TTC after pregnancy loss Thread 19- More cake for more babies

[Boboelephant]

I figured it out!

Sorry @strawberrye for BFN. Hopefully just too early and AF stays away!
@boboelephant you’re maybe just feeling under the weather. You still have a good few days to go yet 🤞
I can relate to all these posts this morning. I am having the longest ovulation period of my life this month!!! My temps have been higher these past 2 days but yesterday and today I have had positive opks. I am so confused!! I have had really strong ovulation pains for the last few days as well. I actually don’t care if I’m pregnant or not anymore I just want this cycle to be over so I can start fresh next month. I feel so messed up! Can you still have have a high LH even after a temp rise??

Oh just seen your post @passtheaftereights sorry for BFN. I have no idea what gp would do but I also think no harm in trying. It really is hard and frustrating this process!

Thanks @claire138 you're right, not sure what I expect them to do. They won't kick off any investigations & doubt they'll be able to shed any more light on the early lines than MN can. Will feel more positive the other side of AF!

The weird thing is, last two months I've had dispersed cramps and raging sore boobs from CD21, having never had strong or prolonged symptoms before AF pre-mc. This month v little action in the boobies and very specific twinges in uterus, vivid dreams, aversion to raw meat, clumsy and emotional; akin to symptoms when was upduffed in Jan wails what does it all meeeeeean, reaches for

Sorry for alll the BFN but you're not out till AF arrived!

So i checked my amazon account and my frers will arrived by 8pm tonight!!
Fingers crossed my line is darker or even still there at all!

Ah! I wrote a really long post and just lost it all!
Congratulations to all the new bfps! It's wonderful seeing this all play out! (Especially as these early moments are usually hidden and shrouded in secrecy!) so its a privilege to be on this journey with you ladies and sending you lots of sticky healthy and perfevt pregnancies!

@Lovemysparkle loved your positive message! Really nice to see ! It's obvious you're completely loved up and spreading the joy! Yay! Good luck with wedding preparations! It's going to be a fabulous day! I am so not a traditional girl but honestly all those cheeses romcoms are true!!! It will be the best day!!!
Sorry not kept up with all the posts but have you tested yet?! Or are you one of those wait and see people? (Like me?!)

@Boboelephant they all sound like pregnancy symptoms to me! Especially the gas!!! (That's my telltale sign- so sexy I know!) have you tested?!
Also! You're a machine 30000 steps and Zumba!!! Wow! I really need to get back into my fitness..(I say this while eating a huge piece of cake 🙄)

@PassTheAfterEights that is really weird. I would definitely go see my GP and tell them what's going on and insist on hormone testing and to check your uterus- I mean getting faint lines at dpo 11 and then nothing later on must be very frustrating and confusing! So I would def go get my hormones checked out! I have found if you're over 35 and insist they will do that for you. Do you have any kids already? Anyway sorry you're going through this- but that's what I would do...just check yourself out. I would feel better in myself in your position x

Thanks @zarala you've inspired me and I'll go - it can't hurt. It is confusing, wondered whether I just have elevated base HCG levels and it's reading that but the lines disappear nearer AF - that's why I'm sure I'm out even before it's arrived. I'm 33, no kids, married in Oct and wish we'd started TTC sooner. Was delighted with BFP in Jan but wasn't to be and neither has the post-mc fertility surge been. Will man up and go see if they'll investigate anything at this point. How are you today - did you get anywhere with EPU? x

@Claire138 I know!! Haha that’s never happened before 🤣
Thank you everyone! I haven’t tested today as I realised at 6am this morning as I was rushing to get ready for work that I have no more pregnancy tests left 🤦‍♀️😂 not even a cheapie! So I just did a quick OPK and tried not to think about testing too much haha! Hopefully my FRERs come today. OPK is still positive so hopefully a good sign? Fingers crossed 🤞
So sorry to everyone with bfn’s 😔 hopefully it’s just too early for all of you and if not then fingers crossed for next month!! So hope to see some more BFP’s this month. Keeping everything crossed for you all 🤞🤞
@Boboelephant @zarala haha I also read this while eating a cake... at 10:30am 😂 and still plenty time left to get a BFP bobo!!
@strawberrye so sorry for the bfn, it’s always rubbish getting one but you’re not out til af arrives, I know it’s hard to stay positive but you’re still in with a chance! Fingers crossed!

