Oh tax girl, I completely feel for you. Do you do any counselling/ relaxation? I saw an acupuncturist regularly who specialises in fertility and I always found the sessions a bit like a counselling session. They often have me a chance to take a step back. It’s down to her really that I considered donor eggs. One session she said-‘ really it comes down to whether you would like another child or not. If you look forward, can you see yourself being happy if you haven’t tried everything?’ Perhaps a bit of time out to reflect on things and work out want you both really want/ are prepared to try- without the pressure of - would be a good idea. I guess if You did donor, age isn’t a problem so you haven’t got that ticking clock.
I thought about this for donor eggs for a long time whilst doing the super ovulation. My DH is quite laid back and wanted another child but for him he was also happy with just the one. Of course I am too, but I’d never seen us with just one and my DS has always talked of having a sibling- I felt like a complete failure as I couldn’t do this.
When I first thought of donor eggs I didn’t think I could do it, but then I thought that we were thinking of adopting. I work once a week in an antenatal clinic and sometimes see mum’s having children who are drinking/taking drugs still and I kept thinking it’s so unfair that I would do everything to be healthy and yet couldn’t have another child.
So then I looked into donor more. If you look into epigenetics, 40% genes are supposed to come from egg and sperm and the remainder 20 % from the environment the egg is in (me 🙂).The clinic we used in Greece tries to match donors as closely as they can and are really so supportive. My DS is 5 and he knows that mummies eggs are broken and that a very kind lady gave me some of her eggs so that we could be lucky enough to have another child. We are going to be very open from the start and have no idea how the child will feel when he is older, but hopefully knowing he is completely loved and was so very much wanted and tried for will all help.
Also I often think lots of children look nothing like siblings/parents even when fully related.
You can have an initial appointment through Skype, completely free of charge or fly out. We did fly out and had a mini break in Athens. My DH has to go once more as he went on a sperm improvement protocol. Then I went twice more, once for a fresh transfer and once for a frozen transfer.
We used serum in Greece, but there are lots of good clinics, new life has a good reputation as well.
Sorry for the essay and I really don’t want to overtake this board. Don’t know if you can private message on here, but happy to talk more about any of this promaty if anyone wants some more info if it’ll help.
Please also remember I had higher fsh,low Amh and low follicle counts plus the higher nk cells. Lots are not in this position and MrS definitely does have some fantastic results x