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[PrtyPsn]

Hi (big wave)
So you clicked on here because you were looking for me (I'm flattered!) or the title seemed interesting!
I'm aware it doesn't really explain anything but we are bunch of lovely ladies all TTC and going ever so slightly crazy with it! For more info see our original thread here -

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/2412386-TTC-anxious-over-early-pregnancy-possible-symptoms?msgid=56357000#56357000

And our most recent thread here -

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/2531973-Christmas-is-here-but-its-not-the-turkey-thats-getting-basted-with-symptoms-to-spot-and-festive-cheer-Prty-and-the-gang-are-getting-BFPS-this-year?pg=39&order=

We are symptoms spotters extraordinaire - you name it we've had it, real and/or imagined
We are here to help, we are all supportive, we laugh, rant, cry, joke, rage, smile, and comfort together. Be you a lurker or poster (established or new) then you are very welcome here. We only have a few rules:

1. No judgement - we all lead different lives and have different standards and that is fine. You wanna get wasted everyday of TWW, that's fine. You wanna abstain completely, that's fine. We need support, not judgement.
2. No feeling stupid - we've all had those months where we definitely think we are pg 110% convinced and then AF turns up, don't feel bad about it, it happens. Also we all have different levels of knowledge so no question is stupid apart from the one you don't ask.
3. On this thread there is no such thing as TMI - we are all adults and we all know how miraculous and amazing... and downright disgusting our bodies can be, it's fine. Share what you want, we will not be fazed.
4. This thread is intended for support - both giving and receiving. If someone helps you then please be kind and return that to another TTCer.

So that's it, jump in and FX'd for all of my lovelies xx

Am absolutely gutted Prty, as much as I had been telling myself I wasn't pregnant, I couldn't help get my hopes up and now I am worrying about why I was late, should I assume it is a one off and treat the next cycle as my normal 28 days, what should I treat as the start of my next FW.... So many questions now

Sorry to hear about AF snowy do you use OPK's?

DH has to drop off his sperm assessment today so that the results will be back in good time for next Friday.. Really hoping it to be better than the last!!

Snowy so sorry about AF. I had my hopes up for you too, you must be so disappointed. Maybe OPKs are worth a go next month if you're not sure about cycle length. for you.

Prty well Im pleased for you that the doctor was helpful and you have a referral. Hopefully the appointment comes quickly. If there is an ovulation problem then that can be managed. You are getting closer to your BFP.

Lucy Im keeping my fingers crossed for your next test!

We had our letter through yesterday to say we have funding for IVF. Should get an appointment letter soon. I have an appointment today with my work supervisor so think I will tell her.

I would also try OPKs snowy they will at least help you pin point "the surge" (anyone else think that that sounds like a really bad horror movie?)

Good news about IVF funding pirsy, fingers crossed its all quick and vv easy from this point!!!

In other news yet another of my friends is pregnant, I've spent pretty much all morning crying and my OH keeps looking at me as if I might spontaneously shatter into a million pieces. Who knew this TTC thing would be so bloody emotional? And I'm only on my first proper cycle since the bloody coil!! I need some sort of slap I think!!

Is 9am too early for large portions of cake?!

Glitter I had stopped using OPKs as I was so regular and they were always coinciding with my ovulation pains so I decided it was less stressful to not use them. Already told DH I was going to buy them this month to get me back on track again, time for another of my famous 'I'm barren' shopping trips to boots, stocking up on OPKs, folic acid and sanitary towels.

So good about the funding Pirsy, that's amazing news

Oh Lucy I know that look, imagine what it will be like 18+ months in, that look is permanently in my DH face these days. God love my DH this morning, he got woke from a hungover sleep (he's a Liverpool fan so was drowning his sorrows last night) for a quick weep and a wail from me before I went to work, he looked totally bemused and confused

Snowy my husband is a big liverpool fan too! We actually live in Liverpool and had been to all the European games this season. He had a ticket for last night but gave it to a friend. There is a real feeling of disappoitment in the city today.

I can well believe that Pirsy.

Retail therapy done, purchased 2 lovely dresses for my hols (that I don't really need but i sure deserve them today)

I'm glad it's not just me who goes out to buy all those things and is stood there thinking "God everyone knows what I'm using these for and they're all thinking poor her- she can't just shag and have a baby" which is obviously totally ridiculous but hell- I'm irrational even when I'm not so what's one more addition to it all?!

