Halfway through my TWW and looking for company. Anyone in the same boat?

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I've still got about a week to go before I can POAS. DH and I have been trying for about 5 months, but I have very irregular cycles so it's all really hard to judge. I usually go about 2 weeks between periods so following that, AF should be due to arrive before the end of this week. But I'm thinking that would be too early to test and am very impatient! I've also been taking agnus castus this month on the advice of a medical friend so I'm feeling tentatively hopeful. Anyone around who wants to wait it out with me and not read too much into every symptom and definitely not take a test every day this week?

I'm out! AF arrived a day early!

birchy - you're funny!! Not telling dh about the price of things is definitely what we do in our house , if my dh had a clue how much I'd spent on ovulation kits, vitamins and pregnancy tests he'd think I was crazy (which I probably am!) I too could have bought lots of pairs of shoes for what I forked out so far!! And shoes would have been much better as nothing I've bought so far has made a bloody scrap of difference - I'm still nowhere near being pregnant!
fuzzy - I'm the same with symptom spotting too. I bet it was hard after your dp had been so thrilled too, but just think about your bfp which will happen soon and focus on that
remember!! You're so calm! Test soon - I can't wait to hear!! Don't worry about dh sample, I've heard that too - they just prefer to do it face to face, don't worry

red - so sorry to hear that. Gutted for you, I really am. It is devastating when it appears. I hate it early too. Try not to feel too down, easier said than done I know x

birchy - your gp sounds amazing!

birchy, loving your GP! Although I've heard some horror stories - one GP told me a couple came to him (teachers!) and said they'd been trying for two years, to no avail. So he was asking them about how often they dtd, etc., and realised that because they wanted the baby born at a certain time, they'd only tried for one month in each year...!!!

red, sorry about AF, that sucks. How're you holding up?

fuzzy I had a chemical pg last cycle as well, I know just how crap it is. That's on the back of a 19 week late mc last year - there's less time to have got your hopes up but it's still a massive blow. Hope you've both got support.

diamond, my holiday went well, thanks. It was very short, but good enough to feel slightly revived :) DH and I dtd yesterday - it was lovely, no pressure for ttc! Hope you enjoy your night tonight :)

remember, I have my fingers crossed for you - what birchy said is positive. Let us know when you poas, you have the patience of a saint!

Cd42 (12 days late) and counting! I got some cramps while dtd yesterday and the ewcm had the teeniest tinge of brown, so something's happening! Argh, hurry up (AF or bfp, I don't care anymore)!!

Hello again - sorry I haven't caught up with reading the stuff I've missed yet. I was feeling down and didn't want to go on about it too much on here. I hope you're all doing well and feeling upbeat.

I'm in a better frame of mind today. Just waiting for af to make an appearance so I can start my second clomid cycle. Had a load of creamy cm today - it shocked me a bit as there was so much of it. Nipples are still sensitive and one of them has been sticking out for over a week continuously and is actually cracked (sorry for tmi).

red sorry af came - it's gutting every time isn't it? Hopefully by tomorrow you'll be calculating when dtd#1 will be for next cycle and feeling all positive :)

birchy ttc costs a fortune! One reason why I've bought a thermometer and am hoping to get to grips with charting as I can't keep buying endless boxes of OPKs!

diamond , and everyone else, thank you for the hand-holding. I feel much better since chatting to DH this evening. We're feeling thankful that the GP has moved so quickly and we'll hold off worrying until we know the results of the blood test (absolutely no googling 'early menopause' for me tonight )

fuzzy and haquoi I don't know much about it but a chemical pregnancy sounds so heart-breaking - you wait and wait for that positive line only for it to be snatched away from you. For a chemical pregnancy to happen, does fertilisation happen but not implantation? (Sorry for lack of knowledge!)

remember hope all goes well for you and your DH tomorrow.

haqoui so pleased you enjoyed your holiday! We had two instances of dtd outside of fertile window last month and it was great! Felt like we reassured each other that we want each other for more than just pro-creation! Have you tested again or are you just gonna wait it out now?

A chemical pregnancy is one that successfully fertilises but for whatever reason fails to thrive and is miscarried, it's a very early miscarriage, mine was at four weeks. As it is picked up on HPT I'm assuming it starts implanting but doesn't last.

Diamond thanks for asking, I'm feeling right as rain today and my temp went up slightly.

So nice to see such encouragement ladies.

I poas before I went out earlier and another bfn. Am now cd35 but, with the adjusted ov day from ff, I'm only about 11dpo - am not supposed to test until 3rd June!!

It seems futile testing when my d21 bloods were negative but, at the same time, I hold on to the hope that I may have over after d21 as ff suggests!!

Thank goodness our GP was able to fit us in next week and we don't need to wait too long for the results - you've put my mind more at ease about the reason he wants to see us. And it gives us the chance to talk to him about the next step and my referral to the gynae consultant.

Oh, and I heard back from Clearblue today, they are sending me some forms to complete then will send me their ovulation test product and the rest of the trial equipment so I'll soon know what I'm doing for them!!

Thanks ladies. I'm more disappointed than I thought I would be but it was only our first attempt.

