Back in the 2WW

[Kates21]

So, the subject says it all! Although I feel I may have more a chance this month.
I came off the pill December - last month we was out. But this month, I apparently ovulated yesterday 12/01/20. We did the deed twice 2 days before ovulation... so today Iam 1dpo.

Anyone in the same that wants to join?
I really want to try not symptom spot, but yesterday I felt the cramps - which led me to think it was ovulation.

@kates21 how are you feeling? So typical that isn’t it, half of our feelings are in the head I reckon.

I’m a day late, I’ve had a tiny amounts of spotting (maybe once a day) but no period. App said it would arrive yesterday, I feel like AF is coming, got up this morning, nothing. Did a test yesterday - bfn, urgh the wait is killing me!

@TangBloodyFastic how about you? Still being messed around? X

Morning everyone. Still not feeling particularly AFish here - not feeling particularly pregnant either sooooo 🙄 now only 4 days until I find out one way or another.

The only thing I did notice yesterday was a lack of patience with our 8 year old... But that was because he'd already seen Avengers Endgame and told me what happened! 😂

@polejunkie confusion over.. AF turned up late yest along with period pain so onto the next cycle!
Feel your frustration with being late and getting BFN. Is 1day late normal for you? X

@TangBloodyFastic - Sorry to hear that, once it's over it's really not long until you can try again, keep positive!

I don't know anymore, I was regular... But then last month I was 3 days early so my app rejigged all my dates and predicted I'd be due on yesterday (25 day cycle) I would have said a 26 day cycle is more normal for me, so fully expect AF to come today, but that will rejig my dates again and move O day - I have no idea how we'll make a baby at this rate!

@lv1987 - Fingers crossed for you, it could go either way and for @kates21!!

LOL @ the spoiler haha, not unreasonable though

I'm out! AF here, little madam x

Had slightly more cramps and sensitive boobs.
I do feel lien Af is on its way, My mood is up and down x

My boobs feel fine, more full and jiggly than normal though 😂 If I'm due on on Saturday, I will normally know by Thursday whether she's coming on time or not so I'm trying to be patient while actually reading into every non-sympton.

Sorry to hear that you're out @polejunkie x

Not a great day today - I’ve come to terms with the fact me and my partner aren’t working out & im waiting on him finishing work to break the news.

I’ve noticed things that are grating on me & unfortunately I cant continue. We haven’t been together long, and I think it’s all too soon. x

@kates21

Are you ok? Sounds like a very difficult decision, but absolutely the right thing to do if you feel it's all too soon - Sending you hugs, here if you want to chat. How do you think he will take it? x

@polejunkie

He probably isn’t going to take it well. But I can’t help the way Iam... for example, I bought him deodorant, shower gel, tooth paste, toothbrush, 4 months ago - it’s never been touched whilst he’s here, clearly not washing or brushing teeth. We then did the cinema trip, which I paid for (that’s ok) we went for food after he then eats a bacon double cheeseburger, 2 large chips, quarter pounder, drink and McFlurry. He tries to boundary my son, even when I know my son isn’t acting out - then if I mention it to him he gets the hump - but I simply say if I need assistance I’ll ask for it (I’ve been on my own for 3 years with my son). I always go and collect my partner (he doesn’t drive) and I always drop him home. He doesn’t mirror the effort. I’m at a loose end & I feel so awful but I simply can’t continue.

Thank you hun, I really appreciate it. I will be on here the majority of the evening I expect x

Ah, none of that sounds right, you definitely don't want to carry him, that's not your job. You want someone who meets you in the middle, a team mate if you get my meaning. The disciplining of your little boy I completely get - My OH doesn't do it very often (he's been in her life since she was 8 months old) but when he does I don't actually like it , I get all protective, yet half the time I'm having a go because I don't want to be the bad parent and him the fun one all the time lol...

How long have you been together? I understand fully if you are done, but some of the things you have mentioned may be fixable, if you wanted to try and broach them with him? Mate, I'm divorced and I truly believe life is too short to be unhappy, so do what your heart and gut tell you is best for you and your LO x

@polejunkie

I get it I do, but he’s only been about for 8/9months - he told me Friday he wanted to marry me & it’s pushed me back ALOT. I just feel whatever I say it won’t change him.

Problem is it’s already happened & even if it was to change I already know it’s there if that makes sense, which means it will just slip back to how it was anyway. I feel crap for it, because I know he really loves me - but I can’t stay because of hurting him.

You know what you need to do in that case, I hope it goes as well as it can, just pour all your love into your little one, you were on your own before and you'll be able to smash it again - Hoping you find the right partner and future happiness it is best to do this now before the proposal or pregnancy takes over and makes you stay. I'm assuming you don't think you're pregnant this month? x

@polejunkie

Had the conversation, didn’t go well. He broke down which I assumed, but then said he hated me & ive spoke to him like a child... what the hell can I do with that 🤦🏽‍♀️

I will move on and try to be happy, just sometimes this shit happens & as awful as it is, they are lessons!
I don’t think Iam x

@kates21 I hope you feel like a weight has been lifted, it sounds like you have done the right thing x

@polejunkie

100% I just couldn’t carry on, wasn’t fair on either of us. He’s 2 years younger and has really showed his immaturity - he said ‘I let you meet my mum’ & ‘you knew I was down now you’ve done this’.

So my decision for me was the right one.
Thank you, next 😂 x

Morning ladies

That all sounds quite complicated @Kates21, I hope it all works out for you long term. At the end of the day, you know what is best for you and your little one, and if that's not him, then so be it 😘

3 days left for me, feeling good!

Hello. I’m in at a similar point in my cycle- 9/10dpo and AF due Sun/Mon. I’ve caved and tested yday and was a crystal clear BFN. I also tested this morning and think there is the teeniest faintest line- but then I think I could just be going crazy! The bottom one is today’s X

@LV1987

Thank you.
It’s the right decision!

Xx

Kates21 how you feeling today are you okay? Always got to do what’s best for you 💕

Hey @Macaz20

I feel fine, weirdly haha. I do feel a weight has been lifted. I just couldn’t carry on I knew it wouldn’t change, once it bugs me it’ll forever bug me! X

@Kates21 it’s always good when a weight has been lifted girl such a relief eh! Hope he hasn’t given you any grief and he’s calmed down and stuff. X

@rachelrainbow - It's really hard to see on my phone, maybe test again in the morning? It should get darker if it's there, it is early to test (not judging haha, been there myself!)

@Kates21 glad you're feeling positive today x

I'm starting to feel a bit shakey and queasy... This could of course be because it's lunchtime and I need food, but I've almost talked myself into POAS in the morning. Talk me out of it please, as I know it'll be a disaster 😂