Can't take this anymore 😞

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Can't take this anymore 😞

Sorry in advance, this post is going to be a bit of a ramble/depression outburst, feel free to ignore 😞 & please don't say anything mean.

TTC baby number 1, we've been trying since July. 1st month we had a CP. 4 cycles later still nothing. So many pregnancy announcements from celebrities today, and although this sounds REALLY REALLY SELFISH, seeing their announcements just makes me burst into tears, so much so that I've unfollowed them from Instagram, I just know I can't take it, watching their stories everyday as I do, and it'll make me a little more sad each time. Obviously I wish them well, but I WISH it was me... I feel like someone watching down on everyone living their lives all the time, wondering when I'm going to be able to start living mine. Also, I'm aware that I haven't been trying for as long as some people have, but I am on my own journey here.

Think I need to go speak to doctor or something about my mental health. I've never experienced anything like this, I feel like I've always had mental health issues, but last year just killed me. Lots of changes happened in my life (not just covid). This new year has just set me off on a wave of emotions. I just keep thinking I should be pregnant by now. Today is the day I should have taken a pregnancy test (would have been 14DPO) but came on period a few days ago.

I'm just so so sad. Whether it's just the TTC journey or depression, or a combination of both, I think I need help 😞

This is a really brave post, I love your honesty.

I am 36 and have been trying for 16 months now (1 miscarriage at 10 weeks). I find each period a gut blow and lose myself in self pity every month- much to my partners frustration! But you’re so right! It gets me nowhere other than down and putting more pressure on both of us for next month.

Thank you for this post, it’s really resonated with me. Sending love your way x

I saw this thread and just wanted to say I feel exactly the same!
We’ve been ttc since May 2020. Had a chemical October 2020 then Fell pregnant straight after in November but miscarried at 6 weeks. Honestly found it really difficult seeing Celebs posting their announcements. I know I don’t know their backstory and I’m happy for them but I also can’t help but find everything so unfair!!!
One of my friends is starting ttc this month she has a 3 year old already that she fell pregnant with straight away and I know she will again and I will be so happy for her too but I know I will end up feeling jealous!
I go through days of being fine again and then suddenly just start crying. People try to reassure me that it’s a positive sign that I’m falling pregnant but what’s the point if It all ends at 6 weeks?!

This post made me feel a little normal about how I was feeling (I was up at 2am reading it) OP you’re not alone - I know how you feel.

I don’t think mrs hinch did say she was infertile, was it not she was saying her body hadn’t recovered from her first pregnancy as she was hospitalised due to blood clots? There is clearly something there though as she must be about six months pregnant and has just told her family also, so I imagine she’s considered high risk.

I also don’t think her announcement was smug, it was more twee and a bit cringe, but I think it depends on your own mind set on how you view it.

@Bluntness100 I actually love Mrs Hinch and was happy to see she was pregnant (I don’t know if she has fertility problems) - I thought it was a little extra but it’s exciting for everyone. Just was another person announcing pregnancy which is what I find difficult from my own background.

Bonnie. I get that, sorry I was just addressing the comments that she had claimed infertility and was smug, I’m not sure it was accurate, that’s all 💐

I completely understand how you feel!
Feeling very deflated, lots of new babies arrived before Christmas and then lots of baby announcements on Christmas day.
My husbands best friend is expecting a baby in July and although I am very happy for them they have only been in a relationship for 6 months and are putting pictures of the crib and pram all over social media and she's only 12 weeks pregnant!
I'm excited for them but dreaming that it will be our turn next....