Eggsellent Egg buddies! For those having ivf during April, May and June and any others still around :-)

[starsandmoonandback]

Couldn't see another thread so thought I'd make our new one

Stars - so, when have you booked that scratch for, my dear?

Go on, let me spur you on!

Val - in case I get side-tracked later, will be thinking of you at scan tomorrow if they let you out to attend...

Aaaarrrrrhhggghjjj! Cups !!! We were all worried. I'm fucking over the moon for you. Fantastic!!

Did you have a scratch Res?

Val hoping your scan goes well. Let us know.

Sorry res not cups!!

Res, so happy for you!!!!! (and delighted that on this occasion you were wrong). It just goes to prove that you never really know until you test and shows what a roller coaster ride this truly is. Congratulations on your BFP (well deserved and thoroughly worked hard for). Wishing up a very smooth and worry free pregnancy .

I've not been on for a little while, only cos life seems to have taken over a bit. Sorry! I need to catch up properly so ill be back on later. Love to all the fabulous egg buddies. You're amazing! Xxx

Cups: good luck with egg collection today my dear. Hope there are lots of great quality eggs for you. Xx

Stars. Book. Your. Scratch!

I had mine on day 3, and had the cycle so its not too late. Xx

OH MY GOD RES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I knew it! I am soooo glad you were wrong! I am really happy for you and Mr Res (but especially you)

RES, I had a feeling but you were so sure it hadn't worked. So so so pleased for you lovely. Woohoo!!!

Cups, good luck today hun. Hope you get some good eggs, especially 'the one'!!

Everyone else...hellooooooo

I will ring my clinic today!!!!

Wooohooooo Res!!!!! This process turns you into a complete nutter. Huge hugs!

Cups everything crossed for today.

Turq - my earlier meassge to you didn't post - don't know why.

How're you doing? The SIL's pregnancy is so badly timed but once it's out (the baby, I mean), I hope that it'll be easier for you to be with her.

And to answer your question below, nope, no scratch for me. The retained placenta pull-out and the next year's ERPC were enough for me - no one else is getting in there for a while (esp DH).

Res Fabulous news, bloody well done you!

Cups good luck today, got everything crossed for you

Congratulations res! Am I right in thinking you had two put back after a FET so could be twins??

Xxx (Onelittlebugbear) have been lurking for a while!

One/hanging - you are right but I am not thinking about that possibility presently (and beginning to regret my joy at winding up DH about the prospect after he failed to accompany me to ET)!

How are you? Going for it again? You know my view - JUST DO IT!

Am currently 12dpo and due to ring clinic as soon as I come on (should be late Weds I reckon). Stupid of me, but I can't help wondering what if... (was on 100mg Clomid, had ridiculous response with 6 mature follies which consultant reckoned were possibly all viable eggs). Pretty certain I ovulated overnight the day after seeing consultant. We'd DTD 48ish hours earlier, though haven't since (was very strongly advised not to). I know in my heart I am probably just symptom spotting things which aren't anything: first time ever my boobs don't hurt pre-AF (body effing with my head for no reason), terribly emotional (but friend has just had a baby) and funny tummy (I blame DH's roast lamb for this one TBH...). Not to mention it would save a helluva lot of diesal . Ah well. We'll see I guess.

I'm all annoyed with myself now have left it too late to get a scratch this cycle and need a fresh clamydia test result too. Next month won't work as transfer/results will be around D's birthday which I don't want as it could potentially destroy me The month after would be mid August and we'll be on holiday, so wouldn't be able to have scratch until September for October transfer! Seems too far away. And I'm kicking myself for being an idiot and procrastinating over it all

Argh!

I will probably carry on lurking and willing you all on. God knows if anyone deserves success it's the women on this thread!

Xxx

Double argh!
My phone is having a breakdown! I thought there was a message id posted before the previous one but it's disappeared!