I've comforted myself with a curry tonight and will start with the positive thoughts tomorrow and get going again! Next month I will be due on my birthday so who knows could be a great birthday present! X

Morning everyone
Still negative opk here but looking back to my March stats I only got a positive opk on cd15 then so hopefully still time, I'm cd14 today.
haquoi - glad you had a nice hol, just what you needed. Has the brown turned into anything else yet?
finding - sorry to hear you've been down, are you sure af is on its way? They sound like symptoms to me
diana - glad you've had a good talk and are feeling better, yes stay away from google!
arty - glad you're feeling good , how's the temp today?
remember - sorry about bfn but could just be too early. I did that clearblue trial a couple of months ago, so any questions just ask and I'll try and help you
red - hope you enjoyed the curry! Yes positive thoughts from today - what a fab birthday present that would be! X

finding, that nipple sounds really painful! I'm sorry you're suffering so much!! I would ask when you last poas, but I'm coming to the conclusion that poas is bad for the soul! When is AF due?

Thanks Diana. I haven't tested today, I'm actually feeling positive in body and soul and don't want to ruin it - I'd like to wait till Monday, give it a good amount of time and then I can head straight to the GP if its negative.

diamond, I'm back to clear ewcm now! No cramps yet today and no blood. The brown was so faint I was squinting to see it anyway!

Cd43, 13 days late!! Last poas wed, bfn

Also, we're going to have to think about creating a new thread soon! Is it 40 pages max?

diamond, fingers crossed for you and ov. It's interesting what the others (birchy?) were saying about opks - maybe you should start temping?

finding this is the place for if and when you're feeling down...I'm glad to hear you're feeling more positive.

diamond on the months I've used opks I haven't ovd until cd19 I've just ordered a book on natural fertility and hoping I can work out why its so late and if I can do something about it.

haquoi I think you're right, and enormously restrained, to not poss until monday! Now to find lovely things to distract yourself over the weekend!

My news... firstly giving thanks that we have an amazing NHS! I have just had my blood results back (before 9am! I didn't have the test til 1pm yesterday) hormone levels normal, no sign of menopause or ovaries not working properly! Then get this for weird - my period has now started full flow - a full week late (if full flow counts as cd1) its almost like my body was holding on to it in a mind over matter battle - firstly thinking I was pregnant and then worrying about bad news. As soon as I knew neither was true my body released af. Sometimes I feel I have no control over my body but maybe I have more than I realise - just need to tap into how to be in control!

diamond I have just started temping this month and although it is all over the place and didnt think I would ever have a reading from it it has shown that I ovulated (it did take 3 days of temping after ovulation to pinpoint when it happened - so I think you def need a method of dtd eod or using opks as well. As downside of temping is that it only shows you when it has happened.

diana yehh for results and af - PMA for next cycle, this is our BFP months for us all! Our AF is highly influenced by our mood/stress etc so I can well believe that it was delayed due to wanting to be pregnant so badly and then by stress of thinking something was wrong.

FF changed my ovulation day to cd17 which is when I thought it actually was as had peak reading on cd16 on cbfm. gently bobbing through this 2ww

Diana so pleased for you, that must have been such a relief to hear. I know a lot of people have a downer on the NHS but it has always come up trumps for me too when I needed it. I very rarely go to the docs tho, so when I go it's serious and they have always been lovely and efficient.

Haquoi, do you normally have CM at this point in your cycle? It could be a symptom (cheerfully symptom spotting for everyone else)

Think the worse thing for me is that my symptoms (I have many) are so similar to AF, it's so easy to drive oneself nuts.

Really looking forward to the weekend, somehow bank holidays weeks feel like the longest.

Diana that's great news from doc. Every now and then I worry that short cycles might mean onset of the dreaded M. But I think my main issue is worry. And you're right about your body. Stress has a massive impact on how the body works.
So I have absolutely no symptoms, but feel so please with myself for making it through week one of this tww that I want to test...I'm outta school at 3.30 today and will probs have tested by 3.45! I just need to pee on something! It's a week since I last did, so surely it's time. Ahhhhh .... the wait is too long!
Haquoi any sign of BFP or AF? This is pretty outside of normal cycle surely?! Hope you're not feeling too frustrated.
Sorry about your AF Red. She's a complete cow!
diamond and remember - what is the trial about? Sounds like it would be really helpful for ttc.

haquoi - ewcm clear now - I'm still hoping for a late bfp for you - it's crazy isn't it what we go through. Glad you're feeling positive. I know, it is strange about ovulation, I probably should temp, I thought I never would but it probably is the only way to understand what's going on.
diana - that's interesting what you've said about ovulation being late for you too - it just shows that the 14 day ovulation obviously isn't the same for everyone. Brilliant news about your tests , so happy for you! And how weird about your af, I think stress and worry plays a huge part in how our bodies work and it seems like the relief brought it on.
birchy - thank you - yes I will consider tempting, that's really interesting.
hewy - - I'm just like you - proper poas addict! Already wondering when the earliest is I can poas and I've not even ovulated yet!! Good luck for when you do!
The trial is a ttc clearblue trial so you need to keep urine samples every day for a month and do a diary, the rewards are free a digital ovulation kit, pregnancy tests and then if you're lucky enough to get pregnant you get high street vouchers, unfortunately I wasn't so got the commiserations prize of another digital ovulation kit for when the trial had finished!
Yes the thread only lasts for 40 pages so we need to think of a new thread name for our lovely group to set up soon

I do ramble on don't I?!!!!

mayoforsam I use then cbdm. I'm not so sure it's worth the money. But like you I love gadgets ... Would I buy it agai- am not so sure. It does help pinpoint things tho. And I do find it very accurate. Sticks are very sensitive so I find peeing on them over saturates them so pain o peeling in a pot and dipping every day. I also like that it takes the thinking out of it - tells you what to do and when.
Bad points - doesn't do anything that an app doesn't do. And doesn't have facility for temps either.