Cycle 1 ~ first ever 2ww!

[CluelessDil]

Hi all I know there are a couple of 2ww threads but hopefully you won't mind me starting my own one since it's my very first time!

I posted a month or two ago under a different name about how I was sad about having to wait until New Year for practical reasons to start trying and lots of you said stuff the practicalities just go for it!

So... If I am lucky enough to be one of those people who fall pg first time I will be finding out in two weeks when I'm on holiday!

I keep trying to tell myself there's no way I'll be that lucky but secretly thinking I might be?! Just hope I'm not too disappointed when reality may kick in...

Anyway I'm babbling now, just very excited and nervous and if anyone would like to keep me company over the next couple of weeks it would be great to have you around because the only person I have to share this with is Dh, he's great but I'm not sure he'd be my go to for things like symptom checking etc!

Exactly!

Well I am going to try and get some sleep now, hope you manage to drift off soon.. One day closer...

I'm on my first 2ww too. I'm driving myself crazy symptom spotting. Problem is I'm not 100% sure on my ovulation this month. I usually know by ewcm but it wasn't clear this month so I'm panicked we may not have dtd at the right time. Also my periods vary between 28-35 days so I'm not sure when I should test. Argh there's so many things whirling in my head right now! Last af was 3 weeks ago, I'm too impatient to wait until my longest cycle to test. I'm convinced I'm having implantation cramps as I never usually cramp except when ovulating and during af. Also have been extremely tired all week...

I know what you all mean re drinking and how to cover this up. We have the in laws staying this weekend and they'll definitely notice if I'm not drinking. Eek!

Am I the only one going crazy with all this?! Boyfriend is very supportive but he'd think I'm nuts if I shared every obsessive thought with him. I don't really want anyone to know we're trying either so can't discuss with family or friends. This 2ww business is torture!

Hi beanlovesbong - nope, you are definitely not alone!! From what I've seen so far on MN ... We are 95% manic symptom spotters (myself included!) and crazy is what we do! Vent on here so you can appear calm and chilled to your Bf

To drive yourself a little less crazy, would urge you to wait until your longest cycle before testing. I've not tested yet (also my first cycle of TTC), but I can just imagine what a kick in the teeth a negative test would be after all this hoping (plus, they're damn expensive for the decent ones!).

Come on, we can do this! When is AF due if it were to be a long cycle?

Thanks UpNorth74. Longest cycle would be 27th, that seems like ridiculously far away! My last few cycles have been 28 days so maybe I could do in between, like 31 days, then it would be 4 days before my longest cycle? I'm just so impatient, that's the problem. I think I might need another hobby to occupy me rather than obsessive symptom watching! And this is only cycle 1...

Well I'm a bit stressed about tonight, I am planning on having a couple of glasses of wine but can't help thinking that means I know deep down I'm not pregnant -which doesn't even make sense!

I had quite a sleepless night last night, just lots on my mind as I am going though a busy time.

Anyway just checking in to wish all is first time 2ww'ers a good Saturday night!

Don't stress cluelessdil ! I have a friend who fount out she was 5 weeks a couple of days after a SERIOUSLY heavy night on the tiles .... And her pregnancy and DS turned out all fine and dandy. So at this point, a couple of wines won't hurt.

Plus your brain and your ovaries don't speak to one another ... So your brain becomes the needy over-thinker. It's tricking you into feeling guilty over fancying a wine - don't listen to it! You might be multiplying cells as you speak, so give them positive thoughts!

I've been crazy busy this week, so my 2ww is whizzing by. Felt a little bit PMT-y this week, but it could be down to work and having no time to run - always makes me feel grumpy!

Thanks up north that was exactly what I needed to hear had a nice night, probably had less than I normally would as I've literally not finished my second glass but not because I'm feeling guilty just chatting too much! Also had a small baileys hot chocolate...

I'm feeling a bit pmt ish too. A bit bloated but trying my best not too symptom spot too much as I'm
convinced my brain tricks my body into giving me false symptoms!

Glad the 2ww is going in quick for you, hope it continues that way for both of us.

I should probably post on one of the busier threads but coming back here because I'd quite like to record in one place the 'symptoms' I feel like I'm having. Also it feels like a safe quiet little corner

I feel very pmt like, felt quite snarky and tired last night although that could be down to being up late the night before.

Today feel bloated and have the same feeling as I usually do a few days before af is due but I'm still 10 days away! Planning on doing a first response 6 days before af due or longer if I can stand it.

How are any of you fellow 2ww'ers doing?

Not so great over here - confusing symptoms .... unusual pains as well as the normal pre-AF cramps. Not AF yet though ... remaining hopeful.

CluelessDil - if you're thinking of testing before your AF is due ... please don't take a possible negative as gospel! I was reading the back of tests in Asda a couple of days ago (as you do, passes the time!) and it said if you test 4 days before you're due then there is a 58% chance you'll get an incorrect result. If you test 3 days before, 60-odd%, 2 days before, 80-odd% etc - it only came to 98% accurate on the day you are due. This was on clear blue.

So ... if you can hold on ... I would! Just for your own sanity ;)

I like this quiet corner too - some of the other threads can be quite boisterous! Us 1st timers need a little space..

CORRECTION - on the test thing above, there is a 58% chance you'll get an accurate result, not a 58% chance of an incorrect result.

Brain went to sleep for a few minutes!

Hi upnorth thanks so much for that info, really interesting, I had no idea about those stats. I think you are right holding off would be best but I'm not sure if I can last until next Wednesday! First response must make an absolute mint with people having to re-test.

