'O' day! Shared sanity for the TWW

[Mseddy]

Today is O day. I'm already dreading the TWW. I'm not sure I can bare two weeks of pretending to myself that it's all going to be wonderful news at the end of it, just to feel crap again. I already know I'm going to symptom spot like mad!!! And I think I could really do with the support this month. So anyone else?!

@BambiOnIce Oooh you’re a star! That is interesting, it’ll only encourage me though I’m determined I’m not going to test again until 14DPO, I can’t stand seeing all the BFNs. I might even put the expensive tests into DH’s custody to prevent me from weeing on them! Not the ICs though, I’m not ready to give up my ICs!

There has been a new exciting development this morning! I felt a little bit sick on the way to work, which never ever happens. I thought for a horrible minute that I might actually be sick, luckily I wasn’t, but and this is major TMI alert, I did that thing where you do a tiny bit of disgusting acidy sick in your mouth . So sorry! That really is grim. It could well have been the ill advised blueberry muffin that I had for breakfast, or maybe it was because I was reading on the bus. However, I always read on the bus and I’m always fine! I’m off now until after Christmas (well timed new job!), so I won’t be able to put it to the test any closer to AF due date. I’m trying, and failing, not to read too much into it!

@LylaBee implantation?!

Ooh @FucksBizz that sounds promising. I really hope it's your month!

Re implantation I think it would be too late for that? But I'm not sure. The cramps have totally stopped now though and there's no more blood so who knows. 

@LylaBee thank you lovely! I hope it’s yours too I think you can implant any where between 6-12 DPO, with 9 being the most common. You’re not out yet! I’d take that as a good sign personally, I’ve been on the look out for bleeding but I’ve had absolutely nothing, but I didn’t with my first either.

My boobs feel maybe a bit less sore today though, but I’m still obsessed with all things salty, but then again that’s not unusual! Who knows?! I won’t test now until 14DPO because I don’t want to put myself through it.

I hate the disappointment of a BFN too @FucksBizz 😔 AF turning up is disappointing within itself, but I find it less upsetting than a BFN. The only time I hit the IC FRER's is when AF is close and I want to know if I can enjoy lovely cocktails or not! 🍸 That's my conundrum for this Thursday 🙄 Posh Christmas do (which I'm super excited about 🤩) with the full drinks package of prosecco on arrival, half a bottle of wine with the meal and a wee dram afterwards... I'll be 11dpo. I've not got many/any symptoms, so not much hope for this cycle but what if I polish that lot off and get a BFP next week?! 😱 No idea why cycle 50 would give me my first BFP, but sods law and all that 😕 Think if I do an IC FRER at 11dpo I'm just as likely to get a false BFN because it's still not reliable- urgh!! But I don't want to not drink either because my distinct lack of BFP's thus far tells me it'll probably be a BFN this time too!! 😫

... I don't think I realised how much this "what to do??" scenario was winding me up- apologies for the rant! 😬

Oooh I love a Christmas do! I personally would test before I went, and if it was negative I would drink. I know the advice is to live as if you’re already pregnant, but it’s bloody impossible, and it’s Christmas. You go and have a lovely time, and you’re not to feel guilty if you do get a BFP afterwards, because I said so

P.S I take it all back about the boobs. I’ve had my bra off about an hour and they’re back to killing me 😳

Thanks @FucksBizz 💖 I think that's a good plan to be going with; if it's a BFN, then eat, drink and be merry it is! 🍾🥂

It's funny how aching boobs can be such a welcome thing, isn't it?! Long may it continue! 😄

Wee dram? @BambiOnIce80 are you Scottish too? Haha. I've got a wedding next week so I'm also hoping I'll know by then either way.

I've had very light brown spotting since the pink earlier, I'm really trying not to get my hopes up that it's implantation bleeding. I've never had a period start like this though.

That does sound a lot like implantation bleeding @LylaBee, so fingers-crossed that's exactly what it is 🤞🏻 When is AF due for you?

I'm not Scottish, but Scotland is my home 🏡 Absolutely love it here 😊

10DPO now and I know I said I wouldn’t test again but I couldn’t resist! Another bloody BFN I can’t see anything and neither can DH. I think if I was pregnant the line would there by now.

Hey everyone, I've been a little absent but caught up now. There's a whole load of symptoms!! I'm feeling positive that at least one of us should get a BFP from this month! I'm trying not to symptom spot, by it I can't help it! I have a rational non pregnancy related reason for every symptom but still can't help think it's related. I had one random one off bout of diarrhoea (TMI I know) on 7dpo which I've heard people mention on other threads and turned out to be implantation related, but I'd also had a curry the day before! So I know rationally which is more likely!! I've got a stinking cold, which I know is more than just a pregnancy symptom now my DH is getting it too, but the irrational part of me says it's significant! I'm starting to get pre AF Moody though! She's due on sunday/Monday so we will see!!! I've already caved with an IC and it was obviously a BFN! I just can't help but pee on them!!!

That's me out, AF arrived with full force this morning  which means this was a much shorter cycle than last month. Oh well I just can't wait till it's over now and I can start trying again.

Good luck everyone who's still in! 