@passtheaftereights let us know how you get on. How many times has this happened to you? Because technically if you miscarried in jan and potentially have had a couple of chemical pregnancies then you are technically eligible for further investigations as that would be 3 miscarriages? That’s my train of thought anyway. Hope you get an understanding doctor that will look into it for you.

@zarala I am due af tomorrow/Wednesday (I got af cd24 last cycle) so I’m either cd 26 or cd27, my last af sorry tmi came after me & dp done the deed🙈 & that was a Tuesday night, I don’t really spot my flow just comes quite heavy & then gets heavier within a couple of hours so not sure whether to count Tuesday when af came as cd1 or the Wednesday morning as cd 1🙈🙈🙈 anyway I haven’t tested yet just trying my absolute hardest to get off of the ttc/bfn/ emotional meltdown rollercoaster 🎢!! Myself personally have had sooooo many ups & downs since my 3 mc’s & I think it doesn’t me to emotionally go through this every af as I mentioned in earlier post it’s absolutely devastating & draining & I defo think this has contributed to us not getting preggo!! I have to concentrate on the here & now & that reality is my nearly 14 yr old ds who is growing into a lovely young man & my nearly hubby to be❤️ Your so right @ zarala I am soooooo in love & all I want is to marry him!! My ds absolutely loves him to bits, you would never realise that dp is not biological dad!! I can’t wait for our big day & ds is wearing the same as dp & holding the rings!!!

@Lovemysparkle I totally get you with the rollercoaster- I am same as you- I always wait until I'm at least 2-3 days late with AF. It's a really difficult ride- I'm sorry you've had 3 MCs (me too) it's awful. Have you had any tests done? I am going next month- just waiting for my periods to regulate after my last MC last month...but yay for being loved up! Nothing beats that! You have the right attitude! Enjoy what you have and keep positive! It will happen! And your wedding day sounds like it will be so special- lovely to hear your DS and DP have such a wonderful relationship! 😍

@PassTheAfterEights
I think @Claire138 is right! If it's happened more than twice then you definitely can get referred to the RMC clinic. So I would do that!
I haven't rang my EPU yet, but I will now. I had to bring my father to the hospital for some tests so I've not had a moment yet.

@hayleyfx ahhh! We need to know! Please keep us posted! So exciting

@PassTheAfterEights so sorry for the bfn. You're not out until the witch shows though!! I was also going to say what @Claire said. If this has happened 3 times you can say you've had 3 cp's and they should start investigations straight away. Can't hurt!
@Claire138 thanks. I really hope you're right!!! So sorry yours is dragging too. Maybe you should do a test- you could be preggers like @hayleyfx! Hope your test tomorrow is good Hayley!
@zarala ahh fingers crossed!!! The gas is out of control. I'm surprised I haven't knocked myself out! 😫
Haha @zarala and @hayleyfx. I am actually the unfittest person and have gone from 0 to 100 like a crazy person. The walk was lovely because we actually just left the house at 8:30am and didn't get home til 5:30pm and just walked all day....although there was lots of cider and food stops! So maybe not too healthy. The gym stuff is me trying desperately to get fit and lose weight - and I did have a cheese board for lunch after Zumba! 🤣 And can hardly walk today....
@zarala I hope your dad is ok.
@Lovemysparkle so nice to read your loved up posts. Hope your wedding day is magical. I love weddings- wish I could do it again!! (With the same man!!)