The thing is I fly out on Saturday, if I don't test that morning it will probably be a case of waiting for either af to appear or holding off until the following sat. Although if I'm late I think I'd convince myself I was pg and would worry about the disappointment being too much. Decisions!

Sorry you are having confusing symptoms, must be sending your mind into overdrive.

I definitely still feel like I've got pmt but I'm approaching a week before now so that wouldn't be too abnormal. I am really tired though so hoping that's a good sign.

I do have a question for anyone who might care to answer, I've never suffered with sore boobs as part of af, when you feel that is it a muscle pain or the actual tissue that feels tender/sore? Just wondering what to look out for as that seems to be a common symptom

I always find my boobs are just sore and feel swollen - only happens occasionally before a period.

Could you take a test on Hol with you? Save the waiting?

Still PMT-img like crazy over here. More cramp this evening. Tomorrow is day 28 of my cycle (but I'm so irregular, I can often go up to 35 days), the AF feeling is imminent... STILL a glimmer of hope to hold onto!

Also feeling guilty as I just sighed an unreasonable sigh when my 21 year old cousin just announced she's expecting.

Oh don't feel bad it's your hormones not you! I overheard a loud conversation in work that someone was pg and at first I didn't even turn around I just needed a few moments and I could even feel my face go red!

I was so glad I had a couple of moments to compose, went and found her and said congratulations etc and was genuinely pleased for her. Those first few moments though, so hard. I think that's the first time I'd felt that.

I am going to take the test on holiday, sat is too early and I only have one so promised myself I won't buy another one. I just didn't want it to become the focus of my holiday but who am I kidding, there is no magic switch that will make me turn off!

Being so irregular must be so frustrating, I'm glad you are better at me from holding out to poas. We are nearly there!

Plus even if cycle 1 lets us down we could still be pg by Christmas

8 dpo now, as far as I know from my period tracker app, could be wrong of course.

I caved and poas. BFN. It could be that I've tested too early or it could be that I'm just not pregnant. I think I feel the way I normally do about a week before af is due.

I'm in awe of people who put themselves through this for years

Ah clulessDil - don't get down about you BFN ... I think it could just be too early.
Maybe try and enjoy your holiday as if you weren't pg - your last holiday as a twosome!! Then, like you say ... Try again when you come home and you could have one in the oven by christmas!

Partner and I decided we would wing it for a few months - as in just 'see what happens', so I've not git an ov app or anything yet. Though I can see this might become a thing in the new year!

I hear you - I don't know how people stay composed whilst TTC for months, or years. They must be so strong. Here's hoping we don't have to find out what it takes!

Chin up!

Thanks upnorth you have been a star for me on this thread

We are out all day and night tomorrow and then don't come home until next Sat so I might go a bit quiet but I'll update when I'm home because I'll definitely know one way or the other!

Trying to look at pre new year as practice runs!

Good luck to you, please post if you get any news

my af due today and had small amount of (light brown) blood at lunchtime but nothing since. cervix is low and soft (sorry if TMI). not sure what it all means... I have posted on other 2ww thread but not sure I'll get a response on there. stressing out about it so just need to share. I'm probably being stupid thinking this is anything but my af right?? it is only cycle one so I guess I shouldn't dispair! if nothing else I guess I've learnt this month that obsessing over symptoms can convince you of things that aren't really happening. how is everyone else doing?

Hello,

This is the first month that DH and I have agreed that we are hoping to get pregnant with our second - our daughter is nearly 3, and I am BROODY! I work with pregnant women so am hoping that their bumps rub off on me, haha!

AF due 22ndish, so last few days of wondering. I remember from last time (TTC 8 months but JS, not being very organised) that just as I was sure I was pregnant AF would arrive - I got very good at convincing myself that pre-menstrual symptoms were signs of pregnancy....

Trying to be nice and relaxed about it and enjoy the lead up to being pregnant, trusting it will happen at the right time (but of course if whoever is coming to our family next would like to HURRY UP that would be grand too.

Hi RoseOolong .... It is rather cruel that Preto symptoms can pretty much be the same as AF!

Trying to stay super chilled here - AF could be due any day, trying to hold off getting any hope up until next thurs/fri when I will officially be 'late'. Sending chilled vibes your way CluelessDil ... Enjoy your holidays and deal with all this (one way or another!) when you get home.

beanlovesbong ... It ain't over till fat AF sings! If your due today then it's probs an ok time to test? If it were me, I'd hang on a day or two ... But I'm in the irregular cycle camp, and my AF like to play mean games!

Best of luck all of you ... As CluelessDil says ... Please post any news!!

Above should read PREGGO not PRETO!

thanks for the support upnorth. still no af, just very slight bloody/brown cm once today, as yesterday. I've been holding off on POAS, taking the plunge tomorrow if still no further signs of af, as agreed with bf. I'm not holding my breath but keep your fx!!

All crossed for you!

This has been my first cycle ttc. Today is day 33 of my cycle and my af is due today. Nothing as yet I'm holding out doing a test until middle of next week. Trying not to get my hopes up and then be disappointed if negative result.

Clulessdil i would just enjoy your holiday hopefully that will distract you until u decide to do the test. Fx for everyone xxx

BFN, but still no af, only small amount of brown cm. on day 30 of a 28-35 day cycle, not sure when I ovulated last month and may have missed the boat due to bf being out of action for a few days!! so it's confusing but looking unlikely. I'm out with friends tonight, should I assume I'm out this month and have a few drinks or abstain? what would you do??

update - af arrived. no more confusion, going to have a few drinks tonight and get trying again next week x