Thanks for thinking of me @Amy00 & @minster2012 💕
I'm doing okay, I went into hospital on Tuesday for my medical management & ended up needing to stay overnight as things were taking their time. I managed to pass nearly everything, except for a small amount of placenta which was being a bit stubborn but the Dr agreed that I could go home & give nature some time to let it all come away rather than having surgery. They did want me to have a speculum inserted so they could have a look inside my cervix and see if they could remove the last bit of plecenta manually, but not under anaesthetic, just some morphine and I basically freaked out as soon as the Dr left the room and cried for like 20mins and then said i can't do it I'm too scared. Thankfully I was able to have a scan to see how much was left and as it wasn't much they agreed expectant management would be OK.
So after a very long & quite traumatic 36 hours I was able to go home. I have pretty much slept on an off since I got home at 6pm yesterday & am feeling okay. Very drained still and needing some TLC (I think is due to blood loss tbh) but overall okay. DH had been incredible throughout - literally stayed up all night at home, keeping in touch with me because I was awake all night & he didn't want me to be alone. He's also managed to get the full week off to make sure I'm OK which is such a relief.
I don't say traumatic to scare anyone, I don't mean it like it was a complete horrific experience. In all honesty it was exactly what I was told it would be like - I just didn't have any reference for what the pain would be like having never done it before so I couldn't fully appreciate it, and the length of time and amount of blood loss that's deemed normal, and lack of sleep. And then having checks and scan and stuff to see if it's all passed and Dr discussions & options to consider and make decisions in quite short time with noone to discuss it with because I was alone (stupid covid). And on top of all of that it's emotional and sad and frustrating... I cried alot. So that's what I mean with regards to trauma, just the whole experience was alot and I don't think you can every truly be prepared for that. The hospital staff were really great tho, coming in an checking in you regularly, offering pain relief & calming me down and chatting to me at 3am when I was feeling really upset & lonely. They made an incredibly difficult situation easier with their kindness & care.
However despite all of that, I now feel a sense of peace, I am now able to start moving forward in healing and put baby & this pregnancy to rest.
Sorry for this long and detailed post. I haven't caught up properly for a few days, just scanned because there's loads lol so I'll try to catch up properly and reply in due course. Hope you're all doing OK. Sorry for the BFN & af arrivals, and congratulations for the BFPs 💕 keeping my fingers crossed for those testing soon xxx