@zarala I’ve had all the tests done under a professor in rmc, I haven’t had ovulation bloods done as they are very sure I am ovulating (3 spontaneous pg’s in 7 ish months) also my periods are very regular & I always go back into cycle very quickly! I had all bloods done when I was between day 2-5 of af, scans & a hystoroscopy when I had bloods done it was about 15 tube fulls!!! Saw professor in October & all of my tests 100% perfect & I saw another professor for my hystoroscopy ( for nearly a year I was told I have a polyp in my uterus) to be told I have no polyp, my endometrium lining is lush & healthy & my cervix is smooth & wonderful ( I was under colposcopy for 8 years had cancerous cells removed) my hystoroscopy proff told me she was expecting my cervix to be scarred & damaged but no it’s beautiful apparently!!! I haven’t shared this yet but I also had severe problems when I delivered my dp so I have always worried about my uterus/womb but I am assured all is stunning & in fabulous condition for a gal my age (39😩) I just can’t deal with a 💔 broken heart every month anymore & I don’t know how or why but I feel I’m not in heartbreak limbo anymore, does that make sense???

@Boboelephant really not out until AF!
Im really trying not to pay such close attention to possible symptoms! Iv had a few cramps though and i almost thought oh no not an early AF!

@Lovemysparkle
Wow! Well as frustrating as it is- That's truly wonderful that everything came back so positive and healthy!
And it's good you're out of the limbo- I think al the happiness surrounding your wedding is working!
Let's see how the next few months go for you! Maybe all the love and happiness will result in a little bundle of joy for you! Fingers crossed!

I feel like we're very similar- also had 3 spontaneous pregnancies in 7 months! So despite the devastating losses I am grateful for that!
I am going to see Dr Shehata next month to check for NK cells as the nhs don't believe in it- as I really can't fathom any other reason for my continued losses. I'll let you know how it goes- in case you're interested in doing more tests? Which RMC did you go to? I've been referred to St Mary's but not until June and then it's a 10 week wait for results and I don't really want to wait that long- so going to bite bullet and go private...

@Boboelephant Hmmm when did this sudden spurt of exercise energy start? When I was pregnant with my little one (before I found out) I suddenly became a crazy yoga and gym bunny! And was doing crazy work outs! And then AF was late so decided to take a test and boom! BFP! - just saying,,,,🤞🏽🤞🏽🤞🏽
(I also went through a crazy house clean phase and decided to take every pillow and duvet to the laundromat- lugging then in suitcases up and down the highstreet like a crazy woman)- had no idea I was knocked up- the nesting instinct is strong!)
And thank you- I hope he's ok too. They found some lumps on his prostate so biopsy today- just to add another layer of stress to life! He's in good spirits tho so trying to say positive!
And yes haha*@Lovemysparkle and @Boboelephant* I would love to get married again (to DH)! Was so much fun! We've decided to throw a 5year anniversary party with all our friends because we want to relive it again!

@boboelephant not long till Thursday. Hang in there! Also, FF is a really great app but I wouldn’t trust it as cake said. It’s saying I’m 7dpo which defo isn’t true.
Haha as much as I wish I’m doing a @hayleyfx I’m pretty sure it’s just a messed up ovulation. I have really strong ovulation pains so pretty confident it’s not preggers 😩 I got what I thought was a positive on sat, then Sunday was darker and then today the test line was clearly darker than the control line so hopefully it’s coming to it’s peak and then will turn negative soon. Going to acupuncture tomorrow so hopefully she will sort me out 🤞
@lovemysparkles love the lovingness! Hope you have an amazing day! Going to get us all emosh about our DP’s now ❤️
@yellowdaffodils86 good luck 🤞

@zarala I’ll keep you all updated!
@Boboelephant thank you!! My FRERs came in the mail today so now I’m absolutely bricking it for tomorrow haha! Can’t believe how nervous I am to test. Fingers crossed 🤞
@Claire138 haha you never know! I hope you figure out what’s going on soon, keeping my FX for more BFP’s this month 🤞

@Lovemysparkle I imagine that's a relief and incredibly frustrating at the same time! I really hope your rough patch is over soon and you get your rainbow. I also hope maybe you get a little wedding baby!!
@YellowDaffodils86 I know, thankyou. So hard to analyse every little thing. Just don't know how much longer I can handle the disappointment. Fingers crossed we're both lucky this month!
@zarala haha I actually joined the gym 4 weeks ago on the day af made her unwelcome appearance! It's just taken this long to start going! But hopefully as I'm now commited to going, there'll be a reason I can't do the intense workouts! Glad you got your appt, I think it'll be good to put yiur mind at rest. The waiting is rubbish. Fingers crossed for your dad x
@Claire138 thankyou. Must work on my patience!! Hope you get some answers soon too. What a frustrating cycle!!
@hayleyfx hoping to see a dark line tomorrow!!!

