TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 30 - huddle up and bring on the BFP's

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Welcome to the 🐧 huddle. This is a wonderful supportive group for anyone ttc after the loss of a pregnancy or baby. Together we can get through the ttc crazyness xx baby dust to everyone xx

@Squiff70 oh hun I'm so sorry I know that awful feeling all to well. Look after yourself and I hope you and your partner are able the comfort each other xx

I'm so sorry @Squiff70 it's such a confusing and upsetting thing to happen. It's especially hard after loss to go through it again no matter how early. I know we all have our own individual stories but I remember being so mad the line wasn't darkening. I had lots of unmistakable pregnancy symptoms yet a faint positive test. It didn't seem right. It doesn't matter how common people tell you it is or how often people say not to test before a missed AF, it simply sucks! My thoughts are with you and I hope you're coping as well as you can! Xx

Thank you @Lilimum7 and @Catconfusion. My DP is great but he really doesn't get it - he doesn't get what it's like to see that pink line then have it snatched away. He just says we'll try again next month. He's gone to work and I'm sitting here sobbing like a pathetic loser.

@Squiff70 hun you are not a pathetic loser, your feeling are totally justified. Your completely right about the difference between men and womens feelings regarding loss. Sometimes it's best to let the feelings happen rather than pushing them down as long as it doesn't become too overwhelming. Don't forget we're all here for the same reason so lean on us when you need to xx

Arh im sorry @Squiff70 it's completely understandable. It's so close to your due date as well so must be so hard for you. Guys find it so difficult to understand the emotions involved. All you can do is tell him how you feel. Sometimes I think the only way to be ok is to go through all the feelings that come up. I hope you're ok! Xx

Hi ladies. Sorry went AWOL for a few days, had an insanely busy weekend and then 2 mad days at work. On way now to airport to overnight in hotel as we fly to Italy in the morning and we don't like getting up at 3am to drive to airport.

CD7 here and started this cycles OPKs this morning. Bringing lots with me for our short break. This is now cycle 7 post mc#2 and 10 months since mc#1. So desperately want to be pregnant and have our rainbow.

@Mistymeow great news about the scan results. Phew!!!!!

@Squiff70 sorry you've had that disappointment. It's really horrible isn't it. Sending hugs your way.

@KnitKitty wow that is a line! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! Fx for a sticky healthy bean.

@Raincart congratulations too! Fab news! Hope it's a sticky bean.

Sorry to see some new names here, it's the club noone wants to join but everyone is so supportive.

Thank you for all the congratulations. I have a telephone appointment with my GP tomorrow to get referred to EPU for 6 week scan as requested by RMC.

@Raincart2017 I really hope the lines get darker hun. Fingers crossed!

@Mistymeow What a relief! I am so glad it's a cyst and nothing worse. Well done for being so brave!

@Lilimum7 I was given the progesterone prescription at my last RMC appointment. I got them from the pharmacy to use when I needed them.

@Squiff70 So sorry it doesn't look like good news. My OH is much the same; supportive, but completely clueless. Your feelings are normal and valid; you are certainly not a loser. Hugs xxx

@InDreamland Enjoy your trip!

Thank you all, and thank you @KnitKitty. I'm loving your BFP, congratulations! That's quite a line for 11 DPO! Keep us posted re. your scan etc

@Mistymeow I’m so pleased you’ve had some good news

@Lilimum7 What is the thinking behind grapefruit juice and pineapple?

@Bluebelltulip @myheartisbroke How are you?

@AliceRR screen shot for Dr Google, I spend way too much time with Dr Google

@moonpeace congrats on the BFP! The anxiety is completely understandable and normal in our situation. My advice is to distract the hell out of yourself, and practice some mindfulness or mediation and look up techniques for dealing with panic-attacks, which I think are useful for giving you ways of dealing with a wave of anxiety when it comes over you. For example grounding techniques where you have to use each of your senses as a sort of distraction.
You can ring The Miscarriage Association for advice too, and their website has loads of useful info.
Take each day at a time. Stay strong!

