Sooo broody and feeling like it's never going to happen ☹

[Merrz]

Not very sure what I'm looking for here. Feeling very down. Been off contraception 14 months, cycle 10 of actively trying (opks/charting etc) Visited my friends new baby this morning, I was nervous about seeing her because I have been feeling very jealous and resentful (she was one of those we didn't expect it to happen so quickly) but as soon as i held her gorgeous little boy i felt an overwhelming pang of wanting a baby, obviously i wanted a baby before or we wouldn't of been trying but the feeling is stronger than ever now and I feel like it's never going to happen.

@Merrz so sorry to see this post, I couldn't leave it unanswered! Here for a bit of support, and I understand this totally as my friends are expecting a baby, due in 3 weeks time. I can't help but have those pangs of wanting my own!

Feeling your pain @Merrz and hope it happens for you soon! TTC is the most mentally challenging experience ever. X

I feel your pain, we have been trying for 11 months with no success. Every time I see announcements on Facebook whilsaet of me is happy there's another part that just wants to cry. I think these feelings are natural. I hope you will have your own bundle of joy soon.

Oh merrz I remember you from other threads. It's so easy to slip into the negative thinking (definitely how I feel myself...) that it'll never happen but it can take a healthy couple at least 12 cycles.

I totally get you. These journeys can be long and rough but try to keep the hope

I feel like this all the time. My fertility consultant said that 85% of healthy couples will conceive within a year and 95% within 2 years. I’ve been ttc for 19 months now and I’m starting to give up hope but I try and remember what that whenever I’m feeling a bit down

*dont know how that ‘what’ got in there lol

Thanks for your comments. Ttc is a lonely place and it is a comfort to know other people are in the same boat, although I wish you guys weren't going through this either. In my brain I know we haven't been ttc as long as a lot of people but I still can't help feeling down about it. In the beginning I naively, in my head, planned a March/April 2018 baby (what a fucking idiot) and i'm struggling with that time being almost past and I'm not even pregnant yet and seeing my friend with her baby yesterday felt a bit like she stole my dream. I know that's so stupid

It’s not stupid, it’s 100% natural. I haven’t been ttc as long as some, but when I stopped the pill I thought I would be pregnant almost straight away, and if I had have known what I know now I would have stopped it a lot sooner. It is soo hard seeing soo many pregnant people and new born babies! But one day very soon that will be you!

I'm the same time line as you, came off the pill about 14/15 months ago, been TTCing a year. It's really crappy. I kept approaching dates or events where I thought I would have been pregnant. My close friend is pregnant and it's only going to get harder the closer she gets to giving birth and I'm still not pregnant. It's like you can't get away from TTCing, pregnant women or newborns. A few women at work have recently had babies, I was so happy when they went on mat leave so I didn't have to listen to all the baby chat (I know I'm horrible), but now another one is pregnant! And rant over. Need to focus on positivity.

LillyLeaf it's constantly in your head isn't it. Same here, when we 1st started trying i made heaps of excuses not to go on nights out because i was sure i'd be pregnant. My sil is due a baby soon, 1st grandchild etc so my mum and everyone is unbelievably excited, I find myself staying out the way because i can't face hearing them talk about the baby constantly, I don't know how I'll cope when baby arrives.

I wish you all the best in your TTC journey, and it will be your day soon!
Try not to stress over or think about it too much, I know it's easier said than done!

sending hugs! totally understand your frustration

@Merrz i think ive seen u before on a couple of conception threads hi again lol i know exactly how u feel its totally shit isnt it? Has the doc ran tests to c if ur ovulating OH sperm etc x❤

Hey,
In the same boat here, TTC for 10 months now and nothing. As much as I know it can take time and I try not to stress out you just can't help feeling like its your fault and your broken. So many times this week I have cried my eyes out because I feel so empty.
Hugs to all of you xxx

@Merrz I'm in the exact situation you are in right now. BIL's partner. First grandchild etc. Broke my heart, hubby and I almost just married a year and had all the pressure on about the first grandchild and then out of nowhere they were pregnant. All I seem to get out of my MIL is scan pics and constant baby talk. Sad thing is I try and tell her that we are trying etc and how it's all going but she genuinely doesn't even listen and changes the subject and ends up talking about the baby. I want to be so happy about it but I just end up crying and having horrible almost anxiety-like attacks. Nobody except my DH knows how I feel and it's almost like I feel I've ruined his experience of his first niece/nephew. Made it worse that I was handed a babygrow with my surname on it at I time that I was so convinced I was pregnant the day before I tested 🙈😖. Feeling envious makes me feel so bad, it's more like just feeling really sad. It's a horrible feeling. Hoping for BFP's for us all

Sorry yous are all feeling like this ladies but it does go to show we re not alone. No matter what anyone says we re allowed to feel like this it isnt fair when u go about it the right way waiting until your with a loving partner, financially and emotionally stable. But all i seem to hear about is idiots who dont have their lives together or ppl who didnt even try getting pregnant at the drop of a hat. Im happy for family members when they get pregnant honestly the ones that seem like theyd b great parents but i am still jealous of them, im just trying to look at the positives seeing them growing up and babysitting them will b fun and if i do get pregnant theyl have cousins same age group..

I know the feeling. My best friend is 35 weeks with her first, meanwhile I’m waiting for my follow up appointment with my gynaecologist after having a hysteroscopy D&C for endometrial hyperplasia.

I can totally relate to how you’re feeling. I came off the pill in October and we started ttc in February. Unfortunately we’ve not managed to get pregnant yet, I’m aware it’s still super early days! Still it isn’t easy to accept you’re not pregnant when it’s all you want :( I actually thought we’d done it this month as my period was 4 days late but af turned up today with vengeance lol. Keep focusing on the next cycle and remember you’re not alone, there’s lots of us feeling all the emotions you are :)

@StyleOfTheTimes sorry af turned up god its soo depressing

Thanks 😞 I feel really silly getting so upset about it as well. Trying to focus on my next cycle and not beating myself up to much. So nice being able to talk (and rant 😅) with like minded, supportive, ladies!

@StyleOfTheTimes dnt feel silly we re allowed to feel pissed off, day af arrives is always the worst!

Definitely feel your pain. Ttc for 18 months. Not ovulating. No PCOS. No hope at present. On more than one occasion I've been tempted just to slit my wrists. Doesn't help that dh are I aren't getting on that well at the moment. I think it's the realising that I am officially barren.

@Hopingnwishing please dont ever do anything like that i know u feel completely helpless and lost ive been ttc for over 2yrs. But please think of ur family and OH they would be devastated! If u ever want to talk i ll listen x

I feel like crying every single day. Sister is expecting number 2. Family wedding in July and I know everyone will be looking ast my sister and then at me and talking. Dh said he can't stand the sight of me this evening so I really don't think he'd care