Just want AF to arrive so new cycle can begin...

[CaribouCarafe]

AF due in 3 days.

Am sure I'm out this month - negative FRER today and I have the usual PMS acne.

Just want my period to come already so that I can get this useless cycle over with and have a commiseration beer.

Just frustrating as have been taking pre-conception vitamins for months, cut out caffeine, no alcohol during TWW, have DTD every other day, tracked ovulation and with no success.

Anyone else fancy a moan whilst waiting for AF to show up?

@Sunbird24 @Ughmaybenot yeah exactly! I’ve got my day 3 bloods next week so will see what those results say and then might look into a private HSG as still not doing on NHS so it’ll be holding full referral. I feel a bit silly as I’m really holding out to do naturally

I dont know if it’s hormones or what today but I keep thinking I don’t feel pregnant. I’ve booked a private scan for Friday (6+5) because I can’t imagine waiting another 2 weeks for the one with the clinic without losing my marbles 🥺

@Sunbird24 it’s probably a mental reaction/protection as you’ve faced loss before. How many weeks are you now? Maybe do a HPT to reassure? If it helps, the week and half I was pregnant I felt sooo pregnant, nausea the lot and it wasn’t to be so I wouldn’t worry too much!

Oh just seen you’re 6 weeks, maybe not on hpt as get the hook effect. Hopefully the scan will provide you some reassurance ❤️

Thinking of you today @Sunbird24 ✨

CD30 for me, 13dpo, AF no show yet, BFN this morning FMU. Feeling extremely bitter and miserable today, could actually fully cry at the drop of a hat 😔 can't shake it off...
Gonna have lots of wine and hot baths this weekend.

Aww @mrswilso I’m feeling you. Had a massive sob watching what to expect when you’re expecting on Netflix yesterday and having a pity day with Doritos today to feel better. I think it’s the rubbish part of lockdown where it’s still a little while til it gets better but still too cold to go for any big walks or anything to get out the house.
Hoping you have a nice relaxing weekend - when is AF due? Tomorrow?

Aww, keeping things crossed the emotionalness is not AF arriving - I’ve turned into a frequent cryer over the last few weeks.
One of my two embryos has implanted and is measuring 6 weeks, with a little fluttery heartbeat. The other has been absorbed, but I also have an area of bleed which accounts for the spotting.

Aww @Sunbird24 congratulations!
What have the advised on the bleed?

They said it should be reabsorbed gradually but I may get more spotting. Nothing to worry about

Can i join in this moan. Im literally exhuasted and fed up with this process. Just had my 3rd Chemical Preg and just started bleeding. Its so hard! xx

Oh @Msd2416 I’m so sorry to hear that. Take all the time you need to be angry and sad, and look after yourself. Might be worth seeing if your GP will run some tests for you to check if there’s anything causing an issue before you try again?

Due on today @LS2020 - starting to have some mild cramps so I reckon it'll be here by tomorrow.
I'm just sick and fed up with EVERYTHING seeming like an uphill struggle in my life to be honest...I don't expect shit to just land in my lap and I'm usually such a positive person but the whole TTC struggle is just seems like the icing on the cake right now 😤
Sorry for being a total whinge 😫🤣 it feels good to let it out...

Aw man @Msd2416 - so sorry to hear you're struggling too. Sending lots of cuddles ✨

@Sunbird24 Thankyou lovely! All booked in for Wed so hopefully they might be able to help in some way! xx

@Sunbird24 so relieved for you ❤️ fingers crossed for no more dramas 😘

@mrswilso I 100% feel you! I didnt expect this at all ive never felt so drained. Also thinking about deleting FB as it seems every single person is annoucing theyre expecting and just triggering so much! Whyyyyyyy

@Sunbird24 that’s so reassuring, glad you have your scan ❤️ Rest up as much as you can!!

@Msd2416 sorry to hear about your CPs - definitely a good idea to log with a doctor. I rang my GP when I had mine to keep an official track of them happening. How long have you been TTC? I got rid of FB for that and mental health reasons and honestly the best decision I ever made. Though was on the news and saw about a couple who killed a 6 week old baby and that enraged me that they were lucky enough to have her and we’ve been trying so long.

@mrswilso yes have a big glass of wine! Sorry to hear you think AF is on the way. No let it all out. I had a good ugly cry last night and was very therapeutic!! I’m so fed up abs over the whole thing. Don’t know how to not try though 😩

And*

Had a fantastic talk (and a good cry) with hubby this afternoon and I'm currently in the bath with a laaaarge glass of one of the last (savoured) bottles of white wine from our wedding and a suspicious smelling cigarette 😏 feeling much better than I was earlier.

Thank you all for being there 🥰 I feel like this community in particular is one of the most supportive I've ever come across - you girls hear the absolute worst of what goes through my mind and I'm truly grateful for the outlet because I'm clinging onto my pre-TTC positivity levels by a thread these days and it's getting so so hard to hide that from "the rest of the world" ❤️

Also...we are getting dangerously close to 1k now 🤩🥳 time to start coming up with our witty next thread title??

@CaribouCarafe how are you?? How's that adorable little kitten?? 😍 ...not a euphemism btw 🤣🐱

I feel like I ought to bow out from this thread now, but I really want you all to know I’m still supporting you and hoping every day to see you get the BFPs you deserve X

Noooo @Sunbird24 😫 please pop in every now and then and keep us updated at least? ❤️

I’ll keep an eye on the thread then if you’ll have me! Just don’t ever want to be insensitive when anyone’s having a bad day/week

No no nooo @Sunbird24 !! 🥺 please don't ever feel that way - not in this group! It's different with you girls...well for me at least, I feel like we've all been through it all with each other ❤️

@LS2020 I was considering ditching the LH strips this cycle 😬 I haven't placed my refill order yet...still debating. The thought of not having that reassurance though...😫

@Sunbird24 please always feel welcome here ❤️ We’ll always appreciate the support no matter where you are in life and also it’s nice to keep the hope that we’ll get there one day too!

@mrswilso glad you had a really nice relaxing evening. Take care of yourself!! I watched the Roman Kemp and Caroline Flack documentaries and while so important to start those discussions, I don’t think I was mentally in the right place for it and it really knocked me.
I gave up with OPKs mostly because I ovulate day 13 like clockwork and was a waste of money each month. I still have a pack left over of cheapies that I’m slowly dipping into when I get desperate. I’ve only got 1 FRER pack and a double check pack so I don’t get tempted to test every month too but that just means I obsess with my RHR instead so deffo thinking of ditching the Fitbit for a while. I don’t really know what else I can do now though and as going through treatment, all scans have to be on certain days etc so need to keep track of my cycle.
Thinking about temping but not sure I can be bothered or that it’s going to tell me anything new. Or maybe the clear blue fertility monitor so at least I am testing and not getting my hopes up in TWW where I can kid myself I’m not out yet 😩