Sorry I've been awol a bit. Anxiety and life have taken over a bit.

@Mistymeow so pleased your appt went ok and it was nothing to worry about must be such a relief.

@Squiff70 how are you doing? I'm hoping that AF stays away and that line gets darker for you. Have to admit although my frer line did progress a bit there wasn't as big a diff on those as there was a standard test.

Omg @KnitKitty that is deffo a line! Keeping everything crossed for you.

@Raincart2017 fingers crossed for your line progression too.

@InDreamland oooh enjoy Italy!

@Lilimum7 hang on in there lovely, you are doing all you can. I completely get the need to know what's going on with your body.

@moonpeace Aw! Congratulations! So pleased for you. As for the anxiety, I've come to the conclusion there's sod all you can do about it so you just have to ride it out. I'm 5+5 by LMP (I think more like 6+3 by ovulation) and my anxiety is through the roof. So far I've convinced myself this one is ectopic, or a blighted ovum or similar, also a couple of days ago decided it was another mmc...but what I've come to realise is that I can do absolutely nothing about what's happening. I can only hope. So everytime I notice a "good" sign (nausea, tiredness, soreboobs, burpyness) I try and mentally store it to balance out the fears. I'm still doing counselling too and have been checking in with my early pregnancy nurse who is great. Hang on in there.

As for me I had some bad news earlier in the week-finally got a copy of my AMH result. Not been able to speak to the consultant about it but it's come back at

Congratulations @moonpeace, no idea how to deal with the anxiety, like Laney79 I've been thinking that things will go wrong even though I have no bad symptoms.

@AliceRR thanks for asking after me, I'm worrying a lot, got sickness too and very bloated, back in maternity stuff already but only had 2.5 months between pregnancy so I guess that's not too surprising. I sent a message to my community midwife yesterday so hopefully she'll give me a ring today. Got my booking in appointment in 2 weeks. How are you doing?

@KnitKitty so happy for you!! Congrats 😁

@Squiff70 I’m really sorry, I know how you’re feeling. I’ve had a couple chemical pregnancies and it’s so hard, when you’re so desperate for that bfp. Stay strong. I hope you’re okay x

I’m around 5 weeks now, did a clearblue digi 5 days ago, it said pregnant 2-3. Did another one yesterday and it said pregnant 3+ so that was nice 😊 made me feel a little bit more hopeful. My scan is in 6 days - sooo scared!!
Getting the hang of injecting my clexane now and taking all my meds, hoping all this will help 😬

Just one question for @Yukka I’m already running out of space to inject on my stomach 🤣 my whole stomach is covered in bruises and I was told to not inject within 5cm of a bruise but I’m pretty small there’s no space left. Do you have any advice as I know you’ve been doing this for a while now? I’m scared to go too high, too low, too far to the side, too close to belly button 🤣 any advice helps haha! Hope you’re well x

It's lovely to see so many bfps on this thread. It gives me hope. I'm sure you are all feeling lots of anxiety and I just wanted to say I'm thinking of you. Good luck and stay strong! Xx

Congratulations on the BFPs!! This is a good month! Thank you everyone for your kind words. My DH is being pessimistic and doesn't want to get our hopes up so I've agreed not to test again until the weekend so we can truly see if we have a sticky bean X I'm acting like it's all good and being very positive so started taking pregnacare max again last night as had some left over from the mc.

I started swimming twice a week a couple of months back and I've found it to relieve stress and anxiety X

Love and hugs to all xx

@squiff70 I’m really sorry to hear that. How are you doing today?
@laney79 I’m really glad you have fallen pregnant, those results would have hit you really hard. I hope it’s not making you feel more stressed out. My friend who is slightly younger than you got similar results and now has a healthy one year old. Glad you are having an early scan. I’m getting my AMH done this week too.
@moonpeace so pleased you got your bfp! When I conceived after a miscarriage I felt the same, extremely anxious. Although mine didn’t work out I do regret getting so anxious, because it made no difference to the outcome and even though the worst happened I’m still here and feeling positive. Take it day by day and try to ignore negative thoughts. You feel worse with the hormones. I really hope it works out!

