife to refer me to the perinatal mental health team just so that I feel supported. They planned on doing that last time at my booking in appointment just because I was so anxious etc.
The sickness is really getting to me now, it's constant and although I've not actually thrown up (had anti reflux surgery so not vomited in over 10 years) I keep retching randomly the sickness is that bad. Think that's another reason why I feel so anxious about everything as I'm not enjoying myself at the moment at all. Just want to feel normal again for awhile lol
How's your little girl and you?

Hey lovelies, hope you’re all doing good ❤️❤️

@PeanuttyButter i hope you feel better soon lovely ❤️ Just hold on tight to why this is happening and how much you wanted it, feeling so shit is generally a good thing! 🫣 things are going as they should! 😁😁 I don’t think anxiety during pregnancy is something that any of us will ever avoid though!

my friends just tested positive today after their IVF transfer ❤️ I’m delighted for them but, as always, it’s tinged with the little green man 😵‍💫

had another drama with our journey this week - was asking my assistant at the clinic how I could go about keeping my meds at the right temperature when I go back to Spain for retrieval only to find out that the pharmacy had told me the wrong instructions!! I had put the (incredibly expensive) meds in the freezer by mistake!!!! 24 hours of total panic later…. I sent them pics/ idea of the meds to assess stability and they’ve come back saying they’re fine! THANK F@CK!!!! 😅 I got in a right mess with it all!!

so much for staying chilled and relaxed 🙄🤷🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️

@PeanuttyButter From what you are saying, it sounds like it would be a good idea to talk to the Midwife about a referral. The extra support should be helpful. The constant sickness / retching sounds awful but I've always been told that those symptoms are a good sign during pregnancy and they usually clear up by around 16 to 20 weeks if not sooner so you should be feeling more normal soon. There is some advice here:

www.nhs.uk/pregnancy/related-conditions/common-symptoms/vomiting-and-morning-sickness/

I'm quite tired as she keeps waking me up at night time but that's to be expected and I'm fine apart from that. She's beginning to smile now so that's lovely to see.

Looking forward to hearing good news from you after your next scan on the 14th. Xx

@Kelb79 That is terrible that the pharmacy gave you the wrong instructions! Maybe you could get some kind of compensation for the stress they put you through! Glad that the medication is fine though!

Hoping along with you that you'll be celebrating your bfp soon. Loads of love. Xxxx

@PeanuttyButter
Sorry your feeling bad, but just think of the rainbow at the end of it you got this girl.

I went round to a lady that works in r place I know 15 years she works in ultrasound and talked to her about my worries after all the losses well she give me a quick scan and there baby was jumping around told me to go round anytime so that's helped to relax me x

@Babyghirl how handy, pleased it was helpful ☺️

@PeanuttyButter I hope you start to feel better soon!

How is everyone?

@Izzyboo1234
Still bad with nervous girl in work off this week so I have booked a scan for Tomorrow 45 quid this fear is bad, I'm hoping as I will be 11+6 tomorrow I will be able to relax but still have it in my head something will be wrong. How r you.

@Babyghirl bless you, I can understand why.
I can Imagine I will be the same. Okay thank you. Still waiting for AF, thought I was ovulating but it was negative. Hoping AF arrives soon and we can start again.

Hi everyone, haven’t been on this thread for a while.

I am 10/11 DPO and have had a negative FRER that is stark white so I am almost certainly out this month 😔 this was our first cycle trying after the MMC at 10 weeks in April and I don’t know why but I really thought it would happen straight away (read so much about being more fertile etc and had used OPK and timed BD right) it’s left me so sad and deflated, and brought up all the feelings from the MMC (I guess TTC this cycle and the hope that it might happen gave me something to focus on away from the MMC)

Just looking for some positive vibes from people that have been through the same 😊 🌈

@emhope sorry you're not optimistic about this month, there is still time but I know exactly how your feeling about being deflated and wanting more. All we can do in those situations is to just carry on because there is no alternative is there. I know that crap feeling though, as do many others here.

How did your scan go @Babyghirl ?

I had a scan today at the recurrent miscarriage clinic and they have now discharged me. Baby measuring 9+3 and dates matching so all good.
Obviously still feeling rough but it feels better knowing it's not for nothing x

@PeanuttyButter great news and I hope
you start to feel better soon!

@emhope I hope it works out for you. 💐 just be kind to yourself. I am waiting for
my first Af since I mc, I had a sweeping thought earlier “wouldn’t it be great if I was pregnant” which is not possible, you can conceive when you’re not ovulating 😩 this is a great thread for support!

@PeanuttyButter That is great news that your scan went well today plus that you've now been discharged from epu! Really happy for you! Xx

@PeanuttyButter
Great 2 days away from 12 weeks now thank god great heartbeat and baby was doing handstands lol, I felt rough today boked my ring up lol and that was after the scan tired now so I'm in bed already and pizza on in the oven.

Omg great news about your scan so happy for you

@emhope
Awk sorry your feeling so down, but please try to relax, I took more fertile after a miscarriage with a pinch of salt, please don't put pressure on your self it will leave you hanging off the edge, you have been through so much and need to look after yourself xx

@Babyghirl Handstands! Lol that is really great news!!! I am so excited for you! Xx

@H0peing
Your girl doing the scan said look its standing on its head lol, I'm amazed to have got this far never did I think I would, my best friend is really by myside. She said to me before she died wheres the baby I said not with me yet so she knew something xx

@Babyghirl that just brought tears to my eyes!!! ❤️❤️❤️ How utterly beautiful!!

@PeanuttyButter Yay!!! Great news!!

im so so happy for all of you progressing with these beautiful pregnancies 😍😍 “real life” people seriously bring out my green eyed monster and I struggle to be happy fit them (I do try! 🙏🏼) but everyone here deserves it so so much and it gives me hope (which I seriously need right now!)

@Izzyboo1234 and @emhope sending you both so much love. MC is so horribly painful - I can honestly say I’ve only just got myself together after mine in September last year. I think moving forward with the IVF has been the catalyst for my healing so definitely keep forward thinking but give yourself all the time and love that you need right now - grief has no timeline ❤️❤️❤️

im 11DPO, I’m not holding out much hope - no symptoms at all - and I’m not giving it much thought - I start the stims for this IVF cycle in just over 2 weeks 😳😳 that’s taken over my brain completely!!! Doing meditations and trying to walk lots with my dog to keep the anxiety at bay - it’s very much there but I’m not going to acknowledge it if i can help it !!!

@Kelb79 I know exactly what you mean about real life people and people on here. It's not just because I know those other people I think it's just because irrespective of what their journey has been it has always seemed to be 'easy'. This group has offered me so much and continues to offer me so much as I travel on this journey.
I don't feel safe in this pregnancy (don't think I ever will) but what I do know is that you guys support me and will listen to my moaning and anxiousness. I really hope you (and everyone else) gets their rainbow soon. I think the important thing to do is never give up, because if you give up then it will never happen xx