I had written that basically ive decided against another cycle. It won't work and it's a waste of £7k. I'm absolutely positive I won't ever be pregnant again. It feels like karma for having Pnd and really struggling when ds was born. I half think something will happen to ds. Someone for sure has decided I don't deserve any more children and I'm just trying to reconcile myself to that being it. I know I probably won't ever be properly happy but I guess that's just how it is.

I'm looking for a job instead but aiming low and applying for everything as after stopping at home for 4 years I am probably basically unemployable. I've been volunteering three days a week but it seems to count for nothing in the real working world.
Not great, infertile and unemployable. I do lie awake at night thinking how lovely it would be to not wake up in the morning. Sigh.

Off now to go and clean my house - my kitchen in particular is not in a good way!

One - I don't like the sound of all that. Are you getting any help (of the conselling variety, not for housework)?

I'm sorry to read that you are not going to put yurself through another round and understand why but (i) I truly hope that you will be happy, for a long time and get to that state soon and (ii) you know it's rubbish that you are being punished for PND. I had it too and have to say that the propspect of enjoying the first two months' of A N Baby's life has been a driving force as I was a mess after DD was born. It was not your fault that you were unlucky with it, just like me.

I think that's a lot of it with me Res - I want to try again because I feel like I missed out with ds and personally feel like I got it all wrong.

I hate that he won't have a sibling. I feel like I've failed him, again, after already failing him those first few months. I haven't had any counselling because I don't think it will help. I've just got to accept it is how it is I guess. I am lucky to have ds and I do know that. It's a double edged sword though because it means irl no one has any sympathy - you've already got one be grateful seems to be the mantra of everyone I know. Even through they all have at least two children themselves.

I'm worn out with thinking about it and mulling it over and the injustice of it all. I do need to try and move past it and hopefully if I find some work it will give me something else to concentrate on. At the moment I'm just a drain on my dh - not bringing in any money, ds at school most of the day, can't even have a baby. Basically I add nothing. So I need to do something so that I'm not so useless.

One, hun. Sorry you've decided not to cycle again. It must have been a hard decision to make. I understand the feeling of not deserving things, another baby included, but that is related to depression and low self esteem with me, rather than it being the truth. You deserve to have another chance to enjoy a second baby. Any type of depression, especially PND is awful and totally unfortunate. Often affecting people that really don't deserve it.

Also, Res was soooo SURE she wasn't pregnant, wasn't getting a bfp.....and look where she is now . We never really know unless we try.

I am completely daunted by the prospect of trying to get a job when DS goes to school. I'm a primary teacher, but everything has changed since I last worked. And it doesn't seem like teaching a great place to be at the moment! Who the hell is going to employ me?! I only have a few years experience but haven't worked for 4/5 year! Argh! I'm keeping my head firmly in the sand until I get closer to the reality!!!

I'm a primary teacher too but I'm not applying for teaching positions - mainly support ones.
I've also applied to a few other things that are completely random. Basically anything that kind of fits in with ds's school hours. I want to go back to work but I also don't want to miss out on ds whilst he's still small, especially as it will be just him.

Dh says I can't 'know' that it would never work, but I do. I don't exactly believe in woo type stuff but I do think you should trust your instincts. I was certain immediately after having ds , despite thankfully having no problems the first time round, that I wouldn't be able to have any more babies and with each new piece of information (crap sperm, crap eggs) it seems more and more like my feeling is right.

Sully dh is making me feel worse atm. He keeps going on about me being a "lady of leisure" and telling me how easy I have it.

It's not by choice! The only reason I didn't apply for stuff sooner was because I knew we would be having treatment and starting a new job didnt seem the best time to be asking for time off for Ivf appointments. I was scanned nearly every day last time and they keep a close eye on me because of the type 1 diabetes.

Now I've decided not to go ahead in June Im applying as much as a can and still carrying on volunterring which I've done since October anyway. Ds wasn't full time until after christmas either. But every time dh goes on about "what have you done all day?" "It's alright for some" etc etc it makes me feel that bit worse. I would like to run away and leave everything behind me at the moment.