CSG (Thread 4)

[candycrush2298]

Continuation of previous 6 threads 😊

@Kaybobx lol for 2 thats harsh hahahah. Could get way more ebay cheapies for that price 🤣🤣🤣🤣 but OK just let me know as soon as you test hahahahaha

@candycrush2298 haha. Will see how I'm feeling and what my chart looks like. Might make me less obsessive not having them so available

@Kaybobx yeah thats true might make you think ugh whatever and just not be bothered with it all.

I wish we were all pg so we don't have to bother anymore lol. So over this. Literally the only time I dont think about testing is during AF. I wish I could keep that feeling of not being bothered hahah.

@candycrush2298 i know same, I'm so done with all this stressing, testing and pill popping! Ugh!

@Kaybobx even me!! I am taking so many pills now its unreal. I honestly feel like I have the reached the point where we will BD twice where its planned in my fertile window and the rest is because we actually want to. My sex life has taken such a downward turn, I am so cranky my husband doesn't even know what to do anymore. He has asked if I want to go to therapy or what he can do to help. I have changed and not in a good way. I have let my weight climb up again I just dont care about anything else except TTC.

Literally the month off was so good but it wasn't enough. I still became so grumpy in the TWW and so mean.

Like I am honestly so ready to stop, but I promised my hubby we would keep trying until we found an answer with one of us. I know he would understand but I would feel like I am letting him down if I say I am done. I've had enough.

Oh @candycrush2298 it’s so awful for you :( I really do feel for you. I’m absolutely hating it and I’m only on cycle 5

@Boc86 awww thanks hun!!! Truly appreciate it. You girls are all so amazing honestly. I will still be tracking and doing what I am supposed to for TTC because I made my husband a promise to keep trying but I am just not going to care about the end result so much anymore.

Need to switch my brain from TTC back to weightloss. How I dont know like I keep trying to remember how I got so focused and disciplined the first time but again it comes back to TTC my motivation was the doctor said lose weight and it will help your chances of conceiving well they lied so its like whats my new motivation. I tell myself for a healthier me but I keep failing that doesn't keep going. I need that thing to snap inside my mind like OK thats it.

@candycrush2298 maybe try and think of the weight loss as one of the pieces you need to finish the ttc jigsaw, yes.. There may be other things that need to fall onto place too, and the losing weight might not be an edge piece, or even a very important part of thr picture, but without it there it wouldn't be complete. Maybe if you try and get that idea into your head (I mean, I don't know if it's even half right) it might help your motivation?

@Welliedays thanks hun, you see the thing is I lost so much weight before starting to try for a baby as I knew the importance and in two years I maintained the weight, I only started putting the weight back on during lock down so that was like maybe 20 months and +/- 24 cycles of trying at an almost healthy BMI so now I cant seem to think of it for TTC I have become so resentful towards TTC that I think by associating the weightloss with it I get over it and keep failing. Because I am so ready to stop TTC I need to think of weightloss for a different reason and I cant get my mind to snap. Like I need a new reason I tried saying all the health benefits and bla bla bla but that doesn't seem to do Jack for me hahaha. Just need to find that mono. Maybe I need to go an buy an outfit that I always dreamed of wearing and see if that motivates me at all🤔

Woo temp shot up, 3dpo now
Goin to start my progesterone tomorrow night I think at 4dpo. My doc said 7dpo but absolutely everything online says 3 🤷🏼‍♀️

@Boc86 probably because at 7dpo is when most people still have progesterone on their own at a guess why your doc says 7. I think 4dpo should be fine. If you have enough suppositories go for it hun can't do any harm.

@candycrush2298 awe hun I'm so sorry you feel this way. I should be just grateful i have a daughter already. Im the same with the weight gain, before lockdown i was in the gym and eating well. I had a stable weight, then it went to take aways and snacks due to boredom. Now i can't shift it and cant really be bothered to either! Even though i get upset i look fat in everything i wear i still do nothing about it. Maybe it is a new focus we need.

My temps are still pretty low today. Nothing exciting to report from me.

@candycrush2298 virtual hugs.

I’m 5 dpo. Trying not to symptom spot yet but caught myself twice yesterday with ridiculously sore boobs. Know it means zero.

Met a friend yesterday who’s almost 20 weeks. First cycle. Why is it so hard for us 😭😭

@Kaybobx I think I am looking at the same one

It’s saying 5 capsules in a serving and it says 1 serving size is 50mg. Also the reviews mention each tablet is 10mg?

@candycrush2298 ask them to check for polyps, fibroids, endometriosis. Also make them tell you about your ovaries. Are there loads of cysts on there, are they big and bulky (apparently that’s a bad thing). Also look at the shape of the uterus, is it normal or does it have a septum or any other weird shape.

