Hi can I jump on? Have been on a few other buses but namechanged - MN offered me the chance to so I took it (nenehooo before - that name came about through desperation hence why it's rubbish!)
So this is me:
TTC #2
Cycle 5
Age 35
At the moment I'm feeling pretty down. Am having acupuncture and chinese herbs - have already spent £700 and last session they told me I need more pills to strengthen my womb and kidneys. I absolutely cannot afford it and it now feels like they just want to get as much money out of me as they can and I therefore trust them less.
Also getting lots of 'just have another baby' comments from people - work colleagues and even worse, my family. I just want to scream "I'M FUCKING TRYING" at them. And then cry and cry and cry so they can see just how fucking hard it is.
I'm trying every thing I can. Been trying to do SMEP and last cycle used preseed. Have managed to DTD just before and after ov every month and it's just not happening.
Aside from giving up decaf coffee (already gave up caffeine before Christmas), abstaining from booze completely (cut right down since Jan) and giving up work (major source of stress) I don't know what else I can do?!
And then I realise I'm being ridiculous and selfish and I know some of you on here have had a much harder time and longer struggle and I feel like a dick and need someone to give me a slap.
Sorry for the rant. AF nearly over, so maybe positive head will be back on soon... Anyone got any tips for staying positive in the meantime?! I am misery personified!