Oh Sophie, totally get this. We are ruling nothing out until Thursday morning though! It is very likely this will all take shape properly in the coming days. Let's wait and see. Easier said than done though!
I definitely think there's a line in your latest photo, and the intensity of the line doesn't matter, as you say, according to all the online commentary anyway, though anecdotally people seem to get darker lines weeks on from where we are at the moment.
I've not been able to get hold of more FRERs since my Friday one but have, like a complete idiot, now done 3 Clear Blues, all negative. I know it's too early to test at what is 12 DPO max, and the Clear Blues aren't 'early' ones, but it's one of those things where you just can't help yourself! I used to read these threads before and quietly wonder why people couldn't just wait a week, do something else for a bit, and now I know. It's completely irrational and all-consuming.
Symptom-wise, which is all I have to go on today, things are still there on and off. The brown spotting I had in the last couple of days (which freaked me out in itself because of the MC) has now stopped. Chest stopped being sensitive yesterday evening but this is now slightly, maybe, coming back. I've convinced myself my nipples look a darker. Is that the sound of a barrel being scraped? Probably. 😂
I too spent my time in the (lukewarm) bath last night thinking about a January due date, when I'd go on mat leave and whether this might be a boy or girl, and at the same time whether I'm somehow predisposed to more MC and googling % risks. It's kind of humbling, because it's completely out of our hands.
Can't wait for Wednesday! Keep your chin up.