Urmmm that’s all I can think of. Tell them you’ve been trying for 2 years and haven’t conceived so to please look for anything that could possibly be an issue.

Sorry haven’t read any of the other posts. I’ll try and have a proper catch up this evening.

@Elakiya oh well that's misleading. I was under the impression they were 50mg as the tub says 50mg. Oh well, im all natural this cycle 🤣🤣🤣

@Elakiya i can get my money back at least! Thanks for pointing it out

@Kaybobx whilst of course you are grateful you should not have to settle for only one because others haven't even got one!! No I refuse to believe that one bit I would want more than one, and you shouldn't ever feel bad for wanting to grow your family!
Thank you though, I think I need to shift to my focus I just need to figure out how I am going to shift my mindset. Once I get myself into the zone with my frame of mind I know I will keep going its just to get it there.

How is your chart looking overall? Looking nice and neat?

@NamechangeTTC thanks hun, awww I know it is so difficult isn't it...

@Elakiya thanks hun, that is great will save this one and be sure to ask on Friday. They think they are searching due to my pain so will be be phrasing it around the pain scenario but these are great.

@Kaybobx at least you can get your money back that is great news. Because it is misleading that the tub says 50mg. So wait how many tablets did you take and how many mg did you actually end up taking each day now? Because you had such strong ovulation pain, only 1 day of a peak and you were having other side effect symptoms?

@candycrush2298 if they are 10mg i took 40mg a day. Even if they haven't done anything for my eggs, they've definitely sorted my cycle out! I had a lovely neat ovulation. As you say 1 day peak for the first time with a dye stealing postive OPK and a clear temp shift in ovulation. Who knows. My temp is staying low today, still time to rise though i hope

@Kaybobx wow well for 40mg a day the dose definitely seemed to agree with you. As you clearly had ONE day only of peak, and definitely a very clear dip for the day of ovulation and a huge temp rise the day after so hell yeah I would say it worked!

Temps are looking great still above the coverline so looking all good to me.

Ahh @candycrush2298 I'm sure you will find something to focus your mind, maybe buying an amazing outfit will do the trick. I know someone who really wanted a pair of fairfax and favor boots (not sure if you've heard of them), but her legs were too big for them, so she's set herself a challenge to lose weight to fit in them and she's already lost a stone. Is there something you REALLY want that you could reward yourself with? I think taking the stress off ttc and giving yourself a break so you can just BD for fun will do you the world of good, maybe suggest it to Hubby and sayg that doesn't mean you'll stop having sex, but it will so your MH the world of good? I hate having to read all your posts, I feel so guilty I managed straight away, how is that fair?!

But anyway, my main point of coming on was to give you all another handy tip... Maybe tmi, but seemingly constipation is a very real thing when you're growing a baby (I thought if anything, it would become a problem later on, not at 11 weeks) and I've really been struggling with it, but I read that someone said three weetabix a day worked for them. Now I usually have two weetabix for breakfast so couldn't work out how an extra one would make a different, but I upped it to three this morning and it's either coincidence or it really did work! So make sure you keep this little tip in mind when you get your babies in your tummies!

@Welliedays awww thank you hun, I will have to go hunting for this outfit because I dont have one in mind already but I am hoping that when I find it that will be the motivation I need. Yeah told hubby twice in my fertile window. Cannot be arsed with 3 days in a row anymore 🤣🤣🤣 I havent found tracking hard work anymore as its FMU with CB monitor and I sleep with ava and I am only using fertility friend now dont care about the other apps. I will use OPKs when I remember but other than that I don't need to do much. So I am really not putting much effort in and hubby will definitely be understanding but I feel this whole ttc has become about me, me, me so would like to at least keep trying to show that we are a partnership and I appreciate and value his opinions.

Oooooh wow thanks for sharing i cannot believe 3 weetabix does the trick for you hahahah well there you go glad you found something that helps you.

Hi all. Will catch up when I'm at home as can't have phone out at work.

Af due today but nothing yet. Made home made fish fingers yesterday and fish was fresh. I was adamant it smelt off and DH said it was fine. I cooked it and I gagged when I sniffed it. DH again says I was being weird and it was fine. I ended up eating something else lol.

Felt fine though. Done a cb digital this morning which was negative so just a waiting game now for af. I predict she will show later today as usual. Had some twinges.

Hoping af doesn’t show @ReginaaPhalange

Just seen this on Facebook. What the hell is going on in Scotland girls? Is COVID that bad?

@Kaybobx I don’t think it’s as bad as England but trying to stop it getting worse.

All bars and restaurants and hospitality across the country closed 6pm-6am, but in 5 areas (central belt, linked to cases) closed for 16 days. Only things that can open are non licensed cafes 6am-6pm.