Thread 25. TTC #1 - February Fertility Fighters on the FRONTLINE

[AlexiaB]

Calling all OPK-ers, Temp-ers, Clomid-ers, Femara-ers, IUI-ers, IVF-ers and anyone else on the TTC #1 Bus.

We've been going a while now so the novelty has somewhat worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area. We've ditched the Gregorian calendar in favour of the TTC Cycle Day calendar, and we don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts, we just keep it legs spread and fingers crossed (LSFX). We love a baby bomb from a prior bus-mate but if we get told to 'just relax and enjoy it' ONE MORE TIME you will get a punch in the face!

We have a new Grad's Thread. We recently lost a whole load of ttc veterans to the good side and we're absolutely desperate to join in the fun! May 2017 lead us all to upduffed heaven and the Grad's thread, amen.

We don't have rules as such but expect to be talked down from the ledge with kind but firm words if you get too hysterical. But most importantly, don't convince yourself that you're pregnant in the tww. That is paramount!

Hop on board, post your stats and prepare to be dazzled by the wealth of TTC knowledge we long-timeys have to share...

jam have you seen a Dr? I am really worried about you! I think I am quite near to you - do you need supplies brought round or anything?
Try and stay away from Ibruprofen is fine.

Hope you can skip the meeting kathrino and have the scan! You need to put yourself first!

hep here is some to cheer you up!

flash I have heard amazeball things about cognitive behaviour therapy.

PLEASE CAN WE HAVE NO MORE TALK OF BATHS? I HAVE NOT HAD ONE SINCE 17 DECEMBER!!! 🛁

skipper still LSFX for you my lovely

Feeling out of sorts today... fricking better not be bad news!

kwick, looks like you need a nice cup of decaf tea too...

Take it easy!

Do you have another scan this week? Or is my memory rubbish?

hep your memory is fine I do indeed have 9 week scan on Thursday morning. I am shitting myself.

Whilst not suffering from anxiety I have had great trouble with my sleep - for years I would only get about about 4 hours a night. I used to smoke (don't ask!) and drank a lot to try and guarantee a longer sleep, I took loads of herbal things too. Somehow I have managed to find techniques to get me back to sleep when I wake up in the night - which I still do every night at least twice normally. I now am much better able to block night time worrying and remember things always look better in the morning. Only took me 42 years though!

kwick I will take the liberty of speaking for the entire TTC coven and send you are best wishes for Thursday! Its natural to be nervous(understatement?).

Presuming your scan is at CRGH, we should be at the same place on Thursday morning kwick. Let me know if you need anything at all (I'm sure you won't!)

I'm another sleep worrier/waker. DH is a perfect sleeper and it drives me bonkers. I always wake at least two or three times and it often takes me ages to get back to sleep.

Hello lovelies,

Just popping by to say thank you very much for the well wishes.

I'm going to make myself scarce (on this thread) for a little while; I don't want to be annoying to people. It's early days for me (I'm 4+2) so will see how things go.

I'm so sorry to read that people are struggling and that these struggles are manifesting themselves in ways that are difficult to deal with. However, I think that you are all wonderful, and what a brilliant and articulate support group we have. I'm so glad that this was the thread I chose to join, and it feels funny to be (sort of) going having not been with you great women for very long.

I am showering each and every one of you in baby dust and hope to see a flurry of BFPs very soon.

xx

I spent the whole day feeling hopeful as AF hadn't arrived this morning ( usual always arrives in morning exactly on same day of cycle) but at the same time I started to panic what if I am?! Then this evening AF arrives in full flow!
does anyone else go through the mixed emotions of what If and then the disappointment when your not ! Silly I know'

Oh well CD 1!

How's is everyone else any symptoms?!

Skipper you are not a broken record love at all, no one thinks that. It's completely natural the HSG would give you renewed hope and I really really hope it has done the trick for you. It's so so so hard to balance out getting hopes dangerously up with staying positive - almost impossible. Ride out the next few days as best you can and come here for as much support as you need to.

