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Couldn't see another thread so thought I'd make our new one

Oh res hun. I feel your anxiety on the page. It's natural to feel this way at the end of the 2ww. You want this sooo much. The mind plays tricks on you. You are how many dpo now? Only you can decide when to test. If a test would be reliable by now, then you just have to decide whether knowing the result would be better than not knowing and feeling like you do now. There's no right or wrong. Sending you a big 'unmumsnetty' hug

Bears, thank you I've had one scratch which was an awful experience, but think I hadn't drunk enough water...or so they said! Last cycle i'd had a hysteroscopy, so it works in the same way. I know everyone raves about the scratch, but I'm struggling to feel positive about it making any difference to me

You must be excited about your next scan your clinic are good. My clinic scanned me at 6+2 with DS and then discharged me! I felt all alone!! It was weird! You'll be amazed at what you see at this scan. I'm so pleased your 'last' time worked

res I'm sending you a hug too. Remember the drugs send you a bit mad too, so try not to worry too much. I think what kept me sane-ish was just telling myself that there was absolutely nothing I could do. however DP would probably disagree and tell you a was a mental sobbing mess because I thought it hadn't worked

Nobeer! You're so right! All the drugs mess with our minds. And I'm sure you were as calm as a cucumber, really nobeer just like I always am in the 2ww!
How are you?! X

It's very quiet on here!

I'm lurking...not doing great in the anxiety stakes...

Hi Val, oh hun. How many weeks are you now? It's hard not to be anxious after the journeys we've all had. Keep talking to us hun xx

6+3.

I am so petrified of another MMC. I don't know how I would go through it again. And if it did happen I an pretty sure I couldn't go through this stage of PG again. It's so, so tough.

Val, I can understand that having had a mmc too. The likelihood is not that high though. They definitely told me that at the epu, just a few times!! You're pregnant now hun, try hard to think about this as a totally different pregnancy. I know it can't be easy. I've had 3 bfn's since my mmc so think that was my last chance. X

Res how are you doing? Have you decided when to test? I'm keeping everything crossed for a BFP x

Val big unmumsnetty hugs for you x

Tame how are you doing? Thinking of you.

Stars not long now, I thought we were cycling at the same time too?!

I'm on day 6 stimms, just waiting for my bloods. First scan is thurs. I'm feeling the same dread as last time. What if I don't respond, how many follicles do I have etc.... God help me in the 2ww!

Hi Cups wow you're half way through Stimms already. They've upped your drugs haven't they so that should helpfully help those follies to grow

Weirdly I think subconsciously I've not booked my apt or scratch yet for a reason. But I'm not sure quite what it is! Maybe I'm scared of having to get to the 'end' of this journey.

Ps. Cups. Good luck for thurs. I'll be thinking of you x

Res, there is nothing really to help with the worry and despair, but i just want you to know that I am thinking of you, and I hope that these doubts are just the emotional roller coaster. If you are testing today I am keeping everything crossed for a good result.

Vall, the chance of things going well are much higher than the chance of things going wrong. I know it doesn't stop the anxiety though - hang in there.

Stars, there is no rush to start your next cycle. Just go for it when you feel good and ready, especially due to the pressure you are feeling.

Cups, day 6 of stimms already! Exciting and nervous times. Do you have any idea when egg collection might be based your previous cycle(s)? Hoping that everything is going to be fine with your bloods and scan.

Tame, thinking of you. x

How are you getting on Turq, Green, Cheap and Jodie?

It's been hailing (!) here, so i have had to scrape together lunch from the cupboard. Lentil, carrot, tomato and coconut milk soup with some indian spices - it's edible!! Stitch tomorrow...crapping myself. Thinking i ought to tame the lady forest i'm currently sporting if he has any hope of finding where to put the bloody thing...ugh...

Beetle. You made me giggle! I'm sure they'll find where to stitch in amongst your lady forest lol!! Sorry you're a bit anxious about it. It's understandable tho. Hope all is going well though?

Thanks for your kind words about me and my cycle. I have a scared feeling my frostie may not even defrost and not sure how I'll cope with that disappointment either... Arghhhh!

Stars, at my clinic the defrost success rate was in the 90%'s...i think there is a really high chance of everything going well in that respect, but as we all know, if there is something that can be worried about - we will find it!