Exciting news @hayleyfx! FX for the test tomorrow!
Looking forward to joining you all in back in ttc land. I'm currently waiting for the end of the mc bleed. It has gone really light now and I've been feeling good... until I made the mistake of doing a test yesterday (it is too early for a negative, I know, but I'm impatient) and weirded myself out with the positive test. Funny how even when you know exactly why it is positive it is so upsetting to get one at this stage of things. I'm going to not do another one for a week.
@laney79 any progress for you? When are you back at the EPAU?

Conversation with DH after me grilling him about if I complain about cramps every month and have conveniently forgotten.
Me: so I think af is due Sat
DH: When can you early test?
Me: well im aiming for Thursday. Remember when i got that positive last time that was so light you didn't believe it?
DH: yeah kinda
Me: so that would be the same timewise for Thursday. And apparently 85% of people get positives at 12dpo.
DH: oh great, so test Thursday.
Me: or 79% on Wednesday.
Again me: or 66% tomorrow
DH: Thursday!

Boo!!! 🤣🤣

@ek78 hopefully it's all over soon.

@Boboelephant haha what a party pooper! I test on 8dpo I think, but I am a poas addict!

Haha @DaisyMay25 definite POAS party pooper!! I'm so tempted to test earlier but I also know that it will be a bfn and that'll upset me more! Last time at 12/13dpo it was such a squinter!

So i peed on my frer and it's not great plus I have brown when wiping (sorry for the tmi)
Don't know what to think???
I think it's slightly darker but I mean slightly!!

@boboelephant thank you😘 I really feel that I have turned a corner after a long, long straight road (don’t get me wrong I still have my crap days) it’s weird I have been turning my negatives into positives!! For example my af arrived cd24 last month now if I would have gone to cd26 or cd28 & had af on cd26/28 for May & June it would have worked out I would have been on for my wedding day😩😩 but I got af cd24 & low & behold I got af after lunch today so that’s cd26ish so basically it works out that af for May/June will be the week before I get married so no af on wedding day😁😁 & 6 days after the wedding we go on our minimoon to palma nova Majorca which will be bang smack at the beginning of fertile/ovulation week👍🏼👍🏼 Nothing like newly wed dtd🙈🙈 so that’s the sort of thing I’m trying to do get a positive from a crappy negative!! Also me & dp will be near magaluf so we’re gonna proper have a huge night out with cocktails,clubs the lot haven’t done that in soooooo long!!

@ek78 glad to hear you are getting there-pain about the test but from what I've read it takes 3 weeks? Not sure if that's from passing the sac or from the end of bleeding. But sounds like your heading the right way.

Sadly nothing happening at all for me. The torture is ongoing. I've had nothing really since my last scan which is almost two weeks ago. After nhs scan number one (a month ago now) I had brown stuff for a week then very light red blood on and off, passed a v small clot the morning of the second scan, and scan after showed bean and sac still in tact...but since then only thing I've had was a couple of drops of blood on Friday. That's it.

I've tried all sorts-reiki, reflexology, raspberry leaf tea, hot baths, clary sage...nothing is helping.

I truly despise this useless Carcas of a body right now-can't even look at myself in the mirror. Just feel useless.

I have to go for medical management on weds lunchtime-but ive requested to self administer and warned them I want to leave straight away (they wanted to get a nurse to do pessary and then make me stay min 3 hours). Just can't handle any more with my phobia. The blood test alone will push my anxiety and stress levels through the roof.

My Tum hasn't felt right today-not cramping just...off, heavy. But I've had my hopes up so many times that Mother Nature was going to give me a break I can't believe it's anything other than stress.

I just want to be me again. I just need this to be over. I have all my opks and a bbt thermometer ready so I'm ready to join in ttc...but it feels like I'm never going to get there.

I miss my little bean. Life truly is a b**ch.