Feb Bus 2021 - no more TRYING to conceive, let's blimin do this!

[BubsNumber2inTheMaking]

Here we go again girls! 💕 Wishing you all so much baby dust for this cycle! 👶🏼
CD4 for me today, cycle #60000000 at least. 🤦🏼‍♀️ TTC bubs #2 since Jan 2020.
2 miscarriages, umpteen national lockdowns, at least a stone heavier 🙄 Let's do this 💪❤️

Thank you @BubsNumber2inTheMaking

AF not due til 25th so I guess this is what I get for testing so early!!
Think I will do one more test tomorrow and if it's negative I will accept it and wait for AFs arrival. If it's positive then I will be just as clueless 🤦 such a rollercoaster of a time!

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking
Same as yesterday! Wish i had not bothered.xx

@MgW1 aww super frustrating. I know I’d do exactly the same though. In fact, I’ve already just order another pack of FRER so I can test tomorrow and Monday! 😬🤪 Keeping fingers tightly crossed for us both!xx

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking
Tested yesterday Fmu and then again this afternoon, it might be a tad darker cant really tell but becauae i had my vitamin this a.m that makes my urine yellow it coloured the background of the test from white to yellowy xx

@MgW1 oh yes what is it that makes pee so goddamn fluorescent?! Are you using FRERs to test? Whilst you’re still getting a line and no AF, that’s seriously hopeful! 🤗🤞💜

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking
Got another one for tomorrow or monday and then il get some supermarket ones because they are so expensive xx

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking
I cant send you a pic because can only get an accurate inpression in daylight , im going to try ans take my mind off it , we have been binge watching netflix! X

@MgW1 yes it's all about distraction 🤪 What series are you binging on atm? I've just done brigerton, firefly lane, and still soldiering on with This is us on Prime 💜 (not all today I should add 🤣)
We went for a long walk somewhere new today in the sunshine and I felt normal and not consumed with ttc for once! It was lovely! So pleased spring seems to be on her way 🙏
Try a fmu next time you test, it might surprise you!
I'm not feeling pregs at all this evening so not feeling hopeful but know it ain't over till it's over!xx

@bubblegeek22 my AF also due on the 25th! Let's hope the witch stays away for us both🧙‍♀️ xx

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking
Do you think it makes much dofference ? I normally have a hot choc in bed and notmally bursting for the loo when i get up but it never looks particularly concentrated. I dont feel preg either 🤪 anyway dont do a frer after vitamins , harder to read test.
We have been watching Queen of the south , its been good. Its easy to watch x

@MgW1 fingers crossed, hopefully in a few days it will be as bold as can be. How many dpo are you now?

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking have you tried Virgin river? Love that such an easy going feel good series.

Currently 10dpo and BFN on ic. Don't have any FRER in the house as trying not to waste money. Can always prime one if I'm late or get a squinter but I'm not hopeful this month as I've said before. Only DTD twice around my fertile week, and no positive opk. One of the times we did it I'm sure it was too late too. But we carry on

@MgW1 I don't know but I'm sure it's stronger than the rest of the day for me as I drink so much bloody tea and water all day! Good tip about avoiding post-vits though! 🤣 x

@PeanuttyButter
I thought i am roughly 19 dpo! However i think I ovulated approx 4 days late ... such an anxious time, i have had 2 previous mc's. If i hadnt had them i would probably be feeling cautiously excited about now xx

@MgW1 Sorry to hear about the MC, can't even imagine how that feels, will send positive thoughts your way.

@PeanuttyButter
So are you 9dpo? X

@PeanuttyButter thanks for the reco! I've not watched that one - will have to check it out.
Really don't trust those ic they are SO unreliable! At 10dpo you are def still in the running! Keeping fingers crossed!xx

@MgW1 to be honest I don't have a clue I'm guessing I'm 10 based on a bit of pain I had that felt like it could be ovulation. This is my third cycle and I've been clockwork at 24 days since my implant came out sometime in 2019. The first 2 cycles of TTC my cycles were 27 days so I don't know when AF is due tbh. Today is CD25.

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking I know I'm not out until AF but I'm not getting my hopes up this month and it's ok. Me and DH had a good chat during the fertile week about how all this was making us feel and the pressures (he felt the pressure to perform and I felt bad that he felt that way -despite him reassuring me that it is what he wants. He was also worried that I would leave him if it turns out his swimmers are impaired. I'm just thinking IF it's meant to be it will happen and WHEN it's meant to be it will happen 🙂

@PeanuttyButter
Deffo dont stress you will end up like me 🤣 get using opks and have a few consecutive days dtd on the run up to ovulation and odd few occasions before fertile week to get rid of dead sperm and you will crack it. Its one of those strange things as you never know when it will happen. My friend took 13 months with her first and first month of trying with her second!! Because it took so long first time they started trying early and only have a 19 month age gap between the 2!! Good luck as it could be your lucky month 🤞🏻🤞🏻 xxx

@MgW1 I’m just so happy that this forum is here and I can say what’s on my mind without being judged or feeling like a crazy lady. It’s also nice that I can feel happy for others who get their BFP on here. In real life it seems to hurt more when people close to me announce, everyone is pregnant at the moment it seems haha

@PeanuttyButter I know exactly what you mean! I guess in the 'real world' people don't talk openly about infertility so pregnancies seem to come about so easily. I know that's true for a lot of my friends, but I also know some who have struggled quietly. You usually only hear about those struggles after they have a baby though! This forum is a lifesaver. And I genuinely feel so happy when someone on the group gets a bfp but in real life, without knowing the back story, I do struggle to not just feel bitter and jealous. And I think I'm always going to secretly hate the couples who don't have to 'try' at all...just a teeny bit! 🤣🤦🏼‍♀️

Well another day, another test! I think I'm out now. I know it's still early but I'm just not feeling it. I had a dream about being pregnant last night and woke up so happy and excited..eugh, just heartbreaking each month seeing that BFN. My 'symptoms' have vanished now too so I'm thinking one more test on Tuesday then I'm done for this month. Feeling sad. But will be ok. Xx

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking
What do you think ? Bottom done this am

@MgW1 I think that's bolder! 🙌 💜 xx

@MgW1 that is def a positive!!!! Darker than mine was with my first (and I didn’t test that until AF was late). Congratulations!

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking the netflix binge will see you through this - havd you seen kingdom? It’s terrible but the men are HOT!

@BubsNumber2inTheMaking
@TolkiensFallow
Thank you ladies il see how I get on , calculated in reality 15 / 16 dpo xx