A dozen eggs collected in a box, waiting to hatch, someone call the sperminator! TTC bus 40

[Minster2012]

Welcome back to the bus where anything goes, hop aboard, tell us about you & we’ll be here for you (there’s a song in there somewhere!).

This bus has a growing bunch of gorgeous black and white springy pups on board, tortoises & 2 feisty little kittens so bring your pets and pictures are obligatory 🤗.

We’ve got TTC happening in many different forms, shagging conventionally, unconventionally, with the help of scientific intervention, IUI/ICSI/Clomid/IVF & even just watching from the top of the bus 👀. It doesn’t matter if you’ve been trying for days, weeks, months or like some of us we’ve been around each other for so long we can’t bear to leave, nothing is TMI and there’s never a silly question...

Hell we KNOW TTC is tough, lots of us have had heart ache & are chasing 🌈so we are there for each other, as well as trying to have laughs along the way 🥰☺️

Oh and we like an embarrassing story to get your ticket for entry please!

And if you see mention of my blog then blame these guys they made me do it...#shamelessplug

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Story so far...

June 24 BFPs
July 11 BFPs
August 18 BFPs
Sep 4 BFPs
Oct 7 BFPs
Nov 7 BFPs
Dec 14 BFPs
jan 7 BFPs
February 8 BFPs
March 5 BFPs
April 5 BFPs - @Minster2012, @Asthenia @2020mission
@Hopeful110 @katiekatty

So into May we go, and plenty going on...

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@Crazydoglady123 that's amazing news!! Congratulations!!

@Minster2012 holy shit that clinic is the worst!! Big hugs, hope you're ok ♥️

@Minster2012 hope you're being well looked after 💕 money grabbing ars*hole wankers

@Franklydear come join me in poas corner, I'm 9dpo tested today BFN of course but I can't help myself. I will never learn. Think I like to torture myself😀. Hate this cycle of trying, failing, sulking, trying, achieving, losing, crying its draining. I really wish I could just chill out with the whole thing it would be much easier I'm sure

That's wonderful news @Crazydoglady123 !!!

@Minster2012 they should be as James of themselves!!

Well AF due today and usually here by now, nothing yet Altho very hormonal and fed up: tested this morning and BFN... so just a waiting game now as I feel af is due any time xx

@Crazydoglady123 amazing news!! Congratulations!!❤️❤️

@Catherinettc your little boy is beautiful!! Congratulations💙

@Minster2012 hope you're okay❤️ they should be ashamed of themselves!!!

Just catching up @Catherinettc congrats he's adorable!

Wooopwoop @Crazydoglady123 check out that awesome bfp!!!! You go girl!!!

@Minster2012 I think that was super insensitive of the clinic to say that I'm appalled!! 😡

Well me and oh celebrating a massive 18months together Tomorrow with some rum and a roaring fire outside

@2alreadywantanother I don't blame you. I hope the clinic are more helpful.
@Lexber hate the waiting game! Hope she just arrives soon for you.
@Vil10 looked like you had a fun today! 😊

@notyetamumbuttrying oh my gosh, my phone needs taking off me when I've had a drink😂 it was a good day, I didn't feel too bad this morning either, we went for a big walk, I felt a bit headachey on the way home though with the roads! How're you?x

@Vil10 I missed out the word *day! Whoops 😅 ah, no hun. I'm glad you had fun! Yeah I'm ok thanks. Went to a bbq so stuffed now! There were two babies and a toddler there so it was a bit full on at times but I got through it in the end!

@larrythelizard hey lovely. Sorry for the radio silence. It's been a roller-coaster 🙈 I am okay before I say anything else, nothing bad has happened it's just not gone quite to plan.

I hope you don't mind my update. So I went into hospital Thursday morning at 9.30am to wait for my surgical management and by 4.30pm they came and said okay you're next, I gowned up ready and I had to have my vaginal pessary to get things softened in preparation (it's the same meds you have for medical management but a half dose)... Anyway by 5.15pm they came to say there's been an emergency come in and they're terribly sorry but I won't be able to have the surgery today 😭 The issue is I'd already had the misoprostol pessary and by 6pm I was bleeding. Tbh I was so upset & scared. I wanted to avoid medical after my awful experiences last time so I was a bit inconsolable for a while and then when the bleeding started it just set me off even more. I think the bleeding hit me like a brick wall and everything just hit me, that I'd miscarried again & all the emotions that came with not only accepting that but grieving. It just hit me HARD. DH was with me thank god until about 8pm so I had support & lots of cuddles.

