~*~*~*~*~*~*~ ............ OR RATHER NOT! ALL TTC ADDICTS WHO NEED A BREAK, STEP THIS WAY! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

[lissie]

been trying for 21 months, had 5 mc's 1 ep so now im taking a break til october. for the sake of my sanity, health and marriage.

anyone care to join me?

i left it 2 cycles and got pg straight away but mc'd v early (about 5w) tbh i dont think i was physically or emotionally ready to get pg again. a laparotomy is major surgery and can take a long time to heal. i wish id waited a few more months. ikwym tho about itching to ttc again, i think we are going to not ttc but not prevent it next month then in oct when we've seen the consultant ttc in earnest again. its been nice to relax a bit (apart from my/the docs hiccup) my af has arrived a week early so im taking that as my body is getting back to normal after my last mc. i think that physically the last one took its toll more than i thought.

my edd for my ep is looming now and id be going into hospital for my cs in about a weeks time so want to get that milestone over with iykwim

My edd for my mmc is Sept 2nd. It was twins, so I can't help thinking they'd be born about now. I think I'll probably be doing the same as you next month and just not avoid ttc. I'll see how I feel at the time though. I think I'm emotionally ready. I find the idea of waiting even worse. At least when you're trying you're doing something positive about the situation. That's how I see it. Although if I got pregnant again I would be terrified.

I've been feeling quite fed up the last couple of days. I'm fed up with hearing people say that I've just been unlucky. I've had two pregnancies. The first was identical twins (don't know the stats, but surely quite uncommon) which resulted in mmc after heartbeats had been seen. The second was ectopic (only affects 1% of pregnancies and I have no risk factors). I'm not usually superstitious, but I feel like I'm destined not to have any dc.

oh sweetheart, i found it easier to think of my ep as something that had to happen to save another babies life. sounds daft but if i hadnt had my ep they would never have discovered that my bladder was in the wrong place and i would have continued to mc indefinately.

you havent just been unlucky, that trivialises what you have been through, you have had to endure tragedy. x

hows everyone doing?

Lissie, is that you? Hey, imagine the delight: Next month I get to put sperm in me again, how exciting! (Hold off on the anticipation: It's not like anything will come of it you know, but at least I get to torment myself for 2 weeks )

thats fab impy (yes, tis me, gone back to my old name)