Everything is OK so far. I'm still getting brown sludge and it will be four weeks on thursday since my big red bleed. I just hope it doesn't delay the surgery.

I think it is the thought of the spinal block that is freaking me out at the moment...does anyone have any experience?

Beetle, thanks. Hopefully I'll be in the defrosting percentage I've only got the one!

Have they said where the brown sludge is coming from? What exactly it is? It must be a worry. A friend of mine bled throughout pregnancy monthly and was in and out of hospital. They could never really say why, but she had a healthy 5 year old at school now! It is apparently more common than we realise, but as we also know after Infertility the journey of pregnancy in itself is full of anxiety, even if it's straightforward!

Is a spinal block the same as an epidural?

Popping by to say hello! Am mainly just lurking ATM and randomly reading instadiffer threads Ugh, is it just me or do some folks need a bit of a slap when they are on cycle two and STILL NOT DIFFED. Hey ho, maybe I would have been like it years ago, who knows not bloody likely I hope

Trying to get my head around everything TBH. And also paranoid about posting much in case am somehow identified (insane I know).

Beetle - I had a spinal block for the removal of a retained placenta after DD's delivery. I had a post partum haemorhage so wasn't really with it but the procedure was painless and I didn't feel the nice young male doctor sticking his whole forearm up me to get it out . My job involves defending medical negligence claims and so I know far too much about what can go wrong but I had no problems at all. All the sensations/feelings returned after a few hours and I've had no problems since which might be related. Don't fret, it'll be fine.

Stars - don't you fret either. I was convinced our frosties wouldn't thaw and remember the embryologist breezing it and telling me they both thawed fine with 100% cell recovery - I was almost disappointed not to have that bit to worry about!

Beetle good luck for tomorrow. I have no personal experience of spinals but have seen it done lots at work. If it's any reassurance all the ones I have seen have been straight forward and the patients have said it wasn't as bad as they thought it would be

Hi Res, how are you doing?

Stars those sound like pretty good odds on embies defrosting. I know it's impossible not to worry but I'm sure it will be ok. I can understand you not wanting to rush into it if this is going to be your last go. Do it when you feel ready x

Well no need to worry about lack of response as I've over responded my estrogen has come back at 2850 so I'm reducing the menopur from 225 to 187.5 tonight. So I'm now mentalling about OHSS etc. I can't win. I'm going to be driving myself crazy regardless of blood/scan results. Last time I only stimmed for 9 days so I may not have much longer to go unless I need to coast for a bit.

I'm feeling achey and bloated, I can't be bothered to do anything.

Hi Cups. 'Can't be bothered to do anything' - sounds like the perfect cycle! ET looking likely for next week, then. Eek!

AFM, resigned to BFN but still can't bring myself to confirm it...

Cups! Blimey! Did they scan you and count follies too? At least tweaking the drugs now can make a difference hun. EC pretty soon then?!

Res, why resigned yourself? Is it self preservation mode you've gone into? So hope you're wrong

I'll try not to fret (not doing a good job of it at the moment tho!) I just don't want my journey to end yet.

Feeling utterly rubbish today. Felt a bit better yday but this morning woke up feeling awful and haven't improved all day. Just put DS to bed and I'm getting in bed myself.

Beetle. Take care tomorrow. I'm sure it will be ok.

Stars, seriously, they didn't even really discuss the prospect of non-survival with us (other than in passing along with all those other risks which I sort-of-dismissed). I think thaw rates are so good now that if the embies have got to freeze, they do well the other side. Why not get your scratch booked? Go on, you know you want to...

Cheap - we won't out you, promise!

Res. I will book scratch tomorrow! You've spurred me on!

Cheap, say what you like on here. We don't care and I'm sure you don't out yourself at all! People banging on how about how bloody easy it is to get pregnant or how they've been TTC for 2 months need a slap! really annoying. I stay away from those threads!

cups I overstimmed massively this month on Clomid (100mg) which I was put on by my local hospital consultant gynae, but has caused, ummm, a few "raised eyebrows" at IVF clinic (different hosp). I was apparently ovulating anyway, and hadn't been scanned in either last month's Clomid cycle or this one. Turns out I have managed to create an unheard of (well at least according to IVF doc) 6 mature follies. Cue strict instructions not to DTD for next week or so "as you could have 6 eggs fertilized, or more...") Bloody ironic!

Oh well, hopefully it bodes well for next week...