Mrsbluebell I also listen to podcasts at night to help me relax and sleep 🙂 and I'm totally with the others who wake lots and find it hard to get back to sleep! Very frustrating

Bless you kwick I was worried yesterday too but feeling a lot better today - not so faint. Still very achy and no appetite though which is so not like me. I've had two pieces of toast today and literally not thought about food since. Bizarre. Everything crossed for you for Thursday dear 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

Thanks starfish don't feel you have to rush off we know those early weeks can be nerve wracking

Hopeful sorry AF got you. There have been a couple of months when I've really thought I'm pregnant now and this compete rush of joy and happiness. I have also thought hmmm I wonder what will happen with my job? too which is interesting. We are all so desperate for this to happen we can forget how much it will turn our lives upside down too. But I can safely say I am ready for it now universe please!

Congratulations starfish!

london that sounds like some weird viral thing. Glad to hear you are feeling better today.

katharino impending af sucks. I hope it's not though.

flash sorry to read about your panic attacks. My DH had CBT last year for severe anxiety and he found it very helpful. I hope you can find a way to work through it.

skipper it's human nature to feel hopeful after a procedure which can improve your chances. I would be the same. It's so hard to try and keep yourself balanced at times. We are all here over the next couple of day for support if you need it.

Good luck for your scan on Thursday kwick.

Well even FF has said thathat they cannot establish an accurate ovulation pattern so have taken the cross hairs away. Something tells me it's just not going to happen this cycle. I feel an idiot for thinking that I would be more fertile immediately post mc and be one of the lucky ones who gets a bfp straight away.

Just noticed some extremely light spotting (only when wiping and barely there (amazing how closely I inspect loo roll now). Reckon AF is on her way 😞

flash just want to chime in that I've been there as well, and that it sounds like you're doing all the right things. Try to be gentle on yourself, if at all possible. I also found cognitive behavioural therapy a great help, if you're considering options. Yoga sounds very good.

Courage!

CD1 of Cycle 15 here. New test date of 9 March.

kathrino and hopeful so sorry fx for you both this cycle

So sorry for AF kathrino and hopeful

Hope it's not AF pyjamas fx for you

Hope the rest of the week goes quickly for you sk1pper. I'm only 4dpo and finding it so hard to not symptom spot!

Hope you're feeling better today jam

Will be thinking of you on Thursday for your scan kwick. All will be fine.

Fx for everyone else in the torturous TWW

So sorry for AF Kathrino & hopeful

And I really really hope it's not AF for you pyjamas!!

Sorry to those afflicted by the goddam witch.

Pyjamas - I hope you're not out yet, I really do.

I'm convinced I'm not pregnant this morning because my cervix is noticeabley low and hard. I know it's not the be all and end all but don't think it's worth pissing on a stick at all now. God I hate this!!

Thank you so much TTC coven

kathrino I will be the one freaking out and madly writing to you lot on my phone... I am also the one that most of the staff know by name as I have been going there so fricking long!
What time is your appointment?

Sorry hopeful

pug I am a believer that the post MC increased fertility lasts a few months - I think that alongside a hycosy is what did it for me.

skipper I don't even know where my cervix is let alone texture and position!
Hope AF stays away!

Thanks skipper and kaydee - still (sorry tmi) slight pink tinge when I wipe this morning. I'm hoping it's not AF as well, but self-preservation mode has kicked in so I'm gradually accepting AF is on her way. Must remember the three cycle theory after HSG and have some excellent fuck it days planned with DH.

Really hope you're not out skipper - I would wait to test, the one thing I'm thankful for is that I haven't had to despair at the whiter than white window of a FRER!

* skipper*, really hope AF leaves you alone!

Alright Pyjamas - you've convinced me...no testing :)

Good :) Just keep telling yourself if it's a no, AF will tell you anyway and if it's a yay you'll have a nice line to look at in that window :)

Thanks all.

kwick, my appointment is at 9am I think. I will be the one looking vaguely terrified in the corner and frantically trying to distract myself from the thought of the imminent prodding!

Pyjamas, so hoping that AF stays away and it's just a little bit of implantation bleeding. Lots of positive thoughts heading your way and the way of sk1pper. Both of you deserve your BFPs so much

kathrino and hopeful

Sorry kathrino and good luck for your appointment. Sorry hopeful as well. Come on pyjamas keep holding out! I'm rooting for you!

So I got this this morning. Think I'm 11 or 12dpo. It's exactly what my chemical was like this time last year so not ready to celebrate just yet, but at least I know my symptoms weren't all in my head!