Thank you everyone. And to top it all off af arrived today after TEN WEEKS! I am doubly relieved.

Lots of love for all the BFPs, keep them coming ladies. No idea how to combat anxiety, but praying for lots of stickies xxx

Hey @Mistymeow I'm so glad your scan had a good result and AF has come. All really good signs your body is healing. I hope you get a positive outcome of your new cycle! Xx

Typed a reply and lost it AGAIN!

@moonpeace It’s completely understandable that you’d worry but think @Laney79 is right in saying there is not much you can do but look after yourself and hope for the best

@Bluebelltulip I can understand you are worried. Chances are highly in favour of everything being fine and not long to go til your booking in appointment. Maybe you’ll feel a bit better after your first scan. I still wear my maternity jeans, 3 months on... they’re so comfy 😬

I’m ok thanks. We got a call from the hospital yesterday offering us an appointment today for post mortem results as they’d had a cancellation. Appointment is at 4pm today and I’m a bit anxious but ok.

@Squiff70 Hope you’re ok

Hope everyone else is going okay.

Oh @AliceRR I can't imagine how difficult the appointment will be, sending you all my love.

I'm 6DPO and realistically the chances are fairly low this cycle as I was away when I think I Ov'd.

I keep playing my past two MCs back and wonder whether I did something wrong, whether we're just unlucky or whether there is something wrong with me - my DS was such an easy conception and early pregnancy I was so naive thinking I could plan when the second one would arrive. Days and dates and milestones pass and I'm just angry that I'm still waiting for this journey to start.

Hi everyone
I haven't posted much on here but feeling really low this week. After mmc (anembryonic) in feb at 8 weeks I got my bfp last week which initially thrilled me. So I'm now around 5+3. However, I thought I had recovered well from the mc but this week all the fear and anxiety has come back to haunt me.
These are my worries -
I took longer to get a positive this time around than I did on my last
I have minimal symptoms - my boobs don't even hurt yet. I had been peeing in the middle of the night but the last two nights I haven't really needed to
My heart rate on Fitbit has suddenly dropped which also happened before mc

I know none of this conclusively means anything at all but I just feel like I'm building up these walls to convince myself I'm not pregnant anymore so it doesn't hurt as much if I lose it. I can't imagine this actually working out. I am picturing another empty sac on my scan.

I've done CBT for my anxiety in the past so will need to revisit some of my strategies and see if they help.

Morning ladies,

I did a pink-dye HPT this morning as AF is due today - BFN, no hint of a second line whatsoever. Even the nausea I had for 6 days has gone.

@hayleyfx Sorry you're had chemicals too - I didn't know they existed until I had one in March and a friend told me what it was. It's so awful when you're desperate for that BFP.

@Raincart2017 Glad you're enjoying your swimming! Our local council closed my two local pools and now I don't live anywhere near one. I'd LOVE to go swimming again - as you say it's good stress relief.

@Mistymeow Ten weeks without AF? How do you feel about it? I guess you're back 'in the game', so to speak!

@AliceRR This is a really big day for you, I just wanted to acknowledge that. It's a chance to ask some of your many questions and hopefully you will get some answers. Please let us know how it went, but only when you feel upto sharing. I'll be thinking of you at 4pm

@Frillyfarmer I understand what you mean. I came off the pill last August and got pregnant two weeks later, in September. I had no sickness, no nothing. It was an easy pregnancy (for twins!) until everything went so horribly wrong. Now I've had two chemicals (March and it looks like this is what's going on now) and starting to wonder if I have something wrong with me. It's a horrible feeling.

Sending all of you hugs xxx