TTC after MC - July/August 2020 (Thread 8)

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Hey ladies,

Sorry if I still don't have your testing/AF date on here xx

BFP list❤️

@Hayleylou89
@1990EM
@Tink20058
@mumoftwobeauts
@DontStandSoClose
@peonyrose87
@Ejb86
@Girlmum83
@Dipsy77
@DBTJ
@SmileyT
@ManchNic
@Niisa
@2020wish
@Rebecca1992

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@fafi -
@HE88- 19th July
@Rainbowhope11- 20th July
@HopeForRainbowbaby- 21st July
@Renna
@Diorissimo1985- 26th July
@Rb486- 30th July
@Wishingfornumber2
@Northernsoul90
@Sallyjo27
@bxiiboo
@Pugprincess
@Jazper
@elliew818
@AC2020
@Eli2020
@littletandme
@MichT4
@Banbi
@busby85
@Re6ecc4
@Bellabubble
@Lollol86
@Firevie
@Sjk89
@Emsnewmum
@stayinghopeful92x
@chloedancer897
@MrsK21
@Hayley19835

Xx

@Jazper yes I’m struggling too, it’s all I think about 😩😞 the desire to be pregnant is such a strong one and now after 5 years I managed it I just want it back so bad. That’s what I felt made my mc even harder, cause conceiving wasn’t easy for me and I feel like it was a weird fluke. I just pray it will happen again soon because to be honest with you all I’ve felt really low and almost suicidal over this over the years. Back in March I was so tearful and down and I remember telling a friend that I just hated my life, I was never home, always working, and I hated it. I struggle to find other reasons to go on. I’ve told myself I can have dogs, adopt, go on luxury holidays and have a nice car and house if it doesn’t happen but to be honest all I want to be is a stay at home mum now. Lockdown has really made me go from working all the time to not wanting to go back. X

@SmileyT I'm just doing cheapies, if I'm not ovulating at all I cba to keep spending £30/month on them! I haven't been doing them so early either this month, normally I'd be doing them by now but will wait until like Wednesday I think. Xx

@SmileyT I hope everything is ok. Today’s going to drag for you. Try and keep busy xxx

@SmileyT I really hope this is just a symptom fluctuation for you. I'm happy you don't have long to wait. Stick on new girl and MAFS today and put your feet up. Thinking of you and sending all the positive vibes your way xx

@Jazper this could be implantation, but I know what you mean when you don't want to get your hopes up. Just see what happens over the next few days, but try not to panic yet

xx

Thank you @MichT4 ❤️

Oh @Pugprincess I hadn't realised you had been trying for so long. I feel lucky that I have the children I have but I am desperate for one with my OH. That feeling of elation when I got my first positive test keeps going round in my head and every time I poas, I'm so desperately willing a second line to appear. And when it doesn't I am absolutely devastated.
Are you feeling as depressed now? As you said it was back in March?

@Jazper no I’m better now I’m not working and I’ve since quit one of my two jobs so I will have much more free time. I’ve also gone from agency to contract so I have some stability. But I am worried how I will be mentally if I don’t get pregnant again. The hope is the main thing keeping me going. I’ve always said even if I only ever had one baby I would be happy. I just want to experience it. I loved every minute of being pregnant last time, I only got to 8 weeks and unfortunately the last couple of weeks were blighted with steadily worsening brown discharge and worry. I had my hopes raised when I had a private scan that showed a smaller baby but heartbeat and no bleeding in uterus (since learned the placenta or baby may have blocked the view of the bleeding) as the next day everything began to start going very wrong. I feel like I saw my baby the last day it was alive 😞

@Pugprincess fingers crossed that line gets stronger Over the next couple of days

@SmileyT crossing everything for u! It could just be fluctuating symptoms which is completely normal and the rhr is the reason I took my Fitbit n all off to stop me looking into every slight thing. But I get how u feel with the previous loss and are preparing and protecting urself. But good vibes and prayers that nothing is wrong at all! Is ur scan toMorrow or Monday?

@SmileyT I have everything crossed for you. Stay positive. Sometimes you get little fluctuations where you don't feel symptoms and that can be normal. Please try not to worry x

@Pugprincess I'm so sorry you've felt this way. We have been trying for 3 years almost and it's really easy to get bogged down by it all but I really had to shake myself and remind myself of the things that I actually already have and how lucky I am. Have you thought about counselling? I found it really beneficial for me x

Can I join you guys? I am in the middle of a miscarriage and feel like I’m going to need some pretty hefty support to keep going after this!

Got pregnant in May, but had a chemical pregnancy at around 5 weeks. Positive again in July. This time, went to EPU at 7 weeks yesterday with some light cramping and found an empty gestational sac. Absolutely heartbroken after spending the last few weeks imagining our growing baby. Feeling lucky as they told me I’d have to wait until my body started passing it/ have a D and C, but last night I started bleeding heavily and passing clots. Back in tomorrow to check not ectopic. So worried something is wrong with us that it’s happened twice and would love any reassurance. Particularly worried because nothing ‘grew’ either time (chromosonal abnormality?!)