Anyway, I continued to bleed and 9pm the baby had come away and by midnight the placenta came away (whole). The staff were great yet again, and really looked after me through all of this. The pain wasn't quite as bad as last time so painkillers really helped make it manageable and felt much less fraught than last time. I had some bloods taken and it was all sent off for genetic testing. I bleed alot with lots of clots overnight but by morning it had settled so it was agreed (given my history of tissue retention & infection) I could have a scan Friday morning to check it was all complete and then I could go home. However 6-7hrs after my scan (yes it was THAT LONG a wait) the Dr came to say the pregnancy tissue was all gone but there's a load of thick lining still there and I couldn't go home 💔 cue more tears, feelings of utter failure & generally just gutted and knackered. We agreed that I'd have more misoprostol overnight to get it going again and we wanted to see clots overnight coming away. If there was no clot movement overnight then it'd be surgery today, Saturday...(are you still with me?! Well done if you are, I promise we're nearly there 🙈)

So by morning I'd had no clots at all - cramping & bleeding but no clots, so I was put on the list for today's surgeries at 9am and hopeful that I would get it done before the end of the day today. At 10am the anesthetist came to go through it all, 10.30am the Dr came with my consent forms again, by 11am I was gowned up again and being wheeled down to theatre. By 12.30pm I was back in my room with DH, all sleepy & woozy having had it all done 🎉🎉🎉 they did find retained products which were successfully removed with no complications and after a few hours recovery, some iv fluids (due to crazy dehydration for basically fasting for 2 days out of 3) & some light food, I'm home and currently snuggled up in bed with my adult nappy in fresh pj's & fresh sheets.

It had been such an up down few days with the oaln changing 3 times. I am exhausted emotionally, mentally & physically, and as the reality of this 3rd loss & 2nd MMC has hit me hard I know i have a long road of healing ahead of me... But for tonight I'm relieved to have had a successful surgery today, I'm proud of my body for delivering my baby & placenta fully with miminal drama and I'm relieved to be home after 3 very long days in hospital... But mostly I'm greatful for DH who has been my absolute rock throughout this and I honestly didn't think it was possible to love him more but he keeps proving me wrong 💕 now I'll stop there or I'll end up balling again but I just wanted to share this experience with you. I know it's alot but I feel like being open about this stuff is good and can be helpful, especially incase anyone ever has or has had to this experience and finds it reassuring to know they're not alone.

Anyway well done if you go to the end and Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk 😉🤣💕

I'll try to have a proper catch up with you all over the next few days xxx

@sausage1990 wow what an ordeal! So glad you had your oh for support X and your amazing for sharing this it must be hard writing it all down X its great that light can be shed on what does happen in these situations it's just so awful that you had to go through it xx sending lots of hugs x

@Sausage1990 lots of love to you, and thank you for the ted talk, really good explanation, love to dh too, so good you have each other

So sorry @Sausage1990, but also glad you have made it through and recovering at home. Hope you feel better soon.

@sausage1990 what an emotionally draining few days you've had. Sounds like you have an amazing husband glad to hear he was the rock you needed throughout. Now take time for both of you to heal after all you've been through. Sending massive hugs

@Sausage1990 you are super strong lady 💪🏼💕 so glad you are home and snuggled up xxx

@Sausage1990 you've really been through it, sending lots of love 💕 you sound like you're being well looked after and your DH a gem. I find comfort from writing things down sometimes so hopefully sharing your story may have felt a little relief for you too. Hope you feel better soon x

@Sausage1990 that was a really well done explanation! I'm so sorry for what you have and are going through... like you say there's a little relief that it was a little calmer than last time, your home now which is the best thing...plenty of snuggles and hugs and ice cream for you lovely. I really admire how you are dealing with your loss 💔

Also, I know @Minster2012 is taking a little break but just to say I'm thinking of you too, life can be so cruel and I agree there should be a rule of only 1 mc each for women...it isn't fair what you and @sausage1990 are going through! But we are all here for you both and if you need to vent or just an ear... (or eyes to read) then we are waiting patiently for you's xxx sending you both lots of love xxx

@Sausage1990 so sorry you've had such a changeable experience whilst already dealing with so much. I'm glad DH has been there to support you through this. Healing thoughts to you both 💓x

@sausage1990 oh lovely what a long drawn out fraught few days. Nothing I can say will make this any easier but glad you and DH have got each other for comfort xx

Oh @Sausage1990 that is such an ordeal, particularly for someone who had decided on surgical management for it to be drama free. I'm so pleased they've sent some bloods for testing so you hopefully won't have to do this again. Sending you and your fab DH lots of love 💕💕💕. Ps I didnt really expect you chatting away on the bus - same as @Minster2012 were here for you whether you're here or not x

Bfn this morning ladies,I feel ok about it, it might be too early

@notyetamumbuttrying oh that's always the worst, my friend told me the other day that she's off the pill and her OH wants to start trying now, she got pregnant with her first who is now 18 months, in the first few weeks of coming off the pill and didn't even realise until her period was late by like a week, so I know what the next news will be!

@Sausage1990 wow, I welled up reading that, I'm so sorry you've had to go through that, but I'm so glad you had your DH and it sounds like he was absolutely amazing!! Sending you both hugs, rest up and take it easy❤️

@Franklydear so sorry for bfn, how many dpo are you??

@Sausage1990 that was an emotional read, i can't imagine actually going through it. You are a stronger woman than you should have to be x

Sorry to hear that @Franklydear but like you say it is early.

I clicked on the 'charts like mine' on fertility friends and most of them were annovultary (eggless...not sure if I've spelt that right), so I feel it's now a waiting game until AF and the last few days of mega nausea have just been trickery!

@Vil10 I guess about 11 dpo, so it could have shown