Dammit! Sorry to hear that @LylaBee 💐 I hope you enjoy the wedding next week to the full 🍾🥂

You really are a POAS addict @FucksBizz! Here's your stats for tests at 10dpo:

www.countdowntopregnancy.com/pregnancy-test/dpo-chart.php?dpo=10

You're certainly not out yet 😉

You sound a lot like me @Mseddy- I want to be optimistic, but I can always find a perfectly good reason for all my symptoms that are nothing to do with a possible pregnancy! Other than the slightly more tender boobs, I've got nada today on 10dpo 😏 Been to the dentist today and had an x-ray and it was only afterwards as I was leaving that I though "💩, that's probably not so good if I have fallen pregnant 😕". No point worrying about it now, I guess. I'll POAS tomorrow morning (pre Christmas shin dig) and I'll probably see a BFN, making the X-ray a moot point 👍

Sorry to hear that @LylaBee that’s a nice short cycle though. Mine are so long they feel interminable at times! It’s no consolation but make sure you enjoy all the things you wouldn’t have been able to do if AF hadn’t showed up.

I know! @BambiOnIce I’m dreadful. I really am not going to test again until 14DPO and this time I mean it! 66% of pregnant women get a positive on 10DPO, so I think it’s unlikely that I’m pregnant. Of course I still hope I am, but I was eyeing up the Sloe gin earlier and thinking about all the lovely things I’ll eat and drink at Christmas! My discharge has gone craaaaazy so I think AF might be on her merry way.

@Mseddy I do that too! I’m feeling sooo many symptoms I’ve just decided that I’ve talked myself into them and there’s no way I can be pregnant. I swing from being convinced that I am pregnant, to crying to DH that we’ll never have a successful pregnancy. The way I’m currently looking at is surely if I’m pregnant enough to feel symptons then I’m pregnant enough to see a line?!

Sorry to hear that @lylabee :( I tested twice today. No idea why!! 9dpo with an IC clearly wasn't going to show anything! I think I was clutching at straws for some good news because I'd just been given some awful news about my Dad. Really not going to cope with AF's arrival this month :(

So sorry to hear about your dad @Mseddy

Okey-dokey @FucksBizz... I look forward to seeing your FRER tomorrow! 😜

So sorry to hear you've had some bad news @Mseddy 😔 Sending remote hugs.x

Hi everyone! How are you all doing? I hope you had fun last night @BambiOnIce
I’m 12DPO now and haven’t tested again, but I’ve suddenly lost all my AF/Preg symptoms. My boobs ALWAYS hurt more and more in the lead up to AF and then stop 1 day into it, this has been the same for over 10 years and it hasn’t ever changed until now, when I woke up this morning the pain had just gone! I’m so confused. Is there such a thing as failed implantation? Maybe that’s what happened? But if it had, AF would be on her way and my boobs would still hurt either way. I’m still having ludicrous amounts of creamy discharge, but the way all my other symptoms have just suddenly stopped reminds me so much of when I miscarried before.

I did indeed, thanks @FucksBizz 💖 Amazingly no hangover this morning either, so I'm winning at life right now! 😁 I tested yesterday and was obvs a BFN. Just vaguely starting to feel the little niggly AF symptoms, so think she might arrive on time this Sunday (maybe not an annovulatory cycle after all). Also heard from the ACU this morning that we should get our first appointment at the end of January/middle of February, so finding a bit of comfort in knowing the system is starting to kick in 😊

Well done you for hanging off testing again! It's crazy how our bodies can buck the trends of what we've come to expect and it mean nothing... or everything!! Such a head 🤬!

Hi everyone,

My O day was 4/5 (well Flo said 4th but my body told me 5th) I've had very sore boobs for a few days and this happens usually a week or so before the arrival of AF, however today (9 or 10 dpi) I've had a real heightened sense of smell, in fact I've not been able to stand near other people because the smell of them has made me feel sick 🤢

This is a symptom I've had during all of my pregnancies along with severe morning sickness!

I was convinced af was on her way so now I'm really 🤷‍♀️

What symptoms is everyone else dealing with at the moment?

Rant alert. I tested this afternoon, BFN
I’m so so so fed up. I don’t think this will ever work. I haven’t had recurrent miscarriage, I have just had the one in October this year, but due to family history and a single positive APS test last year, I am under consultant care and being treated as if I have had recurrent loss. My husband and I have been trying since July, and in that time I have only ovulated 3 times, one of which produced my miscarriage. I have very irregular periods and I suspect PCOS. We have an appointment with the consultant on the 27th of December to discuss the results of my recurrent miscarriage tests. I’m 22 and have no children, and doubt I ever will. I feel incredibly pessimistic and sad, and I just don’t think it’s going to be possible for us. I know I haven’t been trying all that long, and many of you have it worse, so I hope this isn’t insensitive, but it is so all consuming and awful, I honestly don’t know how people cope long term. Both of my parents are ill, my mum has breast cancer, my dad has unexplained recurrent blood clots, my sister is due to give birth two weeks before I would have been and is being quite insensitive about it. I know that many of you are in worst positions, so I don’t know what I’m trying to get out of this post really, but I’m so bloody miserable.

@fucksbizz don't apologise for your feelings. We are all entitled to feel the way we feel. I can relate to you because we have only been trying 7 months but it's really starting to mess with Me! I'm struggling to cope because I know we likely have male infertility due to chemo but are trying normally for now as my BMI sets me out of the range for NHS ivf. We all have our battles, don't apologise for yours. It's easier said than done, and I'm probably only being positive right now because I'm still a day or 2 away from AF, but you won't feel this bad tomorrow or the day after, you'll start to feel better. One thing I've learned the past few months is that TTC is like a wave of emotions, some days I'm totally fine normal me, others I'm actually depressed. Feel free to rant away as much as you need

Well, AF got me ladies 🙄 I'm surprisingly OK with it though this time. We've got loads of (boozie!🍸) things planned for the next few months, so not being preggers is alright at the moment.

Keeping everything crossed for those of you who are still in 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

Sorry bambi, here's to next month 

I had a really weird 2 and a half day period, starting to get a bit worried now. Although it's probably just stress and overthinking.

Fx for everyone else.