@Blondecomment0703 so sorry for you, hopefully it’s just bad luck and won’t keep happening. Do you have any other children? I’ve just heard about an old work colleague who suffered two mc before she’s got her third she’s hopefully carried to term now. My friend hasn’t seen her since lockdown so haven’t got a recent update but the 3rd was progressing well and should be due now. So there is hope.

@2020wish and others who have 🤞🏻 for me. I’m attaching another pic of test this morn now it’s dried out. It happened yesterday morning too but I didn’t want to say anything till it happened more than once.

Yesterday’s didn’t dry very well and looked like it had almost disappeared but today’s seems a bit stronger if not still really faint. See if you guys can see it? I really hope it’s a new pregnancy and not the old one messing with me. I’m not one to get faint lines in all those 5 years of trying I never had anything.

@chloedancer897 I will definitely consider the counselling. Xx

Sorry photo vanished lol

@Blondecomment0703 so sorry u have found urself here. I can’t completely give u reassurance but all I can say is I know how u feel, I’ve had 3 early loses this year, I’m now pregnant again and 5+4 weeks, first scan next week. So I’m
Hoping this is good news for me and a sticky bean as lines and hcg has been stronger than ever before and symptoms noticeable. So hopefully that’s some reassurance that it can happen.. although I have to say that the anxiety and worry never disappears now- I’m in a constant state of worry and freaking out so it’s a mentally exhausting

@Pugprincess yes I’m seeing it better! That’s good it’s got darker from yesterday how many dpo are u? Fingers crossed . So excited

I can definitely see a line @Pugprincess . Would be worth getting an FRER and testing in the morning.
Glad you aren't feeling as bad as you were back in March. Definitely agree with @chloedancer897 about counselling.

Sorry you find yourself here @Blondecomment0703 ❤️

@2020wish I’m only 6dpo if I’m counting right or if I’m right about when egg was there. I don’t temp so I can’t confirm that unfortunately. I’m glad I’m not the only one who sees it cause I feel like eyes play tricks. Il attach yday test photo so you can see the 1 day difference.

@Jazper is the frer a first response one? Is it digital or lines? I’m shopping today

Yesterday’s versus today’s

It's lines @Pugprincess and yes, it's First Response Early Result. Make sure you get the early one, and not 'rapid result' as it's more sensitive. The only shop I can buy it from round me is Superdrug or Boots. They don't sell them in Asda or Tesco's for some reason, I'm sure they used to. Otherwise I get them online. Fingers tightly crossed for you!!

@Jazper thank you for those tips. Don’t know if I’m imagining it now but feel the pinching and twinges etc. Random stabby pains and muscle twitches x

@SmileyT you don't sound silly saying you just have that feeling, with both my mc I had that feeling too. I really hope it's not the case though as bean is tucked up nice and cosy in there xx

@Pugprincess fingers crossed lines get darker! I’ve just done an OPKS this morning and it’s going low again so assume it was right that it detected my peak yesterday! Also my BBT dipped a bit today and felt a left tinge in my tummy, so I’ve marked today as my ovulation day in the app. Will DTD again today and tmr for good measure but then will need a break. DTD 4 days in a row phew lol xxx

I've finally got a peak on Femometer, only
112% is that ok?

Haha @Lollol86 get to bed now and stay there all day 😂😂😂

@Lollol86 that's definitely a peak!

@Firevie yes it’s tough going isn’t it. I’ve been with my husband 17 years now! Met as teenagers, and it’s hard to make yourselves want it that often when been together so long. He’s capable but I don’t think I could fancy it more than once a week really 😅 just said to him if I am preg you won’t be getting it the whole time it lasts for so i hope he enjoyed it 😂

@Jazper what was the discharge like? I know you must be frustrated but, I hope it is just an IB or something random not AF! Xx

@Pugprincess I can see a slight faint line on the second one which is promising as you're so early on. Really hope this is a BFP for you ❤️

@Lollol86 woo, that's a strong OPK definitely hitting your peak. Enjoy, keep DTD!💦💦 Xx

@Firevie you're definitely fully covered there, now for the TWW! 🤞

@Blondecomment0703 really sorry you're going through a MC it really is so hard. I hope you are looking after yourself❤️

@SmileyT Thinking of you and sending lots of hugs, try and get some rest today and binge watch something to keep your mind busy. Symptom fluctuations can be normal 🤞🏼 really hoping all is well. I know it's not for everyone but I'll keep you in my prayers 🙏🏼💕 xxx

@Jazper You're definitely not out yet. Fingers crossed it's implantation related 🤞🏼🤞🏼xx

@Pugprincess I can make out a faint line! Hoping and praying this is it for you 🤞🏼🙏🏼 will you do a frer or anything in a couple of days maybe? Xx