OH tried to initiate sex last night and I just told him to get off as my belly hurt and then cried. I think I maybe have some making up to do, poor bloke!! The whole "imagine what it will be like if it gets to 18months" is what is really bothering me I think. It's the not knowing and the what ifs of it all that I'm spending way too much time thinking about- what if I'm infertile, what if I have something wrong with me, what if I do get pregnant but miscarry.... And so on!! Pathological over thinker right here!!

I know I say they have the easy bit but I'm not sure about that any more- at least I know I'm not blaming him, he has no idea that I'm not and (his personality trait here) tells himself that it must be all his fault!!

Anyway I've slapped myself now I've been at work a while and seem to be managing a bit better- although I just wiped and got weird EWCM which is bizarre. I'm sure creamy will be back before I know it!

So sorry AF has showed snowy

Ha! Sorry about the ridiculous username Prty and Lucy - ard will do

and it's never too early for cake...

Lucy didn't mean to make you worry with the 18 months bit, you are only 1 cycle in, its far too early to be worrying about that

Oh no snowy I didn't mean you'd made me worry- I was already doing that before so don't worry!! I'm a flat out overthinker haha!!

prty - I'm sorry it wasn't good news but you must take it as positive that you are being referred and will get the help you need which means you will get your BFP - it's a step forward towards it.
snowy - am gutted for you, I've been through exactly the same and it's devastating. Retail therapy always good
Hi ard !
I'm a big Liverpool fan too so was totally gutted last night too

Good news about IVF funding pirsy

Am glad now that DH and i have made the decision to have 1 more cycle au naturale and then go private - i am sick of going through this every month now. You would think i'd be used to the disappointment 19 cycles in but it just gets worse.

Yes Kitten retail therapy is very good even though i cant really afford it at the minute

I think that's a good decision snowy . I would if I could too. I know, you would think the disappointment would be more manageable but I'm the same - this is 24 and it gets worse every month

Kitten surely we will get there soon (FX'd)

Ladies, quite a lot of clotting in AF today, not something I normally experience, anyone any idea what would cause this?

snowy - yes definitely fingers crossed.
I'm not sure about the clotting, I know sometimes af is different to other months, maybe it's just that?
I'm very frustrated- getting signs of ovulation but am away from dh til Friday, it's early in the cycle for my ovulation and typical I can't do anything about it, the timing of getting back on Friday would normally have meant good timing for dtd but my stupid body decides to randomly ovulate early this month just to piss me off and waste another month, as if it wasn't all bad enough

What sort of signs? You could still be ok time wise, it is friday tomorrow so you could welcome him back wearing a smile and nothing else, that would def get him in the mood for DTD and then you are still ok for ovulation

snowy - it's an increase in cm which I thought meant ovulation but it's kind of tailed off later on today so hopefully all is not lost and that's a good plan for tomorrow- should do the trick

That's good Kitten

Still nothing on the knickerwatch front!! Just checking in as I get started at work, how are we all today??

Sounding more and more promising Lucy, any plans to POAS again?

I am missing knickerwatch, AF is really kicking my arse, really heavy (clotty) and painful whereas normally I would have quite a light flow with minimal pains. Back pain is still really bad and struggling to get a good nights sleep

On the positive side I have emailed some private clinics to get some information (I know DH and I agreed to wait one more cycle but it's doesn't hurt to be prepared) and had a chat with my mum about it last night and the offer of help is still on the table

Morning!

Still nothing on knickerwatch here - but cried at a song on the radio today, so good sign?!

Keeping FX for you Lucy!

Sorry you are having a rough one snowy Great that you have started to get all the information you need for the clinics, are they nearby or will you have to travel for them?

There are 2 within roughly half an hour to 40 mins drive from me (although they are only about 10-15 mins away from my work) so they are pretty handy

May test again Sunday. Unsure!! Sounds promising about the private clinics snowy- it's always good to be prepared, forewarned is forearmed and all that jazz!! So pleased you have supportive family, have read too many stories on here where people didn't and it just makes me sad for them!!

Knickerwatch is getting boring now, worn white pants today just to tempt her if she's coming!! Beginning to think it's maybe just a weird coil withdrawal thing though, not a BFP, however, positivity and all that!! Fingers crossed for all other knicker watchers!!

That's really good snowy, hopefully that will make it easier logistically at least.

LOL at the white pants; I wish I'd thought of that! FX for Sunday